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Hello Everybody! Firstly I want to say

how very sorry I am that I have not uploaded

in two weeks.

I think that's the longest I've gone on this channel

for a really long time

without uploading.

I do have a good reason for it..

I have been so busy.

The reason I'm out of breath is I've just run to the top of the stairs..

ow, I've got a blister..

Always wear socks with trainers!

And the reason I'm out of breath is because I've run up all the stairs

and this room is like a sauna!

So I'm a sweaty mess.

I'm just gunna be a bit of a mess in this video I think.

I've had the same make-up on all day..

I'm just not really sure what this looks like.

But we're here! We're making a video!

And yeah, as I said, really sorry I have been so busy

it's actually unreal, and I didn't feel very well last week

so, here I am! Up in my attic!

Uh! Listen to the seagulls!

Aww it's like being back in my old flat on the sea front,

who remembers that?

I've got my legs open, this is not a good look, it's a good job you can't see!

I know you guys really like my more kinda chilled,

chatty videos or Q&As,

whether that's just me or with a friend.. umh..

and so I thought I would do one today! Do another little

chatty Q&A. Have I got lipstick on my teeth?

Nah. So the biggest portion of my viewership or

audience on YouTube are people over the age of

eighteen, but

there are still a huge, huge amount of you

who are under eighteen, and I always

notice a lot of you have a lot of questions about

what it was like for me being a teenager and how I

dealt with certain situations growing up

and I don't feel like I've ever done a video like this..

umh.. so, I asked you

all on Twitter if you had any.. oh and on Instagram actually!

I said on Instagram story, if you've got any questions

then, come Tweet me. I feel like the first thing

I should point out though is how different

it must be, being a teenager

to when I was a teenager, because funnily enough,

as much as I hate to admit it, that was actually quite a long

time ago for me, so I was

seventeen, ten years ago, so my early teens

was a wee while, I'll let you do the maths

and I get asked the same question quite a lot

which is, if you were a teenager now

how would you find it, and honestly

I don't know, I think you all deserve a medal

because things like social media

and Instagram, and likes and like this whole kind of

popularity thing

wasn't around when I was in school, we had MSN

messenger

and there was like AOL chat-rooms, and we

could text if we had credit, and

there is a huge part of me that is so thankful

that

things like MySpace,

Beebo, and Facebook, only really

happened, towards

the end of my teens. Which was the first one we had?

We had.. I feel like I had MySpace first, and then

Beebo, and I must have been fifteen, sixteen

And I feel like, no one really knew how to use

it, and it was all very new,

and it wasn't the same. Although I would say for any of

you nineties kids out there

who may have also use Beebo and MySpace, the only thing we

ever really had arguments about, was

in what order your friends were

In your top 8 friends. *laughs*

I used to hate doing that!

I think I used to shuffle mine, or put them on random, because it was like

That was, the only thing that caused rows in our friendship group

Or did it? I don't know; maybe I just secretly got really sad if i wasn't like at least someones top 5 *laughs*

The most interactions I ever had with people would be on MSN messenger

and in those days, you only had your friends - that was it.

and the only thing you really had to think about was which song lyrics you were gonna put in your MSM messenger like tagline

what was it called? bio? tagline? I can't remember

but hey! if we didnt have twitter you wouldnt have been able to ask me these questions

so...

theres that i guess!

Julia did actually ask "How do you think

being a teenager in present day differs from when you were a teen?

and I guess I sort of answered that. There's

more pressure now outside of your friendship group, which

I didn't have back then. The only

interaction with people who we were really friends with was

actual face to face conversation,

and then by the time we were sort of friends, that's when you'd get

their MSN and that's when you'd get their number, but

there wasn't that same

kinda of image to portrait on social media

I guess. I don't know, I would love to chat to

like a room of teenagers to find out how they really feel about it.

That would just be so great. Please let me know in the comments!

Let's have like a discussion about this. How do you feel

being a teen with things like Twitter,

Facebook.. things like Ask.fm. Honestly.. just sounds like a nightmare to me!

When I was at school someone created the like "Rate my teacher"

or something and that was about as like savage as it got.

"How do you control your hormones as a teenager?" and that is

by Shannon.

You can't!

Is the answer to that. You can't, really.

