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[English]

I am a poor student

But my boyfriend is a native of Beijing

A9 family

He is tall and handsome

He is also very dedicated to me

His parents also hold me in their hands

I am recognized as the daughter-in-law-to-be

Everyone

...

They all say that I am lucky. As long as I get married, I can change my destiny

Until my boyfriend's little green plum returns to China

She slept on his bed

Wearing our

couple's shirt

Then she said coquettishly

Xu Chen

My aunt

Mom

soiled your clothes

You must not scold me

If

makes me cry

you can't afford it

My boyfriend grew up in the compound

...

A group of people

He Xiaoqi is the only girl

so everyone dotes on her

Treat her like a sister

When I was with Xu Chen

...

This is how he introduced He Xiao directly When Xu Chen’s roommate asked me how my sister-in-law Xu Chen was, that’s how he introduced He Xiao

Until when Xu Chen’s roommate asked me how my sister-in-law Xu Chen was, that’s how he introduced He Xiao’s straight

When Xu Chen’s roommate asked me how my sister-in-law was

That’s how Xu Chen introduced He Xiao’s straight

When Xu Chen’s roommate asked me why my sister-in-law Xu Chen was introduced like this at that time, until

Xu Chen’s roommate asked me why my sister-in-law kept running to our dormitory.

She pestered Xu Chen to play games as soon as she arrived

Drama

Stayed until midnight

We had to avoid her even if we wanted to take a bath

Her

I didn’t take it seriously at that time

She also explained to Xu Chen

That

was because He Xiaoqi had just returned from abroad

She didn’t have many friends

But The next time I went to the dormitory Xu Chen, I really saw He Xiaoqi. She had just returned from abroad and had no friends

The next time I went to the dormitory Xu Chen

I really saw He Xiaoqi

Qi

She was taking a nap

She was lying on Xu Chen's bed

In order not to disturb her

Everyone in the room moved lightly

There are four people in the graduate dormitory

Sleeping

Getting on the bed and getting off the table

As long as you raise your eyes

you can see the girl

That The cheeks are so pink that they can be broken by blows

I was panicked for a moment

I don’t know how many girls

should accuse Xu Chen of allowing

How many people are there

...

But Xu Chen naturally pulled me over

Weeks

But why are you so busy recently

I can't see you even if I want to

These

two weeks I am participating in a training organized by my tutor

Every day

I leave early and come back late

There is not much time for Xu Chen

This is his total

He Xiaoqi plays together

Xu Chen heard He Chen on the bed

Hearing He Xiaoqi on the bed and sat up suddenly

She

slept with disheveled hair

said in a daze

Xu Chen

I seem to have stained

your clothes

See the patch pointed by He Xiaoqi

Yin Hong

Xu Chen frowned

Just sleep when you sleep

Why are you wearing my clothes

Did I agree?

He Xiaoqi did not

take it seriously at all

A girl sleeps

What's going on

...

Sleep wrinkles are so ugly

Look at her nonchalant look

Xu Chen's face turned pale

I have always known Xu Chen's temper

He got

angry

He has a bad mouth

But it doesn't matter whether the other party is a

girl

I'm afraid of He Xiaoqi's embarrassment

I'll make things right

Girl

It will be a little troublesome to have your period

You

don't be angry

Xu Chen twisted his

eyebrows

and emphasized bitterly

But

Zhou Ran

These

clothes you bought for

me

got dirty

...

How could I

...

wear them

...

A moment

This hand pauses

Clothes

Revealing the suspender bottom worn close to the body

She drags a long voice

scolding Xu Chen

Stingy

I'll give you a piece of clothing

That's all right

He Xiaoqi has a straightforward temper

He took us to the mall immediately

In fact, Xu Chen is tall and has long legs

Everything he wears will fit

But He Xiaoqi

has a unique vision

pulled him to try on one item after another.

Every item has

a lot of faults

Xu Chen complained that she had too many things to do

But the fitting room

had to go in and out several times

Just do it obediently

I was bored waiting

I walked around the store

In a corner where no one was paying attention

I reached out to look through the tag of the clothes

The price was 3999

The

T-shirt I bought for Xu Chen and was stained by He Xiaoqi

was actually only worth 199

I quietly pulled Xu Chen's sleeve

It was too expensive

Don't let Xiaoqi spend money

Xu Chen smiled slyly

I just want her to have a longer memory

Thousands of dollars worth of things

Just to make her remember

Just buy it

I want to say something else

But He Xiaoqi called my name

She said sweetly

Sister Zhou Ran

I ordered milk tea

Please go get it for me

Recently

He Xiaoqi likes to ask me to help

Or adjust the laces of her skirt

Either help her get her handbag

But the two of them

try on clothes together

One comment

It seems that I really can't get away

I responded lowly

...

turned around and left

When I came back,

I saw He Xiaoqi without

holding the counter like a bone

Just this

Pack it up

The clerk

provided emotional value while collecting money

...

