- We're here!
- We're here.
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You guys saw our love story unfold on TV
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but do you know the real story?
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- You have no idea!
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Only we do and we're
gonna share it with you.
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All the good, the bad, the ups and downs,
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everything that you didn't see.
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- You are about to get the
real reality of our love story.
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(imitates suspenseful music)
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- Give me a high five.
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It's go time.
- Yeah, let's do it.
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- First one.
- Let's do it.
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- Okay, so I'm about to
go way back here to--
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- Way before Jordan.
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I'm gonna take us back to
when the limo drove me away
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from that final moment that I
had with Ben on The Bachelor.
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(bright upbeat music)
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I don't know if I've even talked
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to you about this moment
- You haven't.
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- 'Cause obviously, that's
a weird thing to talk about.
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- We got some popcorn?
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I'm ready, let's go!
- Here we go!
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I had just gotten dumped.
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I was heartbroken and it was sad.
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It's just crazy for me to even think back
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on going through a moment where
I was preparing to say yes
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to somebody else because
people always ask me like,
01:06
if Ben would've chosen you and
he would've proposed to you,
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where do you think your
life would be like now?
01:12
And that is the weirdest
thing to think about.
01:13
- Where would I be?
01:16
- I don't know, I don't know.
01:17
Would I still be with him?
01:18
Would I not even know
that you were out there?
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So a couple of days go
by and the show ends
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and I think that's when I
really kind of experienced
01:27
a heartbreak and a loss.
01:32
So it was sad and it was hard
01:34
and I really just blamed it on my family.
01:35
And that time, no part of me was thinking
01:36
in that moment about what was to come.
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Being The Bachelorette was
not something that was ever,
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that was not even something
that I wanted to do,
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thought about, was curious
about, until I got the call.
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I saw it work the first
time in the sense that--
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- That probably helped out a lot.
01:56
- I saw myself develop real feelings
01:58
and I fell in love with Ben
and I wanted that again.
02:00
(bright upbeat music)
02:04
- I was a part of none of that.
02:07
I was living my life in Nashville
02:09
and it was March 3rd.
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And we started filming March 13th.
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Someone said, "Hey, are you single?
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"Are you interested?"
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I'm like, "I have no idea!
02:18
"This has never been on my radar.
02:19
"Let me think about it."
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And I decided literally two days before,
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this is an opportunity
to maybe find somebody
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and maybe have some fun, I don't know!
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I didn't watch the show so
I didn't know who JoJo was,
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I didn't know that she was on.
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- So you never saw me get broken up with!
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- I never saw her get broken up.
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- Still to this day?
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I thought that you had!
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- Do you wanna see that?
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- I've seen pictures of you in that dress
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and I was like, I don't know
how you break up with her
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while she's wearing that but,
I don't know, I don't know.
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It didn't really matter to me.
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It's like in a normal life,
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having an ex-boyfriend or girlfriend.
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You don't really care how that happened,
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you just care about who they are now.
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The only thing I saw, I
watched two episodes back
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and I think it was the second
and third so not the finale.
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Let's be honest, I was like, JoJo's hot.
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The only thing I remember
about the episode,
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you were swimming, you
were sitting on some rocks.
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- Of course, it was the bikini episode.
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- I don't know who this Ben guy is.
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It was the bikini episode.
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I was like, she's cute.
03:14
I hope it's her but I had no idea.
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I really had no idea until
we're locked in a hotel room
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and we watched After The Final Rose
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and they announced you
and I was like, yes!
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But really, that's actually what I did.
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- Wow, I didn't know that.
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- I saw the bikini JoJo and I was sold.
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- Wow, that's good.
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- But you're so much more than that.
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- Yeah there you go!
- Come here, come here.
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(bright upbeat music)
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- So now, being on the
other side of things,
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being The Bachelorette.
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- You were kinda like, it's my turn now.
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I'm holding the cards.
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I get to decide what happens here.
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No more breaking up with me,
I'm breaking up with you.
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You know, there's a
little bit of kinda like,
03:56
you were like, okay.
03:57
- You definitely feel empowered.
03:58
You definitely feel like, oh
my gosh I'm the one in charge.
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I have the control.
04:03
But Jordan, you don't know
what it's like to be in that.
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- There's so much weight that you carry
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as you go further and
further along in the season
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that your emotions are so wacky.