And actually when I think back to when

I was a teenager. Tean-ager? Teen-ager...

my hormones were quite

extreme, but it's only as I look

back at some of my behaviour..

I wasn't terrible, don't get me wrong, but my mood swings

and I remember I used to have arguments

with my mum and dad and I

definitely

struggled

with the hormones.

I wouldn't have ever admitted it at the time, but looking back I can

see that I did. Being a teenager is such a..

weird time, because

you've gone up to secondary school, you're

sort of trying to figure out who you are,

who your friends are, you're getting put with people

who

you might not necessarily have a lot in common with

but feel you need to be friends with and

you see these people every day

five days a week.. like for

a massive portion of your life.

No wonder you're gonna struggle with it

sometimes. So it's only natural again

when hormones are included within

that

that you are gonna struggle sometimes and also

you start to feel all the feels. You start to feel

sad, you start to feel jealous, you start to feel bitter,

you start to feel angry, you start to feel over

emotional, you start to feel overly

excited, overly happy. It's like all the

feels, all the emotions and all the feels

and I definitely had that.

Emh.. but

it made some of the best moments

and the best memories and some that I'd look

back on and be like, "wow, I was a beatch!"

to my parents and my brother probably. You need to remember

everyone else around you is also experiencing

that and it kinda varies

person by person and you know..

hormones affects people so differently,

but essentially you're all on the same boat and it's happening to everyone,

so don't feel weird or feel like

you have to control them in any way. I think hormones are something that's

very difficult to control but I do think

trying to find a bit of kinda you-time

and chill and have like a space that you like

to be in and to be able to go

and have a moment.. I think it's really important, so obviously

like.. your bedroom, like maybe ligh a candle, put some fairylights

on.. like it's about making yourself feel

at ease if everything is getting a little too much.

I feel like this video is gonna be really long cause I'm such a rambler.

Faith Dorsen said "Pressured to smoke/vape?"

I did not have a group of friends that ever

pressured me into anything, actually.

Umh.. but I have seen

where other people have felt pressured to do it.

And I guess I.. when I was a teen I did think..

See the thing is I never felt pressured by anyone else

and my parents weren't very like.. strict in that sense,

like they would never lecture me about don't drink,

don't smoke and..

They sorta left me and my brother to make decisions

ourselves, which I think was kind of clever,

because neither of us are very wild.

Uhm..

And.. I think the only pressure

I ever had was myself. Like I had friends

who smoked, who drank, I had..

I hung out with groups of people who were much, much

older than me doing worst things at house parties.

Some of those memories still haunt me to this day.

Some of the things I saw in house parties just..

I don't think you should see it as like a fifteen or sixteen years old to be quite honest, but

I never felt like I needed to do that.

I didn't feel like I needed to..

smoke or drink or do drugs.

I just.. I kind of..

watched everyone else do it and I was like, "that doesn't really look fun,

I think he just looks stupid"! Like I just used to look

at people and just be like, "you just look stupid"! I don't know,

like.. it..

for me it was like.. it was actually quite like a.. turn off?

I was just a bit like.. "ugh, no.. that's not for me!"

Umh.. and the only sort of like pressure I had really

was me at the back of my head thinking

"but I am a teen, like.. should I be trying these things? Like..

shoud I be.." It was almost like it was me

pressurizing myself? It was weird! It was like.. well I guess

everyone should try something once in their life!

Turns out.. you don't really have to because

I can see what everyone else is doing and I really don't feel like I was

missing out and luckly I wasn't

within a group of friends where I felt pressured.

Umh.. but

I know I would've stood

my ground and just said "no, I'm okay, thanks" and I do think

if you ever feel that pressured within a group of friends

you have to put your foot down because you'll never look

back on that memory of trying something for the first time

and feel confortable about it because

you'll never be too sure if you really wanted to or not

and I'm just not sure that that's a nice

way to ever do anything. I think everything

you do and everything you experience should ultimately be down

to you because it's your life. If anyone

is making you feel pressured to have sex, to smoke,

to drink, to do anything you are not hundred percent

confortable with

say no

and if they are your friends they will understand that

and if they don't understand that they are not your friends. "Did

you ever question your body or feel insicure about your figure?

How did you overcome it?"

Yes! I feel like I've touched on this a little bit

in my Question I've Never Answered.

