– 英语/中文 双语歌词

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[中文]

- 您有 BuzzFeed 您想认识

的人物？

- 我认为每个人 观看 BuzzFeed

的人迷恋尤金。

“哦天哪，尤金，哦 我的天哪，他看起来真好。”

- 嗯，我从来没有读过任何这些评论。

我们可能只能挂了 一起参加酷儿舞会

因为你会 飞往洛杉矶，您是我们官方舞会场地的

成员。

（欢快的音乐）

- 女王舞会简介采访， 场景五，取一。

- 很好。

在费城长大的是 我想说，很难。

我整个大三和大四 那一年，不像地狱，

我不会说它们是地狱， 但他们很累。

有很多审问。

有很多错误的名字 在角色调用中，然后

当我说“那不是我的名字”时。

他们说，“呃，这是什么意思？”

很多旁注，非常不屑一顾。

告诉我所有的诽谤， 我认识每一个人。

我都认识。

我认识所有的音调 你可以这样说，让

一位老师认为你 我并没有恶意，

只是开个玩笑。

高中对每个人来说都很艰难，我想说，

但是当你是变性人时 人们期望你有

无尽的耐心 对他们的

公牛（嘟嘟）表示无尽的善意。

他们希望你解释一下 一切都非常平静

，当他们出错时 他们希望你安慰他们。

这就是我现在住的地方。

我搬到了圣克鲁斯 两三周前。

我正要搬出一个岩石家庭。

在外面有人 看看可能不会说

我的家人很支持 我认为他们是因为

我仍然被性别歧视， 我仍然以

的名字死去，仍然被问到很多 真正具有侵入性的问题。

我来和我的 父亲和他的搭档与

我最好的朋友李。

- 在开普敦长大是不同的。

我来自乡镇， 这就像非常贫穷

黑人社区和所有人 通常低于

贫困线，具体取决于您居住的地方。

作为黑人跨性别者或 南非的酷儿

有点像你 非常封闭，因为它

就像一个暴力和压抑的社会。

大满贯诗歌社区 美国

比在美国好得多 南非，所以我们有

这首竞争性的大满贯诗歌 喜欢青年国际

比赛，所以我们俩 入选费城队。

而诗是非常亲密的 非常，你知道，

你只是倾诉了你所有的感受。

就像，“天哪，好痛。”

所以你已经有了 互相支持

，这就像我们基本上一样 就这样成了朋友。

- 加州更容易 比费城成为跨性别者，

至少对我来说，因为

跨性别医疗保健还有更多选择 一般来说，有更多的跨性别者

带着穿孔

走来走去（嘟嘟），我就像，

你和我，在同一页上。

我从未参加过舞会。

其他人都去参加舞会了。

我没有钱拿 西装，我们开玩笑吧？

租金也许，也许。

但是我和我妈妈，我不会 说我们很穷，

但我们收入很低 她不想

花钱买东西 这很无聊，你知道吗？

并考虑举办舞会 一些无聊的事情，

这是额外的。

但它不会 无论如何还是发生了，因为成本

，然后，你知道，（嘟嘟声） 在我家

发生故障，我不得不很快离开。

但即便如此我也不 我认为我的舞会是

一个完全安全的空间。

- 克里斯，你最好收拾行李 你那该死的泳衣

因为你要来了 BuzzFeed 的酷儿舞会。

- 耶！

- 你好，我叫 Christopher Underwood，

我住在密歇根州底特律， 我是酷儿，我在这里

，我要去参加酷儿舞会。

非常兴奋，哎呀哎呀。

如你所见，我很漂亮 女性化所以当我

年轻的时候很多孩子 会因此欺负我，并

说“基佬、基佬、同性恋”之类的话。

黑人往往是 非常宗教化，所以

它没有被太多谈论， 除了喜欢取笑某人或侮辱某人

。

这是我的学校，你已经 当你步行去时一定要小心

来来回回，因为到处都是

鹅粪便。

- 哦，是的，他们不关心我们。

我感觉自己像条鲨鱼，停下来。

- 贵族是其中之一 我有很多支持我的朋友

鼓励我，让我

觉得我可以成为同性恋。

我知道如果我真的决定了 我是同性恋或者什么

或者感觉好像我 我改变了主意，

然后我可以告诉他们 不用担心我会

被排斥或疏远。

- 那也很痛。

他告诉所有人 在我们之前的学校。

因为我问他，你知道，

有人知道吗？诸如此类的事情。

他说：“大家。”