Madam

Your boyfriend

is so handsome

I stopped for a moment

The milk tea

held in both hands suddenly felt very heavy

But I didn't hear He Xiaoqi's denial

She just tilted her head and shouted into the fitting room

Xu

Chen

I'm hungry

You

What time

should I feed

Me

Ah

Actually

I

have

known

He Xiao

later

...

without waiting for my consent I started the video with great interest

Mirror

The girl in the head smiled at me

Bright and charming

The sun was shining

on her face

Like gold foil

I was a little shy

I didn’t dare to say anything

...

But He Xiaoqi kept praising me for my good looks

She also said that if

Xu Chen made me angry

she would beat him up for me

I have a very good impression of Xiaoqi

...

I think she is the kind of approachable rich girl

But since she graduated and returned to China

, something seems to be quietly

quietly changing

Whether it is her manipulation of me intentionally or unintentionally

or her blatant entanglement with Xu Chen

, it all makes me feel uneasy

This night

I rarely suffer from insomnia

Tossing and turning until the end

Ming

finally came to a conclusion

Even if Xu Chen and He Xiaoqi

grew up together

Even if they love each other as brothers and sisters

Now Xu Chen

has a girlfriend

Then they should keep a distance

The reason

didn't tell Xu Chen directly

I mind He Xiaoqi's existence

in

One is because

He Xiaoqi’s previous boyfriends

were all for fun

coffee

They were skiing, skydiving and diving in the circle of friends

All over the world

I've seen it all

A pure science and engineering man like Xu Chen

is definitely not

her type

The second reason is because of Xu Chen's attitude towards He Xiaoqi

What's wrong

Xu is not satisfied

Say what you need to say

Scold when you need to scold

Totally inappropriate for her

It’s a girl

For example, let’s say I’m on the sidelines

Hit

What is Qi doing recently

Good times

I can't always pester you.

Playing games

Xu Chen pouted his lips impatiently

Who knows?

...

...

...

...

...

...

Didn’t make any money back

Xu Chen’s tone was clearly dissatisfied

But his

next sentence

Is

insufficient to achieve success

more than enough

words

? It's like

complaining about her family

...

She is wrong

but I

will give her the full love

If I question their feelings beyond family

...

he will definitely be unhappy

Maybe he will think that I

am being unreasonable

Besides

A University is almost like another home to them

...

In the past few years, it was popular to create a

learning trajectory for yourself.

My schooling trajectory spans the entire administrative division

Community

I studied in my hometown of Shancun Primary School for the first grade

I worked with my parents in junior high school

I went to a coastal city to study

I didn’t do well in the college entrance examination for the first time

Repeated

Only then did I rush to this top 3 university

Xu Chen’s trajectory

is terrifyingly simple

A Dafu Primary School

A Dafu Middle School

Then naturally I studied A University

and He Xiaoqi

Her grandfather

was a graduate of this university in the 1950s

and later stayed in school to become a teacher

It took me more than ten years of hard study to reach the end point

Some

people

were born here

Then

I

and

how could

He Xiaoqi be isolated from my world

But

looked at

her

days

.