I went through a stage where

I had grown in height and

I was super skinny

and all my friends were getting like hips and boobs

and a bum and I was still a bit like.. ugh,

when's mine coming?

And then

they happened and they happened very quickly

so my boob.. it's like I almost woke up one day and my boobs were there and my bum was there.

So now I've got like stretchmarks , umh..

and

for a while I didn't like it

because it almost made me look skinnier?

Because it was like.. ugh, these boobs don't like..

go with my body and like.. I don't look

like my friends. Why can't I put weight

on and I struggled with the fact that I just

felt like I looked so skinny, umh..

and I was quite self conscious at like PE and I hated

putting shorts on but what's so interesting is

people assume you

can't feel insicure about your body when you're skinnier.

Like I would put shorts on and people were just kinda of assumed

that I'm confident because I've got my shorts on

and I've got my legs out and

I'm sure there were people around me who would

have wanted to have had my legs, yet

in my head I was like "I hate my legs!"

Hated swimming.. oh my God, that for me

was the worst! That's like.. you know when you remember swimming and you get

like

a wave of like *mumbles*. I hated swimming

and I honestly belive ninety eight

percent of the girls in my swimming group hated

swimming for this very reason. If

you're gonna put like twenty girls who were

all like

growing and changing at very different rates

and getting used to their bodies and trying to learn

why things are, how they are or why you're

not like Sally next to you or why

you've got one boob that seems to be growing faster than

another boob or why you've got like a wobbly bit

or why you feel so skinny.. you're never gonna

have a great lesson!

Like it's never gonna be a great lisson.. lesson. We.. we

all

hated swimming so much. Like

no one enjoy.. who enjoyed swimming apart from that one

girl that was there in her like blister sock and swim hat

and goggles and nose clip? Like she's the one that loves swimming, but

everyone else

did not love swimming. And.. I just felt like

everyone stared at me in a swimming costume because I was

so skinny and I hated it

so much. I still did it,

I still put the swimming costume on, I still.. and I

hated swimming anyway. Like.. I.. I'm just.. I

hate swimming.

Umh..

But.. I don't know. It was kinda like

a phase that came and went. I remember feeling quite

insicure between the ages of about twelve and fourteen

and then past that I think I stopped caring because

I sort of settled with the fact that

everyone's bodies were growing and changing at different rates

and everyone had something about them that they weren't happy with

or something that they felt they wanted to change

and that was very reassuring to me because

I felt like I was the only one who

was the odd one out, but actually everyone feels like

they're the odd one out at some point, which I'm very

lucky for, because there's a lot of people who can't do that,

which I feel really sad about. Eve said, "How to

tell friends you can't or don't want to go to parties because they don't

understand? I love you!" I love you too!

That's hard because there were a lot of things I

never wanted to go to because of my anxiety.

Umh.. but I feel like I just said, "I don't wanna go!" *laughs"

The worst part of it for me

was

that I couldn't go, not that I didn't want to

go.. if that makes sense. Is that I felt like I couldn't,

not that I didn't want to. So

I would be at home knowing they were

all on a night out and they were all like having a fab time

and I wished more than anything I could be

there but I knew I couldn't

be and it was.. that was quite

a hard time for me actually. That was probably in my later teens.

That's something I knew I had to deal with.. like that's not

something my friends have to deal with. That's

me and what I should've done

was spoken to someone earlier,

got help earlier and kind of

then lived my kind of late teens,

early twenties anxiety free rather than trying to sort that

out a little bit further down the line, but

umh.. yeah, I feel like

you just tell them and again, if they're your friends

they'll understand and if they don't

understand that's

okay, because it means that

it's not something they experience

but at the end of the day if you don't wanna go out

or you feel like you can't

then

don't.

And you might get FOMO but

that's a choice you've made and if they love you

then they'll still say they miss ya. Abby said,

"What were your favourite things to do with friends etc. during

highschool?" Oh my God, okay. So this probably

was my favourite thing. We would like go to each other's

houses and we would make..

uhm.. with photographs

and Window's Movie Maker.. we would make umh..

little films and I still have them, that's what's..

and

now.. nowdays I would be uploading them to YouTube

and back then YouTube didn't exsist, so I was just like making them

and like saving them and we would like reenact

things so we.. we did Mean Girls, we

did.. oh my God.. we did like

weird.. me and my friends did The Ring..

like.. we would reenact a whole

film in photos with slides

and like texts

and music and it was

great fun. So that's what we did. As I got a

bit older it was like house parties,

umh.. umh, we used to.. there was a park

next to our school so we used to hang out in the park quite a lot.