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It's like you feel sick,
excited, happy, in love,
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nauseous, nervous, anxious.
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It's a roller coaster of emotions.
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But initially, that first night,
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it was the most hopeful
and excited for the future
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that I've ever felt in my life.
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- Especially after that kiss.
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- He's all jokes, guys.
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I can't wait for you to see
his emotional, vulnerable side.
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- It'll come, just wait.
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- So for me, that first
night was a mixture of,
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I was a nervous wreck
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and then obviously, it
ended up pretty good.
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I've played football my whole life.
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I've played in front of 100,000 people,
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I've never been more
nervous my entire life
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than sitting in that limo
with her 20 yards away
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in this beautiful dress.
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I was like, I don't know if I
would even know how to walk.
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- I don't know if it's
because I had seen your photo
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in a tabloid or something before
but I felt like I knew you.
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I was like, "There he is!"
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Because I had thought
that you were coming,
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but I also in the back of my mind
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always kept this part of me
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which I don't know if you knew this.
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You actually, you did know this.
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I was always very doubtful
of him from the beginning!
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- Our first major date was
in Uruguay and it was amazing
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but I always tried to withhold
my feelings a little bit
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because I never wanted to
be saying, I really like you
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or even when it got to the
point saying I love you,
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I took a step back and
I kinda just, I didn't.
05:40
I wanted to sleep on it.
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If I woke up the next morning
and I still felt that way,
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then to me, I was like,
okay, that might be real.
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But I was having trouble
with my own feelings.
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- I remember that day.
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- We'd have so many conversations
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but like, "I can't tell
if you really like me."
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And I'm like, what?
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- Which is honestly so frustrating
05:58
when you're going through this process
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and you have all these guys
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telling you how much they care about you
06:05
and they like your or love you
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and it's kinda like you have those few
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that you actually really do like
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but they're not giving you what you want.
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So in my mind, I'm going
like, this is so weird.
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It's like now I'm comparing
him to all these other guys
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and what they were telling
me and then not thinking
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that he actually liked me so
much so it was very strange.
06:24
(bright upbeat music)
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- Yeah, so a really big moment for me
06:32
was the moment I first
told you I loved you.
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- I remember the first
time I thought I did.
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- I remember it, too!
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Our first one-on-one.
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- Our first one-on-one in Uruguay.
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We were on a boat coming back from
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swimming with a bunch of dirty seals.
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- It wasn't 'til we were
sitting on that bench.
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- Yeah!
- Oh my gosh!
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- Let me tell the story.
- I'm sorry, I'm sorry, okay.
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- On the boat, I was like,
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I had this rush of oh my god.
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Do I love and am I in love with her?
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- This is our first one-on-one date.
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- And then that night,
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I think you could kinda tell
I wanted to say something.
07:05
- We had this moment
where we locked eyes and--
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- And I think I even said, like--
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- [Both] "There's
something I wanna tell you.
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- "But.
- "I'm gonna wait."
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- And I am frustrating her again.
07:17
- No, I appreciated that.
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- But I didn't just wanna say it
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and that means a lot to
me to say those words.
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- 'Cause you've only
said you loved someone
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once in your life.
- One other time, yeah.
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So it was actually a couple weeks later
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that I ended up finally saying
it in Buenos Aires, right?
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- It had swelled up and it had built up
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and I had to let it out.
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- That's what you said!
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I remember you saying,
"I'm just so happy."
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And to me, I didn't need
her to say I love you too
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'cause I could tell.
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Remember all the signs I missed?
07:51
- Yeah, he missed all
the signs and we'll get--
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- So she kept squeezing
my hand three times
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and I always thought it
was just like a thing.
07:57
- Do you guys know one, two, three?
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Like if someone squeezes
you, it's like, I love you.
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I thought that was a universal thing.
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And I had been doing it to
him in these random times
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and I'd be like, is this guy dumb?
08:11
(bright upbeat music)
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- To the very end.
- I remember in Thailand,
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we were sitting on the beach and...
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I was trying to be really real like hey,
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I think this is how I feel about you.
08:29
I think I'm ready to get engaged
08:31
but if we're not there,
it doesn't have to be now.
08:33
- When he was honest and
genuine with me in that moment,
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telling me, basically saying,
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I think I'm there but I'm not sure
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and if I'm not there, that doesn't mean
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that I don't love you or care about you.