- 很长一段时间我没有 想要告诉她只是因为

我认为她非常 仇视同性恋，因为她

也是一个非常虔诚的人。

有时当我们 会谈论 LGBT 类型的

问题，她并不是最常谈论的 像我一样知识渊博，

出来之前。

- 他完全把我拒之门外。

没有家人，没有 一起吃饭，没什么。

从那时起，这就是一场战斗。

- 我的想法是，“哦，如果 他们真的仇视同性恋

“然后我就会忘记 关于他们或其他什么，”

因为，是的。

- 我以为我是 一个很好交谈的人。

我什至还得到了一个 社会工作学位，

去算一下。

可以为街上的任何人提供咨询，

但我儿子甚至不 相信我会来找我。

这对我来说是不同的。

- 我只是假设她恐同，

但我想看看 回来她只是不知道

，我很遗憾没有早点告诉她。

- 拥抱它。

看这个。

那是另一回事。

他的巨大是可怕的。

我们会像所有人一样拥抱。

他会像这样。

适当的拥抱，否则我就在电视上打败他。

看那个，看那个，你看到了吗？

- 我的朋友要去参加酷儿舞会，

我为他感到非常兴奋。

- 我有很多女朋友 还有很多异性恋

男性朋友，我非常爱他们，

但有时我觉得 就像我想要其他人

与我完全相关。

所以我觉得我想要 在洛杉矶

的酷儿舞会上找到它。

- 对于任何连接问题，我深表歉意。

我正在车里前往 Chipotle。

- 重要。

- 尽管这些 故事太不可思议了，

我们必须把那些故事去掉

因为 BuzzFeed 的原因而被隐藏的故事 这样一个公共平台

我们不知道它是否会 对他们来说很危险，

我们不知道他们是否 社区会

接受。

- 这就是你要做的一切 支付下周末的费用

因为你会 在洛杉矶参加 BuzzFeed 的

酷儿舞会。

- 我们不想带 有人进入折叠

，然后将其发送回 不安全的社区

或家庭 不会支持的。

- 不是每个人的父母 正在接受，所以我们只需

必须确保我们 带来了

真正拥抱的人， 有一个充满爱心的社区。

是的，或者 18 岁的人。

- 我们正在为 BuzzFeed 拍摄。

那些人 送我去洛杉矶。

我的父母总是告诉我 从我

真正能够理解的那一刻起 我被收养了，

我被收养了。

- 你穿胸罩了吗？

- 是的，我愿意。

- 谁把它放在那里？

- 哦，它就在那里。

我没有意见一致 我的父母在各个层面上都

。

- 我们停下来在 我们房子之间有栅栏

因为我们是邻居 我们称之为击剑。

然后慢慢地我们 毕业于

她地下室的钢管舞。

- 它确实塑造了我这个人。

- 确实如此。

所以我们有基本的 一起上学，然后

我转学到她的天主教学校

读大二。

我准备好拍摄我的 脑子坏掉了，所以我离开了，

，但又多花了你一两年的时间。

- 好吧，这并不是我的选择，但是--

在我的前三年 高中毕业时我去了

的一所天主教学校 马萨诸塞州，他们刚刚把

我踢了出去 夏天，他们发现

我是跨性别者。

我去了一所公立学校 在那所公立学校

我非常幸运。

我真的不是来这里的 知道我要去这里

只有四天--

看看这种感情的表现。

我爱你。

一切都非常非常好。

我父亲在那边。

- 你好。

- 所以在我爸爸的生日那天 我对他们来说是同性恋

，我爸爸对此表示同意，但是 我妈妈完全吓坏了。

我尝试修复 尽我所能

，我们一直在取得进展。

但后来我出来了 大约一年前现在

，这使得更大的 我们的关系出现裂痕。

- 就像我知道她的情况一样 我知道

对她来说在家不太舒服， 所以我一直催促着说，

“你为什么不搬进我的房子呢？”