Yeah.. there was a lot of great times, actually.

A lot of great friend times. We used to go shopping

on the weekends, we would all get the bus in

and we would get disposable cameras and like take pictures

and lots of sleepovers. We would always trying to do all ,

nighters

and.. funnily enough you'd all think I would

suck at that but I was actually not that bad.

"What to do when you're in a friendship group that fall out because

of nothing? How do you deal with it?"

Oh.. we had a fair amount of these, we really did.

Umh..

as I said at the beginning of this, when you're

put into a..

situation for the majority

of your life for five years with the same people

you're.. you're never gonna always get on.

Like you're just not. There's gonna be something

that brushes one person up the wrong way

and there's tension and then it's awkward

and then the group divides and then some people are on that side,

some people on that side, then there's a whole division

and they don't speak to these people and it.. and it'll

be over something that you don't even remember what it's over.

And I think what's different today

that is so different from back then is when that used to

happen with our friends a lot of them making up

and the sorting out had to happen face to face

which I feel like probably wouldn't happen as much now

because there's things like Facebook

and like Messangers and Twitter and..

there's loads of different places that you can see like..

snidey indirects and things like that, but

in the olden days..

in the olden days.. that makes me sound so ancient, but

back when I was a teenager it would've been something like

it would've.. there would've been something

said at school and someone would've taken it the wrong way, or someone would've been having a

bad day and someone else would've cared as much as they should

have.. umh..

and then there would be like little tiffs..

I wouldn't say we have all like fell out big time,

but there were certainly like..

little arguments here and there.

Hello!

Hello Buzzy!

We've got Buzzy at the moment.

Wanna jump on that?

Are you gonna sit down or are you just gonna breathe heavily behind me?

Hello!

Uh! You're in.. you're all in my hair! You're all..

Buzz!

Oh!

Alright, you're like a parrot!

Buzz!

Right, sit!

Good boy. Good boy. I feel

like at the time arguments feel so

huge and so

like.. like it's the end of the world and that you'll

never be friends again and that is gonna be so awkward

but

eventually you make up because what's

the alternative? Like you see eachother everyday.

When you're so close to someone, like a sibiling

or like a relative

and you're spending so much time with them you do

just rub each other up the wrong way, and sometimes you are gonna have

an argument, but then you make up and then you are stronger than you were before

because you've had to like talk through your diffrences and you're kind of..

growing up together and actually

I think it would be weirder if

growing up you never had arguments with your friends because..

because there's so much going on and

so much is changing and it's a

crazy time, so of course you're gonna argue,

but you just have to know that those

arguments don't have to be the

be-all and end-all and I think talking

and communicating rather than being snidey

and indirect online is the way forward.

Faith said, "I'm not a teenager anymore, but when I was

I would like to know how important love really is at that

age."

What's so funny is

I thought I was in love

at that age

but actually being an adult it's not the same

kind of love

and.. I don't know, I think that's all I could really say on that.

I do think it exists in teenagers, like

I do belive if you truly love someone.. kinda like the

people that meet when they're young and then they stay together forever.. that is true love

and I think that can happen and if it happens to you

then you're really lucky, but I thought

it had happened but it hadn't

and it's only as I got older and met new people

that I can see that I hadn't

been, if that makes sense. So in ask to your question,

it's not that important. I think

what is important at that age is learning to love yourself

and learning to love

other human beings, whether that's friends or like family.

I think that's important, but

being in love with someone I don't

think is so important at that

age personally. "How do you cope with toxic

friends and how can I get out of a toxic friendship?"

If you are with a group of friends in school

who are toxic and

you are.. you just aren't happy

then you need to step

away from that group of friends and I know

it can feel so hard, but

I just feel like if.. if.. if you're.. if you're

with friends who aren't making you happy, if they're

bulling you, if they're making you feel unconfortable, they're pressurising you..

they're not the sort of people you'll ever gonna grow up and be

thankful that you're friends with, they're not the sort of people

that you're gonna invite to your like wedding in ten years

then.. there.. there's not point, do you know what I mean?