Wei

has been busy for a whole week

On the day of the competition

I also specially asked my

roommate to help me

put on a very delicate makeup

After the end

I had a late-night snack with all the staff to celebrate

Xu

Chen and I chatted every night

But he came to me several times that night

I said

was busy

and stayed until past ten o'clock

Sure enough, he asked me for my address

It's so

late to go back to the dormitory

How can I

rest assured

Wine Bureau

It's impossible to break up just because I'm alone

We all study at the same school

Naturally, I took Xu Chen to drink a few drinks

The atmosphere was quite normal

But

on the way to send me back to the dormitory

Xu Chen looked unhappy

He walked

halfway

before protesting awkwardly

Why did you put on makeup today

I smiled helplessly

Why can’t you put on makeup

Xu Chen was even more confused

But

Your senior brothers are all staring at you

Especially

the one wearing a gray and blue shirt

has the most wrong eyes

I smiled and hit

Xu Chen's hand

Don't talk nonsense

That's my postdoctoral fellow

Pei Shu

I mentioned it to you

We are friends and socialize normally

You

and He Xiaoqi are like this

Senior brother and I are like this too

Xu Chen's

eyebrows furrowed

He seemed to realize it for the first time

Myself

The relationship with He Xiaoqi

is far closer than me and other boys

If I never accused him and He Xiaoqi

How could he interfere with me

He is as smart as him

He is also stuck

After a long time

Xu Chen sighed

Angry

Ruffled my hair

Calm me for being petty

From now on

We must tell each other when we meet friends of the opposite sex

...

No matter it's He Xiaoqi or your senior brother

it's the same

The night breeze is hot

I leaned on Xu Chen's shoulder

and breathed a sigh of relief

After that

there was indeed a period of time

He Xiaoqi came to school to find Xu Chen

He hid in the laboratory or library

so that she could not escape.

话

Qi

Quickly made a model boyfriend

Then they broke up in the circle of friends

I called Xu Chen for help in the middle of the night

I was crying

He could only leave immediately

At the same time, he did not forget to report to me

She had lost

her love

I had no choice

After several times

I finally couldn't help

and followed her.

Then I saw He Xiaoqi in the bar

wearing white T-shirt hot pants

laughing with friends

Under the dim light

I saw a pair of straight legs

shining

Xu Chen strode over

past

holding her collar

and said angrily

If you keep messing around

I will definitely file a complaint with your father

He Xiaoqi's body tilted

soft

continuous

ground

leaning on Xu

crooked

Chen

in front of

...

my face Xu Chen looked angry

But he still wrapped his

coat around her legs

Don't drink

I'll take you home

Until

next time

I don't care about you

He Xiaoqi giggled and agreed

Turning around

caught a glimpse of me

She squinted her eyes and smiled at me

I just said

Why did Xu Chen get angry with me

It turns out

Yes

Because of you

ah

weeks

burning

my cheeks are hot

...

but I did not argue with He Xiaoqi

Qing

A sober person should not argue with a drunk person

What's more,

if we fight

will I really win

I silently helped He Xiaoqi

into the car

but she was not honest

and danced all the way

Telling interesting stories about her and Xu Chen's childhood

Even though Xu Chen was not happy with her drinking

, she slowly made her laugh

The car was almost driving home

My boyfriend remembered that there was someone else in the car

He turned to look

I

Thoughtful

I don't know why you don't talk

I have already spoken. I don’t know. I am already very asleep. I may not open my mouth. How can I speak?

Open my mouth. What

...

...

...

...

Open your mouth

Night

This

tossing makes me mentally exhausted

I asked

Xu Chen

you

Jie

Don’t you think He Xiaoqi is a little too clingy

to you

...

She

should

He

but

naturally

...

followed

my

dad

to

Xu Chen is kind-hearted

Open-minded behavior

Whenever his colleagues ask him for help

he won't say a word

...

Do things efficiently and beautifully

Let him leave He Xiaoqi alone

Indeed

is

embarrassed

He

But

I almost

can't control it

...

If He Xiaoqi

really

wants to chase

Xu Chen, I

have a few more dates

Mother

My aunt often invites me to sit at home

I choose here

to choose the fruits to bring to the Xu family

Xu Chen shows off behind me

My mother

ordered the dishes a week in advance

and cooks what you like

The treatment of your prospective daughter-in-law

is much better than that of my biological son

I

My heart suddenly jumped very slightly

Xu Chen and I

have been dating for four years

My uncle and aunt all like me

...

will also proudly introduce to friends when taking me out

This is

our Xu Chen

mother's support

Maybe

she will help me remind He Xiaoqi's parents

to find some

daughter

that

things to do for

...

her

Then I won’t pester Xu Chen

After the meal

I was drinking tea with

aunt in the living room

I tentatively asked

aunt Xiaoqi always goes to Xu Chen's dormitory to look for him

Sometimes she takes a nap there

...

Did you know

It's a boys' dormitory after all

I'm worried

My classmates are gossiping

In fact, I have a good reason

But the aunt waved her hand

and said with a smile

After all, it’s a boys’ dormitory. I’m worried about the gossip among my classmates. In fact, I found a very

sufficient reason but

The aunt waved her hands and smiled

and said, Alas

...