所以我开始介绍 这个想法告诉了我的父母

，最后告诉了顽固女士 决定听听我的建议

，让自己更快乐 并决定搬进去。

- 我穿了一件衣服， 把我的假奶放进去，

这个母狗已经准备好大干一场了。

我最近去过 采取一些步骤

最终确定并制作 具体我的转变。

我打算进城 当我到达时很快就会大厅

返回开始名称 更改流程，然后前往

Fenway Health，位于波士顿，

，他们以 跨性别医疗保健。

所以我要去那里 我希望

开始使用 HRT。

- 这非常好，因为我 我周围从来没有真正的支持

系统。

就像在中学或 不管怎样，我真的没有

个朋友，更不用说朋友了 那会接受我。

我从来没能做到 对 Quinn 以外的任何人

保持完全开放。

- 我一直都是这样 正如我所说，重点关注

其他人或者也许 学校和学术界

以及所有这些 我陷入了困境。

最后感觉就像 所有与

性别、性取向、其他相关的斗争

在我生活的各个方面都导致了这一点。

感受完整的循环。

- 我有一些坏消息。

我只能邀请 Sage 参加舞会，因为 Sage，

你必须亲自邀请凯特琳。

- [女]他们在拥抱。

- 凯特琳和我都是 超级参与戏剧。

这是后台。

凯特琳并不是真的 喜欢out-out所以我们喜欢

处于低位就像 谈一点。

然后当我们决定时 是时候了，凯特琳

把头发染成了红色，这与

没有任何关系，但是--

-剃了我的后脑勺。

- 是的，凯特琳有一个 削弱只是为了全力以赴。

我们去了照相亭 在商场里拍了一张

照片 接吻时，我们说，

“就是这样，我们太同性恋了。”

- [Caitlin] 我们将其发布在 Twitter 上。

- 我们发布了照片 我们在 Twitter 上接吻

，然后我们就想——

- 这将是一个缩影时刻。

- 我们会像 学校里的议论。

没有人谈论 我想，我们只是认为它

酷多了。

这可能是我的其中之一 最喜欢的城市景观。

一切都在这里您可以看到 进入的主要道路之一

Beloit 然后就是 罗克河，那是凯特琳和我就读的

学校。

所以我是在一个完全 保守的家庭

，我没有 任何类型的同性恋

社区或任何东西的出路， 我记得只是抽泣。

我就像在我的房间里哭泣。

我妈妈说，“什么 你想谈谈吗？

我当时想，“我想我是同性恋。”

我妈妈说：“什么？”

然后当我和她说话时 关于 BuzzFeed 的事情

我真的很紧张 因为我们还没有真正

讨论过这个问题，你知道。

她正在修剪草坪， 我让她停止草坪

割草机，我当时想，“妈妈，停下来 割草，我有个好消息。”

我喜欢过来，我很兴奋，

学校刚刚毕业，我想，

“我被录取了，所以我要去洛杉矶，”

我当时想，“这不是很令人兴奋吗？”

她说：“老实说 这让我想吐。”

我当时想，“我让 你想吐吗？”

她说，“不是你， 同性恋让我想要

“呕吐”。

我当时想，“但是 妈妈，我是同性恋，

“所以同性恋，我让 那时你想吐。”