It's such a waist of you as a human being because

there are people out there who will appreciate you,

who will treat you with nothing but kindness and love

and you may feel like

there is no one else, but there is.

If you flip that and if you think you see

someone who is being bullied or

who is part of a very toxic friendship then

you should extend an arm.. like

ask them how they are, like check they're

okay, even if they're not part of your friendship group,

because there's nothing worse than feeling like

you're alone in something and

whether that's you feeling that way or you know

someone who feels that way or you've seen someone who looks unhappy

in their group of friends or is getting picked on or

who has no friends.. I think is just as important for

you to reach out to them. Just ask them how they are, ask them

how their day's been, ask them what they're doing later..

like..

message them anything because that can

make someone feel so much happier.

Cause as much as I can say, "oh, like, you'll find new friends.."

I think it's just as important for other people to open their eyes

and realize that there might be people that feel like they have no

one and when I was in school

I don't think I did that enough. I don't think I

extended an invite

or smiled at the people who probably needed

it more than I thought they did, if that makes

sense, and

it makes you feel good, it makes them feel good.

I really like the saying, "some friends are

for a reason, some are for a season and some are for a

lifetime" and that's okay.

If some are for a season, fine. They were great

for that season and it was fab and sometimes it's not meant

to last beyond that. Some are for a reason, so they might come

into your life for a purpose. Lifetime

is so rare. That was another thing..

in school I feel like it's such a big deal to have

a lot of friends and it isn't. Have your

select friend, whether that's one, whether that's two, whether that's three, whether that's

ten.. if you have those

cool people who make you happy, who bring something to your life,

who influence you in a positive way that's all you

need, and anyone who doesn't do that..

don't waste your time. Ella said, "if you could be

a teenager again, which teenage year would you go back to

and why?"

I would say..

uh, that's so hard.

Maybe like fifteen, like

start of GCSE's.. fourteen/fifteen..

what year is that? Year 9? I would go

back to Year 9 because I felt quite confident in myself..

although I didn't know what I wanted to do.. I felt

confident in the subjects I was doing

for GCSE.. I settled with like.. yeah I'm happy with these,

umh.. I had my like..

cool group of friends,

umh.. I had a social life

and I had a lot of fun

and I felt more confortable in myself, I

think.

Yeah.

Fourteen/fifteen and like no responsabilities

cause I hadn't started exams yet. *exults* Abby said,

"What was it like when you first got your period?" I actually

got my period in school.

It was in tutor time, right before last lesson

and I just.. I was one of the last ones out of

my friends and I was really excited about it.

I remember that we had someone come to our school who did like

a talk. She talked about like periods

and things you could use when you're on your period

and they gave you like the goodie bag when you left

and in it it had like two night time pads,

umh.. some tiny little tampons

and some like day time pads and then like a

leaflet and like..

it was just like a little information pack, and it made me

so excited to start my period and then

like a year later I did

in a lesson and I was a little bit embarassed by that actually.

I had to do the old tide the jumper around the waist cause I had nothing

on me and then I went home and I told my mum

and then I realized that

I uhm.. was gonna bleed like every month

for like the majority of my life, so I wasn't

that excited after that. *laughs*

*exults*

Jennifer said, "When did you start shaving?"

I thought this was quite a good one because

I had to really think about this and I had to think about

what the first thing was I shaved. I feel like it might

have been my armpits..

or maybe it was my legs? I feel like my

armpits took a really long time

to get hair.

I remember I had like a couple of hair there and I was like, "ugh,

that's weird.." Uhm.. and I had..

and I always used my dad's

razor that he would leave on like the side of the bath. I

must've been about fourteen..

thirteen or fourteen. Umh..

and the amout of times I sliced

my legs on my dad's blunt razors

was

a lot. *laughs* What I will say though is if you are

planning on starting shaving.. if you haven't yet gotten to

that point.. leave it as long as you can

because

again is something you get so excited to do

and then you just realize it is a chore

and a ball ache and the hair just grows back thicker..

I do remember though.. umh.. my

mum.. I remember

the first time I shaved down there..