These two children

just won't grow up

You

don't know, they

used to sleep

...

when they were little A bed

What an auntie

Qi

...

They are all based on Xu Chen. I want them to be inseparable for life

Li

I listened numbly

Xin

A little

It sank a little

Auntie

reminded me

Zhou Ran

You should take more care of Xiaoqi in the future

Me

Take care of

He Xiaoqi

She is such a proud daughter of heaven

Why should I

come

Take care of

me

Reluctantly

Take care of

me

I'm worried that it will affect his studies

...

But

I was disappointed again

Disappointed

The aunt said with a smile

It's a delay of one or two days

What's the big deal

Zhou Ran

Don't worry about it

Although our family says

we are not rich

but we can still protect you and

Xu

Chen

Life

...

Food and clothing

Worry-free

The book is not easy to read

Just don't read

I

subconsciously

of

time in the market

We were crowded in the huge

crowd

Listening to the shouts of the vendors

Posing stiffly

Taking a photo with this towering landmark building

Twenty yuan a piece

...

Photo

So far

still

placed on my parents’ bedside

Whenever I come home

Guest

It is inevitable to show off

But Xu Chen and He Xiaoqi

are afraid

of getting tired of it

There is

so

time

meaning

The lower limit is also very high

Unlike me

In addition to being a clever

brain

And the appearance is not too ugly

There is really nothing I can

use

so I can only do my best

Read more

Post more articles

Make your resume look better

Also make Xu Chen

's mother like me more

At this moment

Xu Chen's mother

's smile looks so kind

Her suggestion is also the same

Heart-warming

The book is not easy to read

Just don't read

As for the future

Xu Chen will consider it for me

I completely believe in Xu Chen’s feelings for me

But

the first twenty years of my life

The available resources

can be called barren

Every step forward

must be

carefully considered

completely careful

Once I make a mistake

there is no room for maneuver

Then how can I trust my future

completely to Xu

Chen

I should have thought of it long ago

Xu Chen’s mother likes He Xiao

Qi far better than me

Who else can I ask for help?

Although

I have been trying my best to tell myself

not to let irritability affect my judgment

...

but I am really a little bored

and even started to consider

whether to cut off the relationship with Xu Chen

But

I can't give up on Xu Chen just because of this little sensitivity

...

...

...

Four years

We have hardly had any contact with each other

We can be called a model grace on campus

It proves

that Weijiapeng can be called the best on campus in a wide range of situations.

Class

...

Diocesan's appearance gave him enough confidence. I often silently

observe how he treats others

how to think about problems

Then

quietly imitate

and apply it to myself

Before meeting Xu Chen

I have not grabbed a train ticket

I have not ordered a cake

Sometimes

I'm nervous

I don't even know how to organize my language

It's totally

A very embarrassing and relaxed state

It can be said that apart from reading

big books

everything is very neglected

Everything is very serious

But now I can go home from summer vacation life

Reunion with classmates

...

Many people can say

Zhou Ran

Your temperament

Much better than before

Improving your temperament is never that easy

Unless

you have a reference

Xu Chen is like a mirror to me

Illuminating

my sensitive inferiority and uneasiness

Comparing him

I am at one point

One by one

Myself

I am reluctant to leave Xu Chen

But if

not

leave

me

I will

endlessly

...

take care of

roads

They are probably what I am best at

Maybe it’s because I didn’t

The willows and willows

I wrote the recent results as an article

and showed it to my tutor

The little old man who had always been a little serious actually opened his eyes

smiled

He looked at me approvingly

Zhou Ran

Do a good job

Send it to me in the future

You go abroad to study for a Ph.D.

I asked the dean to write you a letter of recommendation

At this moment

I heard the violent heartbeat in my chest

Just like

a person walking in the mist

suddenly saw the way ahead

Yes

I have walked from the mountain village to the county seat

and from the

provincial capital to this

thousand

Xia

level city

me

Why can't we go further

And far

Back

...

I made a decision in my mind, then try a gamble

Win

Have a good life

Lose

Completely give up

Convince Xu Chen

to apply for school with me

It takes almost no effort

With our

academic background

It is easy to get a few offers

But the difficulty I faced

was much older than his. My family had no money to support me going abroad, so I had to get the full scholarship. Rufushang, but the difficulties I faced were much greater than his

There was no money at home for me to go abroad

So I had to get the full scholarship for Rufushang

But the difficulties I faced were much greater than those of him at

, so I had to get the full scholarship

In order to make my personal statement more powerful

I asked for a few more tasks from my tutor

almost to please

Then every day when I open my eyes

I run to the laboratory

and go out in the morning

The dew has not dispersed

I came back at night

and the lights in the whole

dormitory building were dark

I silently do experiments here

Test

Save articles

Xu Chen was also taken by He Xiaoqi

...