然后我们大吵了一架 因为我们

不得不划一条线 你不会知道

的事情，你不会 要和我谈论

件事，我会保留的 对您不公开

，我们必须尊重 互相尊重并尊重

我们将保持分开 并做好我们自己的事情。

所以我们基本上做到了 承诺，然后我们

没有再谈论它，直到我离开。

我们能很快握手吗？

- [尤金] 是的，拜托，我 不知道那是什么但是。

- 准备好了吗？

是的，我爸爸在这里，他很冷静。

我和他谈过这件事，我说，

“你能跟我一起去吗？ 你会为此而沮丧吗？”

起初他以为这是一个骗局。

- 我说，“女孩，我不 知道我是否可以下车

“工作，改变我的日程安排 六、七天内。”

- 我说，“你必须 去做吧，这就是机会。”

- 这真的很重要， 你必须在那里。

当事情对她很重要时，

你就让它发挥作用。

- 我和我爸爸很少谈论这件事，

我的意思是，我们已经谈论过 在这里比以往任何时候都更

和其他孩子在一起 他问了我更多关于代词和事物的问题

。

- 我现在完全明白了吗？不。

但是我在学习吗？是的。

无论她处于生活的哪个阶段 去或她

做出什么选择，我想让她知道我在那里。

无论如何。

- 我很兴奋，因为有 都会成为同性恋

，我们是其中之一 在我们学校只有这样的情侣

。

我很高兴能穿上 正是我想要的

并且真正感受到 在凯特琳

旁边充满信心，并且知道她感觉很好。

- 另外，在我们学校的舞会上 这只是一个磨坑，

就是这样。

没有其他舞蹈发生。

你要么在苦苦挣扎 或者您坐在

桌。

- 我们经常坐在桌子旁。

- 所以我希望有 将是不同类型的

舞蹈。

- 你是罗文，对吗？

- 我是。

- 嗯，你绝对是 在 VIP 嘉宾名单上，

恭喜您，您是 来洛杉矶

，你将参加我们的酷儿舞会。

- 多么美好的时光啊，有亲和力的青少年。

我的高中看起来像一个购物中心。

- 确实如此。

- 咬我。

我的意思是，我经历了 与我的学校

打交道，他们告诉我，我 无法再使用

男洗手间。

之后我就回家了 并刚刚开始宣传

康涅狄格州的非歧视 法律，并真正

让自己陷入这种境地。

我得到了很多帮助 来自我的朋友们，

，我们确实致力于 弄清楚我们想要哪个

个浴室 已经解锁以及我们如何

将解锁它们。

在里面设置浴室 学校是最困难的部分，

学会接受这一点 人们会将它们

用于其他用途，数量很多，

我不知道。

有时我什至不 可以脱掉

我们的运动服进入这里，或者穿上我们的运动服

，因为这里已经有人了 因为人们喜欢在这里

亲热。

所以这只是一种 就像

涉及到这一点时，要么成败。

但我们至少还有一个空间 这就是我想要的。

- 罗文是我未婚夫的脚步 他之前的

婚姻所生的孩子。

有点像妈妈。 - 有点像妈妈。

- Nikky 很好奇并且 想要了解更多关于

我必须说的话以及什么 我不得不为自己说

只是帮助我敞开心扉 更多作为一个人，它

鼓励我做得更多 比我想象的

能做到的多。

我的康涅狄格州父母， 尽管他们非常热爱

并且非常愿意 我，当它到来时他们有点

不接受 对我的性别来说，这

一直困扰着我 他们在过去的两年里。

- 有些人 有血缘关系，

并不是真正的家人 与您有

零联系的所有人 就 DNA 而言，

你会为之走过火海。

所以你组建了自己的家庭。

- 或者你为他们飞往洛杉矶。

- 或者您飞往洛杉矶 你自己的家人最后一刻

当你的孩子 在事情发生前三

秒告诉您。

- 好吧，尤金告诉你了 说到这，那不是我。

在高级会议上 他们试图告诉我们，您的文凭有

说出

学校记录中所说的话来祝福 up 我刚刚在学校改了名字

，所以我不 学校、文凭上必须有已故姓名

。

我不会去我自己的 舞会，因为，我的意思是，

学校本身喜欢 行政和师资

非常容易接受并且有 之后对跨性别学生变得非常包容

多种不同的

情况。

但是我学长的学生 班级并不完全接受

我是谁。

其中大多数只是 对我不好而且

只是不安全的情况 让我自己参与其中。

所以我只是，我要 今年让自己远离

的情况，我 意思是，酷儿舞会更好。

- 罗文是最少的 世界上反应灵敏的人。

我知道这听起来很糟糕， 但那里从来没有

太多情感，对吧？

所以我一直喜欢， “罗文这不是很棒吗？”

而且，“嗯”，只是通常情况下 少年没有任何反应。

所以当你出现在镜头前时，

我看到了反应 我不知道

的存在。

我当时想，“里面有情感！”

所以看到这一点，我已经等不及了 看看明天会发生什么。

- 我很快就会到达加利福尼亚州。

我已经打包好了，这件事正在发生。

- 我们将他们全部飞走 到洛杉矶他们

不知道接下来会发生什么。

我们还有一些 在 BuzzFeeds 酷儿舞会上让我们大吃一惊

。

你是官方的酷儿舞会法庭。

一生最好的朋友，对吧？

《时尚》，《时尚》，《时尚》。

时尚！

- 我做不到。

- 我们玩得很开心。

（欢快的音乐）

[英语]

- Do you have any BuzzFeed personalities that

you would want to meet?

- I think that everyone who watches BuzzFeed

has a crush on Eugene.

"Oh my God, Eugene, oh my god he looks so good."

- Well I never read any of those comments.

We just might have to hang out at queer prom together

'cause you're gonna be flown on to LA and you are

part of our official prom court.

(upbeat music)

- Queen prom intro interviews, scene five, take one.

- That's good.