I must've been like..

sixteen.. fifteen/sixteen.. because I thought

that that's what you have to do.. I wasn't sure, I don't know..

umh.. and I must have left the hair in the bath..

This is quite an embarassing story, I don't know if I really wanna tell this.. oh well.. I didn't was it

away..

and the next day my mum was like, "If you ever want

to shave your bikini line

you just.. you need to be very careful because

umh.. it grows back longer and

thicker

and I've heard it can start growing

down your legs." And I remember her telling me that

obviously to try and scare me umh..

and after that I was

actually really terrified to ever shave down there

again. Turns out..

it hasn't grown down my legs so thanks for that, mum.

I mean it might.. she might not have been lying, but.. I mean..

...

She could've just said, "Hey, I noticed you shaved you bits,

just be careful and umh..

let me buy you a nice razor so you don't have to use your dad's

manky old one. So I think I'm gonna stop there because

I have been rambling on for quite a long time now.

Thank you so much for watching this video, it's gotten dark

as I've been filming this and Buzz has gone

and the dogs are barking and Alfie's going crazy

so I should probably go, but thank you for being so patience with me

and waiting for this video. Umh.. I really hope it helps some of

you. Umh..

Being a teen is difficult, it doesn't matter what anyone

says. Everyone will have their troubles and tribulations, just remember

you're probably not the only one feeling a certain way.

Umh.. offer a hand or a smile

to someone who might need it because

umh.. that can make a lot of

difference and it may seem overwhelming at times, but look,

I've got through it, you can too.

And I look back at my teenage years and

reember some of the best

times

so I really feel like you will too, but please don't

hesitate to tweet me or leave comments..

umh.. everyone have a little chit chat, send your

reassurances, ask your questions.. there will be a

lot of people watching this video that can offer advice

so don't be scared to leave a comment and..

yeah, I love you very much and I will see you again very soon, bye!

captions by Laura Ross Russell

Key Vocabulary

Vocabulary	Meanings
sorry /ˈsɒri/ A2	adjective - feeling or expressing regret or sadness.
reason /ˈriːzən/ A2	noun - a cause, explanation, or justification for something.
breath /breθ/ A2	noun - the air taken into and expelled from the lungs.
stairs /steərz/ A2	noun - a set of steps forming a means of ascending or descending between levels.
blister /ˈblɪstər/ B1	noun - a small bubble on the skin filled with fluid.
sauna /ˈsɔːnə/ B1	noun - a room heated to a high temperature, used for dry or steam bathing.
mess /mes/ A2	noun - a dirty or untidy state.
make-up /ˈmeɪkʌp/ A2	noun - cosmetics used to enhance or alter the appearance.
attic /ˈætɪk/ B1	noun - a space directly below the roof of a building.
seagulls /ˈsiːɡʌlz/ A2	noun - a seabird with long, pointed wings.
chilled /tʃɪld/ B1	adjective - relaxed and calm.
chatty /ˈtʃæti/ B1	adjective - tending to talk a lot.
audience /ˈɔːdiəns/ B2	noun - the people who watch or listen to something.
teenager /ˈtiːneɪdʒər/ A2	noun - a person between 13 and 19 years old.
hormones /ˈhɔːrmoʊnz/ C1	noun - chemical substances produced by the body to regulate various functions.
struggled /ˈstrʌɡəld/ B1	verb - to have difficulty doing something.

Key Grammar Structures

• I do have a good reason for it..

  ➔ Emphasis with 'do' auxiliary verb

  ➔ The auxiliary verb 'do' is used to add emphasis to the statement, highlighting that there *is* a valid reason. It's not simply 'I have a good reason', but 'I *do* have a good reason'.

• I've had the same make-up on all day..

  ➔ Present Perfect Continuous (implied) - duration of an action up to the present

  ➔ While not explicitly stated as 'I *have been wearing* the same make-up...', the meaning implies a continuous state from earlier in the day until now. The 'have had' construction functions similarly in this context.

• I don't feel like I've ever done a video like this..

  ➔ Perfect Infinitive ('to have done') - action completed before a point in time (feeling)

  ➔ The phrase 'I've ever done' uses the perfect infinitive to express that the speaker has no prior experience of making this type of video. The 'feeling' of not having done it is linked to the completed action of *not* making such a video before.