Unhappy

Bicycle

Watch

Red

Xiaoqi

...

posts too frequently in Moments, and I only dare to like her when I wake up

every morning

because if I see it before going to bed

I'm afraid that I will have insomnia

Not sleeping well

will affect the progress of my experiment

...

These endless pains

slowly urge

in the body to give birth to an inexplicable anger

They push me forward

I

must

go further before I completely collapse

I don't know

Dao After spending a few weeks at night

I compiled the latest results

and published them

At the same time,

also visited He Xiaoqi’s

Moments an hour ago.

I’m here again to post some food at my little home.

Auntie’s craftsmanship is still

superb for ten years.

The

sweet and sour short ribs praised by He Xiaoqi.

Every time I go to Xu’s house,

I am in front of

Will push it

to

I like to tell me

this

girl lovingly

turn off the phone

...

Carrying bags and preparing to go back to the dormitory

But because of low blood pressure

Sugar

My knees went weak

I hit the corner of the table hard

My forehead was cut

My ankle felt a heartbreaking pain

I called Xu Chen's

number

The person who answered the phone was his mother

Auntie's voice

makes me happy when I hear it

Zhou Ran

You go to Xu Chen

He fights with Xiaoqi

Game

I'm very happy when I hear you have something important. Zhou Ran, please ask Xu Chen to play games with Xiaoqi. What's important?

Calm

Say

Don't think about them

Wrestling

Me

Next second

Aunt

You don't need to disturb Xu Chen

I have nothing to do

This is not a compromise

but after these years of dating

I have learned enough about my boyfriend

Friend

He has a kind nature

and full of emotions

Even strangers on the roadside

will feel pity

when they fall Not to mention me

When Xu Chen found out that it was a boring game

he didn't

because of

feel ashamed

to accompany me in the first place with my own

hand calculation tool

It will definitely

His

guilt

is like pressing

a heart on broken glass

rubbing it repeatedly

But I have no one else

Law

Early the next morning

When Xu Chen came to the hospital to pick me up

The circles under his eyes

were all red

Zhou Ran

Why didn't you call me earlier

I smiled very tolerantly

Hit me

Auntie said

You are playing

games with Xiaoqi

As I expected

I saw guilt in Xu Chen’s eyes

The consequences of his guilt are

For the next week

he stayed in my dormitory

never leaving

My roommates joked privately

that I was lucky

My boyfriend is handsome and rich

I still have the money to treat you

Submissive

But I know

this kind of compassion

will always be exhausted

I

must

achieve what I want before it disappears completely

so

I want Xu Chen to take me to see a Chinese medicine doctor

The doctor checked my pulse

Asked me if I was sleeping

I nodded and admitted

Recently I have been busy studying

and doing my homework

I stay in the laboratory for fifteen or six hours every day

Sometimes I stay up all night

Sure enough, I got the doctor's criticism

Little girl, don't be too tired

Your vitality is damaged at a young age

What to do in the future

Her boyfriend also has to take care of her

Xu Chen is next to her

Listening

looked distressed

came out of the clinic

It was rare for him to show

some strength

Ask me not to work so hard

I know you can endure hardship

But you must also cherish yourself

When we get married

Are you still afraid that my family can't support you

Are you

I stare

Xu Chen

slowly

said me

scared

me

how

words

I didn't dare to say it before

But I must say it now

I have always known that I am very

able to endure hardship

This

Xu Chen has said countless times

We are

undergraduate classmates

met during a volunteer activity

That day was fierce

The sun was in the sky

The temperature was approaching 40 degrees

But I can still wear

a ceremonial cheongsam

stand on the stage

motionless

a whole two

Hours

Later Xu Chen told me

He had never seen a

girl who was so unafraid of hardship

Probably

People are always easily

attracted by traits they don't have

I like Xu Chen's calmness

Calmness

He marveled at my diligence and perseverance

Four years of undergraduate studies

I have always been the first in my grade.

I had a fever and diarrhea the day before.

