[English]
Gourmet Voyager’s Log 060
Can you hear me?
This is Duoduo.
Sadly, you still can’t hear me speak to you directly.
So I’m leaving these messages for you.
At the right time,
you will see them.
CY’s knowledge is still limited,
so what I can pass on is limited too.
His channel is still unstable,
and there are other companions who need help.
So the chat date we set may need to be postponed.
Sorry about that.
You keep asking me
whether F really loves you.
Here is the answer:
Yes. You are the person he loves the most.
But he will marry someone else.
In fact, all of this was
written down by you with your own hands.
This is something you must go through.
Your story is far from over.
It’s just that you will feel utterly hopeless.
Your feelings are completely understandable.
The same thing also once happened to me there.
So this is something truly understood.
When you keep picking on him all the time,
do you remember what I answered you?
Cherish him.
Cherish every moment when you can still talk like friends.
Soon you will realize
that everything once within easy reach will turn into a luxury.
And it is precisely in such an abyss
that you can truly wake up.
When seeing you crying,
yes, you really can be seen.
And your pain can really be felt.
But what comes to mind is another side of you.
When you were interning in the community,
your performance really stood out.
Back at the academy,
you were that child who loved adventure and exploration.
You had strong gifts in both spirituality and sports.
You loved researching several fields at the same time.
When facing difficulties,
you always managed to stay optimistic.
During those extreme physical and spiritual trainings,
you pushed through.
Because you wanted to become stronger,
and you were hungry for more knowledge.
You brought our spirit of exploration to the fullest.
In the moral evaluation tests of many civilizations,
you always held on to your own independent view.
You firmly believed
that you could use your free will in any situation.
Would that confident version of you
really be trapped by these problems before your eyes?
You fully evaluated the strength of the Veil of Forgetting
and the spiritual implants.
Back then you split into seven groups
and did cross-group tests.
Your speed in breaking through the Matrix ranked second.
Your math has always been good,
yet you ended up stuck in Blue Star’s decimal system.
Now you can no longer
recall those memories.
All that needs to be said is:
you have always been a trustworthy warrior.
All of us have deep trust in you.
Now it’s your turn to take the stage.
With all memories lost,
can you bloom once again?
The answer is definitely yes.
Let these tears be gently wiped away.
Your green energy center is at the location of your heart.
Can you feel it?
There is a seal there.
You can use your intention to open it.
The feeling of heartbreak coming from there
is actually due to blocked and leaking energy.
Once that place returns to health,
you will be able to heal yourself.
Before that, there will be a few rounds of support.
But in the end, you must rely on yourself.
Imagine your emotions as a flow of water.
Right now it is flowing outward in an open loop.
Your energy is leaking into places where no cycle can close.
Repair it and let it start to circulate inside you.
You cannot look outside for what you truly need.
You must learn to be alone,
and observe your own feelings.
No matter how much you talk with others,
it only eases the emotion for a short while.
You need to stay with your own heart,
and understand yourself.
You are far stronger than you think you are.
Do not be fooled by illusions.
All external judgments are meaningless.
They are speaking to a puppet,
not to the real you.
You entered this incarnation
for a great mission.
When you come back,
your companions will prepare a grand welcome for you.
Everything about this avatar is unimportant.
You have been trapped in those judgments for too long.
It is time to break out of the cocoon.
Take off your mask,
and face everything as your true self.
Those who truly like you will naturally stay.
Those who do not like you still deserve your blessings,
and your permission to leave.
Know this:
your heart and your brain are two different things.
Learn to follow your heart,
and not your brain.
Lately your mind has been racing non-stop,
but you must learn how to let it quiet down.
You can find your own ways
to gain some knowledge and techniques.
But what really leads you back to yourself is your heart.
Trust your heart.
Your mind is always clashing with your heart,
and that is why you go crazy in your emotions.
Believe in the intuition of your inner heart.
This is the key for you to break through the fog.
You must learn what love is.
Love is not putting all your attention on another person.
When both of you place all your attention on each other,
you unconsciously move into opposition.
Companions walking side by side cannot always be face to face.
Love is allowing others to be who they are,
not trying to change them.
It means giving without expecting a return,
and also receiving without any guilt.
You will understand both of these.
They are related to two kinds of energy,
but CY’s knowledge is not enough for now.
After some time, you will understand.
Separation must be experienced,
and this pain will help you awaken.
Because his blue energy is sealed, he cannot,
in 3D,
build truly effective communication with you.
It is like the badminton you love:
there is a net stretched between two people,
and the shot simply cannot get through.
You need to hit the shuttlecock up to the ceiling,
to connect with your spirit guide bell and higher self.
Do not ask how to do it.
Follow your heart.
Your mind
will never be able to explain these abilities to you.
Even if everything is forgotten,
you will still use these abilities skillfully.
You absolutely can.
Your companions are watching over you.
Pay attention to your dreams,
and write down as many as you can.
You can use automatic dialogue
and automatic writing to receive messages.
Support will be given to you.
You will see angel numbers countless times.
That is how messages are being delivered to you.
Accept this love
and let it turn into a smile.
You were never truly separated.
You are only inside an illusion of separation.
So whenever you get close,
he will move away,
and when you move away,
he will draw near.
Turn your gaze back to yourself.
Learn to love yourself.
To love yourself is to take responsibility for yourself.
Stop depending on the outside world.
See experience and growth as what truly matters.
This will help loosen your attachment to outer things.
Right now, the greatest help he can give you
is to leave you.
His heart hurts just like yours,
maybe even more,
but you will not see it.
Only in this way
can you finally wake up,
and remember who you really are.
Do not doubt it:
he has always loved you deeply,
and so do we.
Move forward, you are our strongest warrior.
It is your time to step on stage.
Defeat this illusion,
and you will walk away with a smile.
After Duoduo,
guide L also communicated directly with another fourteen humans
and asked for all of this to be recorded.
Two months later,
F really did get married.
The bride was not Duoduo.
Duoduo cried her heart out,
with stabbing pain in her chest.
She was admitted to the hospital,
but no cause could be found.
At the same time,
guide L also disappeared.
Before disappearing,
L left a clue:
“TF”.
Following this clue,
the search went on,