08:45
Those conversations aren't
easy and in my mind,
08:47
those little demons that were
08:51
in the back of my head in the beginning,
08:52
those all started creeping
back which was so hard for me
08:54
because we had gone through
this whole season, months,
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and I had finally gotten to
the point where I trusted him,
09:01
I was there with him, and then
it started to creep back in
09:05
on those final days which was
very emotional, very hard,
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and also, this was the same time
09:13
where I found out he hadn't asked my dad
09:15
for my hand in marriage.
- Here we go.
09:18
- Well yeah, you say here we go.
09:20
In my mind, that was very scary to me.
09:22
I understand your reasoning now
09:25
and I think that this is a good time
09:26
for people that don't know,
09:28
you can explain that better
09:29
which I understand a little more now.
09:30
- And I've never talked about it.
09:32
To me, as you go through the show,
09:33
you're always talking with
producers and understand,
09:36
okay, you're gonna get
to meet her parents.
09:38
This is your opportunity to ask her dad
09:40
for her hand in marriage.
09:43
And in my mind, going wait,
09:45
this is the first time
I'm meeting her dad,
09:47
there's still another guy here,
09:49
he hasn't really had a chance
09:50
to talk to his daughter yet about
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how she feels about
these guys and so to me,
09:53
it just didn't feel right.
09:56
So I wanted to sit there
with Joe, who I love,
09:57
Joe now that I know.
- Go pops!
10:00
- But the first time I met Joe,
10:01
I wanted to tell him,
hey, here's how I feel
10:03
and I feel like I did.
10:06
I said, "I'm so in love
with your daughter,
10:08
"I feel like this is in
the cards for us someday."
10:09
But I just didn't ask
10:13
because I didn't feel
comfortable asking at that point.
10:14
I wanted her to have a
chance to sit down with dad
10:16
and tell him, hey, here's how I'm feeling.
10:19
I really do like this
guy or maybe I don't.
10:20
That's when I would've felt comfortable.
10:23
Here's something you guys don't know.
10:24
It was a few days after
I've met your parents
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and they had already left Thailand.
10:28
And I went to one of the producers.
10:30
I was like, "Okay, I'm ready.
10:31
"I would like to call her parents.
10:33
"I would like to have a
conversation with them."
10:34
And they said, "Nope,
you missed your chance."
10:36
And I said, "Wait, no!
10:41
"I get it but I'm ready
10:47
"and I would like to make a phone call."
10:48
So I kinda said, "Here's
what's gonna happen.
10:50
"You're gonna put me on the
phone with Joe and Soraya."
10:53
- He's calling the shots now.
10:55
I brought the producers in and I said,
10:57
"Here's what's gonna happen.
10:58
"I realize you guys are filming a TV show
10:59
"and we want some drama but
I'm gonna ask her to marry me.
11:00
"And so I need to get her
parents on the phone right now
11:04
"or I'll go tell JoJo that
I'll see her after the show."
11:08
And I was actually willing
to walk away at that point
11:12
and tell her, hey, they
didn't allow me to do this
11:14
how I wanted to do it
so if you would like to,
11:17
I will meet you after the show.
11:20
Obviously, it didn't happen that way
11:22
and they got her parents on the phone
11:23
and I get how it felt to you
that I didn't ask your dad.
11:25
It wasn't that my feelings weren't there.
11:28
It was kind of just a respect thing.
11:30
So I was able to call him and get the okay
11:31
and that was probably
the best day of my life.
11:34
(bright upbeat music)
11:35
- I'm thinking about it now
but did you ever tell me,
11:39
yes, I'm going to propose
to you on that final day?
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And so when you say, oh, all
the cards are in your hand
11:49
and you were so in charge and those,
11:52
you will never understand the
emotional torment of that day.
11:55
- Tell me, tell me what I don't know!
12:01
- I'm so passionate about this!
12:02
I'm laying in my bed, it's
the night before the proposal
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and I'm sick to my stomach.
12:08
I'm sick, I'm nauseous,
12:10
I don't sleep more than
20 minutes that night.
12:13
I was so in love with Jordan.
12:16
I knew I wanted to be with Jordan
12:19
but I was very scared that
maybe he wasn't there with me.
12:22
And then I had Robby who at the time,
12:27
I cared very deeply for as well,
12:29
which I think people don't get.
