自毀的程序 – Bilingual Lyrics Chinese/English

• By: 柳應廷

Lyrics & Translation

Discover the emotional depth of Cantopop with Jer Lau's '自毀的程序'. This song offers a unique opportunity to learn Cantonese through its poetic and sorrowful lyrics. It explores complex themes of regret and memory, using powerful metaphors like the Japanese 'Karesansui' gardens to express profound feelings. What makes this song special is its narrative connection to a larger trilogy, allowing you to follow a character's journey through heartbreak and its aftermath, making your language learning experience both engaging and emotionally resonant.

[English]

Who’s across the building

Silently missing you

Wondering if she’ll appear

Surrounding the building from all sides

Reluctant to delete

One layer after another, the clues unfold

Inside the building, actually

The calendar no longer flips

She’s already moved away

But why from afar

Does a single flower forever stay the same

Still waiting for you to say goodbye, then what’s next

Maybe wandering is just an apology

Take another circle, go around again

Don’t face it

Drowning in the past, growth also has its process

Take another turn, unfinished business

How much sorrow

She’s already moved on

In the whirlpool, you get intoxicated

Once wished to dream together with you

Living in a fantasy

Understanding the dry mountain and water landscape

Nara and Kyoto

In the end, never went

Who hesitated until after buying a house and marrying, then flew away

Today, overlooking the old home from the spiral

Take another circle, go around again

Don’t face it

Drowning in the past, growth also has its process

Take another turn, unfulfilled wishes

How much sorrow

She’s already moved on

Who’s in the whirlpool, memories of lovers

Silent blame—time lost

Seeing rivers and mountains as if they’re dried out

Why still searching for the wind bath

Jump out of the abyss, then return into the abyss

Don’t face it

Let it break, self-destruction has no process

The deep abyss of guilt turns out to be a garden

Mountains are long, water is far away

Straight lines and curves seem static

But there are knots, still unraveling

Wish she could hear you

Calling out amid gravel and fine sand

[Chinese]

誰在大廈　對面

默默地　掛念

看她　會否　出現

圍著大廈　四面

捨不得　刪剪

一圈　一圈　伏線

其實大廈　裡面

日曆沒　再掀

她早已　搬遷

但為何　遠看

一樖花　永沒變

仍等不到你告別後　下一句

也許　徘徊當作　賠罪

你再兜一圈　再兜一圈

不　去面對

沉溺過去　成長也有程序

你再兜一圈　交代未完

多少　辛酸

她早已　跨過去

而漩渦　之中　得你醉

曾願望共你可

夢幻地　旅居

看懂　枯山水

奈良　和京都

最終　也沒去

誰推搪等到置業後　成婚了　再飛去

這天　盤旋裡　眺望　故居

你再兜一圈　再兜一圈

不　去面對

沉溺過去　成長也有程序

你再兜一圈　心願未圓

多少　辛酸

她早已　跨過去

誰漩渦　之中　憶愛侶

暗自責罰　光陰錯失

見山水　不似　山水　枯乾了

為何還尋　風呂

你跳出深淵　再折返深淵

不　要面對

由它破碎　自毀哪有程序

內疚的深淵　竟是庭園

山　長　水　遠

直線跟曲線　似靜態

卻有些死結　正在解

多想她聽到　你

陷碎石細砂　中　呼嗌

Key Vocabulary

Vocabulary	Meanings
大廈 (dàshà) /dɑː ʃɑː/ B1	noun - large building; mansion
掛念 (guàniàn) /kwɑː njɛn/ B2	verb - to miss; to think about
刪剪 (shānjiǎn) /ʃɑn tɕjɛn/ C1	verb - to cut; to delete
搬遷 (bānqiān) /bɑːn tɕʰjɛn/ B2	verb - to move; to relocate
遠看 (yuǎnkàn) /ɥɛn kʰɑːn/ B1	verb - to look from afar
程序 (chéngxù) /tʃʰɤŋ ɕy/ B2	noun - procedure; program
辛酸 (xīnsuān) /ɕin swɑːn/ C1	adjective - bitter; miserable
跨 (kuà) /kwɑː/ B1	verb - to step over; to stride
漩渦 (xuánwō) /ɕɥɛn wo/ B2	noun - whirlpool; vortex
夢幻 (mènghuàn) /məŋ xwɑːn/ C1	adjective - dreamlike; fantastic
旅居 (lǚjū) /lyː dʒyː/ C1	verb - to reside temporarily
眺望 (tiàowàng) /tʰjɑʊ wɑŋ/ B2	verb - to overlook; to gaze into the distance
故居 (gùjū) /ku dʒyː/ B2	noun - former residence; old home
責罰 (zébá) /tsɤ ba/ C1	verb - to blame and punish
破碎 (pòsuì) /pʰwo sweɪ/ B2	adjective - broken; shattered
自毀 (zìhuǐ) /tsɨ xuɪ/ C1	verb - self-destruction
內疚 (nèijiù) /nei tɕju/ B2	adjective - guilty; remorseful
陷 (xiàn) /ɕjɛn/ B1	verb - to sink; to fall into
碎石 (suìshí) /sweɪ ʂɪ/ B2	noun - crushed stone; gravel
呼嗌 (hū'ài) /xu aɪ/ C2	verb - to shout; to cry out