d£aler – English Lyrics

• By: Lola Young
• Album: I'm Only F**cking Myself

Lyrics & Translation

Dive into the soulful world of Lola Young's "d£aler," a raw R&B-infused Pop track that candidly addresses themes of escapism and complex dependency. Listeners can learn contemporary English vocabulary around expressing vulnerability and the desire to break free, delivered with Young's distinctive, powerful vocal style and lyrical rawness. The song's notoriety, boosted by an amusing public exchange with Elton John, makes it a unique and captivating listen.

[English]

I spent all day tryna be sober

I drowned in my misery, crawled up on the sofa

And I still love him

The way I did when I was 19

But it's not easy to let him know

I spent all day wishin' the day was over

I wanna get away, far from here

Pack my bags, my drugs, and disappear

Tell you, "No," make it clear

I'm not comin' back for 15 years

I wanna write a note

Leave it with my next-door neighbor

Who don't give a shit

I wanna get away, far from here

Pack my bags and tell my dealer I'll miss him

Yeah, tell my dealer I'll miss him

I'll tell my dealer I

Spent all week just tryna do something

Maybe I should take a walk, but fuck all the runnin'

And I still love him

The way I did, but I should get a fuckin' grip

I'll never let him know that I spent all week

Doin' a whole load of nothing

I wanna get away, far from here

Pack my bags, my drugs, and disappear

Tell you, "No," make it clear

That I'm not comin' back for 15 years

I wanna write a note

Leave it with my next door neighbor

Who don't give a shit

I wanna get away, far from here

Pack my bags and tell my dealer I'll miss him

Tell my dealer I'll miss him

Tell my dealer I'll miss him

I'll tell my dealer I'll miss him

I'll tell my dealer I-

Key Vocabulary

Vocabulary	Meanings
dealer /ˈdiːlər/ A2	noun - a person who sells something, especially illegally, such as drugs
sober /ˈsoʊbər/ A2	adjective - not drunk or under the influence of drugs
misery /ˈmɪzəri/ B1	noun - a state of extreme unhappiness
crawled /krɔld/ A2	verb - to move slowly on hands and knees
disappear /ˌdɪsəˈpɪr/ A2	verb - to stop being visible or to cease to exist
pack /pæk/ A1	verb - to put things into a suitcase or bag
drugs /drʌɡz/ A1	noun - substances that alter a person's mental or physical state
neighbor /ˈneɪbər/ A1	noun - a person who lives near another
wishin /ˈwɪʃɪŋ/ A2	verb - to hope for something desired
clear /klɪr/ A1	adjective - easy to understand or see verb - to make something certain or understandable
note /noʊt/ A1	noun - a short written message
shit /ʃɪt/ B1	noun - a rude way to refer to something considered worthless or unpleasant
walk /wɔk/ A1	verb - to move at a regular pace by using one's feet
runnin /ˈrʌnɪŋ/ A1	verb - to move quickly on foot
grip /ɡrɪp/ B1	noun - a firm hold or control

Key Grammar Structures

• I spent all day tryna be sober

  ➔ Past simple of spend; informal 'tryna' = 'trying to'.

  ➔ The line uses the 'past simple' verb 'spent' to describe a completed action; 'tryna' is short for 'trying to'.

• And I still love him

  ➔ Present simple for a current state; 'still' indicates continuity.

  ➔ The verb 'love' is in the 'present simple' to describe a current feeling; 'still' functions as an adverb of continuity.

• But it's not easy to let him know

  ➔ It-cleft-esque structure: dummy 'it' + 'is' + adjective + infinitive; 'to' infinitive after 'easy'.

  ➔ This uses the dummy 'it' with the adjective 'easy' followed by the infinitive 'to let' to express difficulty; the phrase 'to let him know' is the infinitive clause.

• I wanna get away, far from here

  ➔ Informal 'wanna' = 'want to'; 'get away' is a phrasal infinitive verb; comma + adverbial phrase 'far from here'.

  ➔ The line uses the informal contraction 'wanna' for 'want to' and the phrasal verb 'get away'; a comma introduces the adverbial phrase 'far from here'.

• Pack my bags, my drugs, and disappear

  ➔ Imperative mood with implied subject 'you' in a list? Actually implied subject 'I' but presented as a command-like sequence; parallel structure using comma.

  ➔ The verbs form an imperative sequence with an implied subject (I/you) and a parallel list: 'Pack', 'my bags', 'and disappear'.

• Tell you, 'No,' make it clear

  ➔ Imperatives 'tell' and 'make' with implied subject; use of quotation marks around No for reported speech/clarification.

  ➔ Two bare imperatives in sequence; the quoted 'No' shows direct speech or emphasis, while 'make it clear' continues the command.

• I'm not comin' back for 15 years

  ➔ Present continuous negative; colloquial dropping of the g in '-ing' form; time span 'for 15 years'.

  ➔ The line uses the present continuous form 'am/are/is coming' in negative to express ongoing action foregone; 'for 15 years' indicates duration.

• I wanna write a note

  ➔ Informal 'wanna' = 'want to'; infinitive 'to write' following the verb.

  ➔ The clause uses the informal contraction 'wanna' with the base form 'write' after it; 'to write' is the infinitive form.

• Who don't give a shit

  ➔ Relative clause with nonstandard subject-verb agreement ('who don't' vs. 'who doesn't'); informal idiom.

  ➔ The relative clause uses 'who' as the subject and a nonstandard 'don't' instead of 'doesn't'; the idiom 'give a shit' means not care.

• I'll tell my dealer I'll miss him

  ➔ Future simple 'will' in both clauses; catenative structure with 'tell' + object + complement; contraction in 'I'll'.

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• I'll tell my dealer I'll miss him

  ➔ Future tense for intention; reported speech embedded in future clause; 'miss' expresses a future feeling.

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• Maybe I should take a walk

  ➔ Modal use with 'should' to express suggestion; 'Maybe' hedges the statement.

  ➔ The sentence uses the modal 'should' to give a suggestion; 'Maybe' introduces uncertainty.

• I still love him

  ➔ Repetition for emphasis; simple present for ongoing emotion.

  ➔ The line repeats 'love' to intensify the feeling expressed in the present.