12:31
They're like, if you're
so in love with Jordan
12:33
and you wanna be with Jordan,
12:35
why are you so upset and emotional
12:36
about saying goodbye to Robby?
12:38
And it's like the idea
of hurting somebody is...
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I don't like to hurt people
12:45
and I think that was
the hardest part for me.
12:47
I was sitting there in my
room with the stylist, Keri,
12:48
who I love so much and he
just looked at me and he said,
12:53
JoJo, baby doll, whatever
he calls me, he's like--
12:57
- Muffin.
- "You know what to do
13:00
"and if you want to take the safe way out,
13:03
"then you know what direction that is
13:07
"but if you wanna follow your
heart and take a risk on love
13:08
"and see what it could be,
13:11
"then I think you know
the answer to that too."
13:13
If I get hurt, I get
hurt but at least I know
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that I am following my heart
and I'm doing what I want
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and not what everyone else wants for me.
13:21
I got about 30 minutes in
between saying goodbye to Robby
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and then Jordan walking up to me
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so you can only imagine all the feelings
13:30
that are going through my mind.
13:32
- But we don't know.
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I don't know and we've
never told each other.
13:34
She never told me it was me.
13:36
- Never!
- I never told her
13:37
that I was gonna propose
13:38
so in our mind, in my mind,
13:40
I'm like, okay the engagement
is always like a sunset shot
13:41
so I'm like, if I get
in that car too early
13:45
to head over there, it's not me.
13:47
I'm watching the sun.
- Why didn't I think of that?
13:50
And then they tell me,
"Okay, it's time to go."
13:52
And then I'm like, oh no,
that sun's not that low.
13:53
I'm like, she's gonna break up with me!
13:56
As much as I knew that she loved me
13:59
and that I thought she would say yes,
14:00
as confident as I was,
you still never know.
14:02
And so I go through my whole spiel
14:05
and then literally, I am
flexing to take a knee
14:08
and she goes, "Wait."
14:13
And you guys don't catch this on camera
14:15
'cause our minds go a
million miles an hour.
14:16
In my mind, I'm like--
14:18
I'm like, she's breaking up with me!
14:21
You idiot, how'd you not see this coming?
14:23
You just made a fool of yourself!
14:26
You went through your whole proposal
14:27
and then she stops, she goes,
14:29
"I just wanna tell you that I love you."
14:30
And then it was just all aboard from there
14:32
and I got down on one knee and--
14:33
- Aw!
- But those were things
14:34
I was so nervous and then I was confident
14:36
and then she stops me and I'm like,
14:38
it's over.
- What a day!
14:42
- And then we were just
sweating and just sloppy.
14:45
(playful rock music)
14:49
Once we walked away from the engagement,
14:51
you would think it's all
love and we get to hang out.
14:54
- We obviously just had
this really amazing moment.
14:56
We just got engaged.
14:59
That's a moment that you
wait for your whole life
15:00
and normally, you wanna
shout it from the rooftops,
15:02
you wanna tell everybody, and you can't.
15:05
Right when you get separated,
15:07
you just had this high of a moment,
15:09
that's when all the
tabloids start coming out
15:11
and that's when you start reading
15:14
all of the horrible gossips and the rumors
15:15
and you start having to deal
15:19
with those emotions on your own.
15:20
- It was ugly at times.
15:21
And when you just think about it,
15:25
you get this person's
number after you're engaged.
15:26
- It's weird!
- So everything up
15:29
to that point had been face to face.
15:30
You could always see emotion,
15:31
you could always talk things out.
15:32
- Yeah, that's so true!
15:35
We had never dealt with
any sort of problems--
15:36
- Distance or friction!
- Via phone call.
15:38
- Yeah, we'd never dealt
with distance or friction
15:41
or anything like that.
15:43
- And that's really when things
changed a little bit for us.
15:44
- And our story really started.
15:49
- The real story began.
15:51
And that story is just as
important as our love story
15:52
because it is how and
why we are still together
15:55
and sitting here today.
15:58
That is coming next.
16:01
So stay tuned for that.
16:02
- And she's a huge romantic
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and she wants to hear
all of your love stories
16:05
so comment below and
don't forget to subscribe
16:07
'cause you're not gonna
wanna miss this next one.
16:09
- We'll see you guys next time!
16:11
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