Growing up in Philly was difficult, I would say.

My entire junior and senior year were, not like hell,

I wouldn't say they're hell, but they were exhausting.

There was a lot of interrogation.

There was a lot of wrong name on the role call and then

when I would say, "That's not my name."

They were like, "Uh, what's that mean?"

A lot of side comments, very dismissive.

Tell me all the slurs, I know every single one.

I know them all.

And I know all the tones you could say it in to make

a teacher think that you weren't being hateful,

just making a joke.

High school is hard for everyone, I'd say,

but when you're trans people expect you to have

endless patience and endless kindness for their

bull(beep).

They want you to explain everything very calmly

and when they get it wrong they want you to comfort them.

So this is where I live now.

I moved to Santa Cruz like two or three weeks ago.

I was moving out of a rocky household.

On the outside someone looking in might not say

my family is supportive as I think they are because

I still get misgendered, I still get dead named

and I still am asked a lot of really invasive questions.

I came to live with my father and his partner with

my best friend Lee.

- Growing up in Cape Town is different.

I come from a township, which is like very poor

black community and everyone is usually below the

poverty line depending on where you live.

Being a black trans or queer person in South Africa

is kind of like you are very closeted because it's

like a violent and repressive society.

The slam poetry community is much better here

in America than it is in South Africa so we have

this competitive slam poetry like youth international

competition and so we both made the Philadelphia team.

And Poetry is very intimate and very, you know,

you just spill out all your feelings.

Like, "Oh my God, this hurt."

And so you kind of have to be there for each other

and that's like we basically became friends like that.

- California is easier than Philly to be trans in,

at least for me, because there's a lot more options for

trans healthcare and there are a lot more trans

people in general just walking around with piercings

and (beep) and I'm just like,

you and I, on the same page.

I've never gone to prom.

Everyone else has gone to prom.

I don't have money to get a suit, are we kidding?

A rental maybe, maybe.

But my mom and I, I wouldn't say that we're poor,

but we're very low income and she didn't want to

spend money on something that's frivolous, you know?

And prom was considered something that was frivolous,

it was extra.

But it wouldn't have happened anyway because cost

and then, you know, (beep) went down at my house

and I had to leave very quickly.

But even then I don't think that my prom was

a completely safe space.

- Chris, you better pack your freaking swimsuit

'cause you are coming to BuzzFeed's queer prom.

- Yay!

- Hello, my name is Christopher Underwood,

I live in Detroit, Michigan, I'm queer, I'm here

and I'm going to queer prom.

Pretty excited, whoop whoop.

As you can see, I'm pretty feminine so when I was

younger a lot of kids would bully me for it and

say things like faggot, fag, gay.

Black people tend to be very religious oriented so

it wasn't very talked about, other than like to make

fun of somebody or to insult somebody.

This is my school, you've got to kind of be careful

when you're walking to and fro because there's

gonna be geese poop everywhere.

- Oh yeah, they don't care about us.

I feel like a shark, stop.

- Patrician was one of many friends that I've had

that supported me and encouraged me and made me

feel as though I could be gay.

I knew that if I did decide that I was gay or whatever

or felt as though I changed my mind about that,

then I could tell them and not fear that I would

be ostracized or alienated.

- That hurt too.

That he told everybody at school before us.

Because I asked him, you know,

does anyone know? Things like that.

And he said, "Everybody."

- For a long time I didn't want to tell her just because

I thought that she was very homophobic because she's

also a pretty religious person.

And sometimes when we would talk about LGBT type

issues she wasn't the most knowledgeable like I was,

before coming out.

- He shut me out completely.

No family anything, not eating together, no nothing.

And that's been a battle ever since.

- My thinking was, "Oh if they're really homophobic

"then I'll just forget about them or whatever,"

because, yeah.

- And I thought that I was a great person to talk to.

I even went and got a degree in social work,

go figure that.

Could counsel anyone on the streets,

but my son don't even trust me to come to me.

It's different for me.

- I just assumed that she was homophobic,

but I feel like looking back she just didn't know

and I regret not telling her sooner.

- Hug it out.

Watch this.

That's another thing.

His huge are hideous.

We'll be like all in hug thing.

And he'll be like.

Proper hug or I'm a bop him on TV.

See that, see that, did you see it?

- My friend's going to queer prom,

I'm so excited for him.

- I have lots of girlfriends and a lot of straight

guy friends and I love them all so much,

but sometimes I feel like I want somebody else

that could completely relate to me.

So I feel like I want to find that here in Los Angeles

at queer prom.

- I apologize for any connection issues,

I'm in the car on the way to Chipotle.

- Important.

- Even though these stories were incredible,

we had to take out those stories where they were

closeted because BuzzFeed's such a public platform

we didn't know if it would be dangerous for them,

we didn't know if their communities would be

accepting.

- That's all you're gonna be paying for next weekend

'cause you're gonna be here in LA for BuzzFeed's

queer prom.

- We wouldn't want to bring somebody into the fold

and then send that back to a community that was unsafe

or to a family that wouldn't be supportive.

- Not everyone's parents were accepting so we just

had to make sure that we brought out people that were

really embraced and had a loving community.

Yeah, or people who were 18.

- We are filming for BuzzFeed.

The people who are sending me to Los Angeles.

My parents always told me from the moment that I was

actually able to comprehend that I was adopted,

that I was adopted.

- Have you got a bra on?

- Yes I do.

- Who put that in there?

- Oh it's in there.

I did not see eye-to-eye with my parents on literally

every level.

- We stopped to meet at the fence between our houses

because we were neighbors and we called it fencing.

And then slowly we graduated to pole dancing in

her basement.

- It really formed me as a person.

- It did.

So we had elementary school together and then

I transferred into her Catholic school

for my sophomore year.

I was ready to shoot my brains out so I left,

but took you an extra year or two.

- Well wasn't really by choice, but--

For my first three years of high school I went to

a Catholic school in Massachusetts and they kicked

me out just this past summer when they found out

I was trans.

And I went to a public school and at that public school

I have been so blessed.

I came here literally not knowing I was going here

only four days--

Look at this display of affection.

I love you.

Everything has been very very nice.

My father over there.

- Hello.

- So on my dad's birthday I came out as gay to them

and my dad took it well, but my mom completely freaked.

I tried to repair the relationship as best as I could

and we've been making progress ever since.

But then I came out as trans almost a year ago now

and that put an even bigger splinter in our relationship.

- Like I knew her situation and I knew it wasn't

really good at home for her, so I kept pushing and saying,

"Why don't you just move into my house?"

So I started introducing the idea to my parents

and finally Ms. Stubborn decided to listen to my advice

and make herself happier and decided to move in.

- I've got a dress on, got my fake titties in,

the bitch is ready to slay the day.

I have recently been taking some steps towards

finalizing and making concrete my transition.

I plan on going to town hall pretty soon when I get

back to start the name change process then go to

Fenway Health, which is in Boston,

and they're known for their transgender healthcare.

So I'm gonna go there and I'm gonna hopefully

start on HRT.

- It's very nice because I never really had a supportive

system around me.

Like in middle school or whatever I didn't really have

friends, let alone friends that would accept me.

I've never been able to be fully open with anyone

other than Quinn.

- I've always been so focused on, like I said,

everyone else or maybe school and academics

and all of these things that I was getting caught up in.

And finally it feels like all of the struggle with

gender, sexuality, other aspects of my life,

has been leading up to this.

Feel full circle.

- I have some bad news.

I can only invite Sage to prom because Sage,

you have to invite Caitlin yourself.

- [Woman] They're hugging.

- Caitlin and I are both super involved in theater.

This is the backstage.

Caitlin wasn't really like out-out so we like

were on the low like talking for a little bit.

And then when we decided it was time and Caitlin

dyed her hair red, that didn't really have

anything to do with it but--

- Shaved the back of my head.

- Yeah, Caitlin got an undercut just to go all out.

We went to a photo booth in the mall and took a

picture where we were kissing, we were like,

"This is it, we're so gay."

- [Caitlin] We posted it on Twitter.

- We posted the picture of us kissing on Twitter

and we were like--

- This is gonna be epitome moment.

- We're gonna be like the talk of the school.

And nobody talked about us, we just thought it was

a lot cooler, I guess.

This is probably one of my favorite views of the city.

All down here you can see one of the main roads into

Beloit and then that's the Rock River and that's the

school that Caitlin and I go to.

So I grew up in a totally conservative family

and I didn't have any outlet to any type of gay

community or anything, I remember just sobbing.

I was just like sobbing in my room.

And my mom was like, "What do you want to talk about?"

And I was like, "I think I'm gay."

And my mom was like, "What?"

Then when I talked to her about the BuzzFeed thing

I was really nervous because we haven't really

talked about that, you know.

She was mowing the lawn, I made her stop the lawn

mower, I was like, "Mom, stop mowing, I have great news."

And I like come over and I'm so excited,

school just finished, I'm like,

"And I got accepted so I'm going to LA,"

and I was like, "isn't that so exciting?"

And she was like, "Honestly it makes me want to throw up."

And I was like, "I make you want to throw up?"

And she was like, "Not you, homosexuality makes me want

"to throw up."

And I was like, "But mom, I'm a homosexual,

"so homosexuality, I make you want to throw up then."

And we got in a big fight about it because we kind of

had to just make a line and you're not gonna know

about things, you're not gonna talk to me about

things, I'll keep that part private from you

and we have to respect each other and respect that

we're gonna stay separate and do our own things.

So we basically made that commitment and then we

didn't talk about it again until I left.

Can we do our handshake really quick?

- [Eugene] Yeah, please, I don't know what that is but.

- Ready?

Yeah, my dad is here, he's pretty chill.

I talked to him about it, I was like,

"Can you come with me? Would you be down for this?"

And at first he thought it was a scam.

- I said, "Girl, I don't know if I can get off of

"work, change my schedules in six, seven days."

- I said, "You've got to do it, this is the chance."

- It's really important, you've got to be there.

And when things are important to her,

you just make it work.

- Me and my dad don't talk about it a ton,

I mean, we've talked about it more than ever here

being around other kids he's asked me more questions

about pronouns and things.

- Do I totally understand now? No.

But am I learning? Yes.

No matter where in life she goes or what choices she

makes, I want her to know I'm there.

No matter what.

- I'm excited 'cause there's gonna be all gay people

and we were one of the only couples like that

at our school.

And I'm excited to wear exactly what I want

and to be feeling really confident next to Caitlin

and knowing that she's feeling good.

- Also, at our school proms it's just a grind pit,

that's it.

There's no other dancing happening.

You're either grinding or you're sitting at the

tables.

- We sat at the tables a lot.

- So I'm hoping that there will be different types

of dancing.

- You are Rowan right?

- I am.

- Well you are definitely on the VIP guest list,

congratulations, you are coming to Los Angeles

and you will be at our queer prom.

- What a time, relatable teenagers.

My high school looks like a mall.

- It really does.

- Bit me.

I mean, I went through the whole deal with my school

and they told me that I wasn't able to use the

men's room anymore.

So after that I went home and just started educating

Connecticut's non-discrimination laws and really

putting myself into that situation.

And I had a lot of help from my friends, as well,

and we really worked towards getting, figuring out which

bathrooms we wanted to have unlocked and how we

were going to unlock them.

Getting the bathrooms in the school was the hard part,

learning to accept that people are going to use them

for other things was, it was a lot,

I don't know.

Sometimes I'm not even able to get in here out of

our gym clothes or into our gym clothes

because it's occupied because people like to

make out in here.

So it's just kind of like hit or miss when it

comes to this one.

But we at least have a space and that's what I wanted.

- Rowan is my fiance's step child from his previous

marriage.

Sort of mom. - Sort of mom.

- Nikky being curious and wanting to learn more about

what I had to say and what I had to say for myself

just helped me open up more as a person and it

encouraged me to do more than I thought that I was

able to do.

My Connecticut parents, though they're very loving

and very much there for me, they're a little bit

unaccepting when it comes to my gender and that's

been a struggle with me with them for the past two years.

- There are people that are related by blood that

aren't really family at all and people that have

zero connection to you as far as DNA goes that

you walk through fire for.

So you make your own family.

- Or you fly to LA for them.

- Or you fly to LA for your own family last minute

when your sort of kid tells you about it three

seconds before it happens.

- Okay, Eugene told you about it, it wasn't me.

At the senior meeting they tried to tell us that

for your diploma it had to say what it said in

school records to bless up I just changed my name

in the school so I don't have to have the dead name

on the school, on the diploma.

I'm not going to my own prom because, I mean,

the school itself like the administration and faculty

are very accepting and have become very accommodating

to trans students after a multitude of different

situations.

But the students of my senior class don't exactly accept

me for who I am.

A majority of them just aren't nice to me and it's

just not a safe situation for myself to be in.

So I just, I'm gonna keep myself out of that

situation this year and, I mean, queer prom is better.

- Rowan is like the least reactive person in the world.

I know that sounds terrible, but there's just never

much emotion there, right?

So I'm constantly like, "Rowan isn't this great?"

And, "Mhmm," just typically teenager no reaction.

And so when you popped on camera,

the reaction I saw out of this one I didn't know

existed.

I was like, "There's emotions inside!"

So seeing that, I can't wait to see what happens tomorrow.

- I'm going to be in California like soon.

I'm packed, it's happening.

- We're flying them all out to Los Angeles where they

have no idea what's about to happen next.

We still have a few surprises up our sleeves here

at BuzzFeeds queer prom.

You are the official queer prom court.

Best friends for life, right?

Vogue, Vogue, Vogue.

Vogue!

- I can't do it.

- We have fun.

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