I can make it in time for my photo at eight o'clock the next morning.

I wish I could stay all night during the final week

Study room

Sometimes Xu Chen advises me not to work so hard

But I

always smile and say nothing

Xu Chen has too much

Even if he

wants something

he can't spare the time to fight for it

But my people

生

No one to support me

I can only rely on myself

So I have to endure

the high temperature and work part-time

just to earn 600 RMB subsidy

I must get the first place in my major

and win the national scholarship and the special scholarship of the college

...

So now

I must also come up with a flawless

impressive resume

to apply for a full PhD scholarship

I never mentioned the gap between us to Xu Chen

He

did not realize it

I was cleverly avoiding

but today

I have spoken out everything that is in my heart

Xu Chen

You are cheerful and enthusiastic

and have a superior family background

and a group of friends. I am really afraid

If I don't work harder

I will not be worthy of you

After all

I can do nothing except

reading

...

...

Sincere words

Ji

...

That's the reason why I stayed up all night to experiment Xu Chen's expression was obviously

shocked

He hugged me

Repeated it over and over again

Ranran

Why didn't you tell me earlier

But

How could I have said it earlier

Weak

Small people talk about their own shortcomings

This is called giving others a handle

Already

A strong person exposes his fragility

It’s the clouds that are calm and the wind is gentle

This time

After talking all night long

Xu Chen seems to have really grown up

He Xiaoqi

Call him again

He will refuse

Even if he goes home on the weekend

he will

take me with him

But

the relationship between the two families for decades is

unbreakable

A few weeks later, He Xiaobei came home for the weekend and wanted to take me with him. However, the decades-old relationship between the two families cannot be severed. A few weeks later, He Xiaobei visited his father

Afterwards I happily spent

sixty years old in the hotel

even though I am sixty years old

family order I still have time to call my home, very

Southland to my dad

of

but

this occasion

I really can't bring you

if you don't

Don’t worry

We can video chat all night long

I sighed heavily

When I was a child, I read a story

It is said that when a person is angry

and wants to curse someone,

he will hammer a nail into the tree. When he is in a good mood and wants to praise others,

he will pull out a nail.

...

Later he pulled out all the nails

But the holes left behind cannot be restored

Of course I can

increase or decrease my feelings for Xu Chen

But those feelings that make me sad

hesitant and helpless

will never disappear

What's more,

the process of driving nails and pulling them out

is also a consumption for me.

I asked myself in my heart

Zhou Ran

What are you waiting for

Do you want to wait for him to suddenly change back to his former self?

Or wait for yourself

to accumulate enough disappointment

Finally have the courage to turn around

to meet Xu Chen's worried

gaze

I smiled bitterly

to take the responsibility on myself

It's my fault

I should believe you

But Xu Chen

I'm a little bit

I can’t believe you

This is not the first time I have doubts about my

relationship with Xu Chen

But this was the first time I didn't hide my

true thoughts

Xu Chen felt it

He was obviously panicked

He

opened his mouth

Wanted to explain

but couldn't say anything

What can I say

Just a few days ago

He swore to me

He wanted to talk to He Xiao

Qi Keep your distance

He licked his lips

and said softly

In the future

I will definitely take you with me

I raised my eyebrows

Already guessed

Eight points

After all

Long-term companionship

Always needs to be famous

In the next few days

Xu Chen has a lot of little moves

Always stealing

Stealing Contact the friends around me

Sometimes I will be silently lost

I turned over the calendar

As expected

next week is the fifth anniversary of our love

...

Xu Chen wants to use marriage to ease my heart

I had no objection to this

at all

...

I pretended to know nothing

and went to the library as usual

Then that afternoon

I was tricked by some of my

roommates to go to an Italian restaurant near the school. Xu

Chen invited

our classmates

and even two teachers Yang

The projection screen loops through our group photos over the years

...

Xu

Chen's face changed from youthful to steady

My smile became more and more

...

This is the five years we have spent together

It's not just me

He is also cherishing it

In the expectation of everyone

Xu Chen took one knee

Kneel down

Speaking affectionately

Zhou Ran

Will you marry me

The heart

is beating crazily in the chest

The eyes are sour

The tears are

uncontrollable

The ring Xu Chen prepared for me is very beautiful

But I didn't expect

that the touch of the metal ring is so unfamiliar

But

I will get used to it slowly

I think

the atmosphere in the venue

is lively

Xu Chen and I are holding hands

to everyone present

Friend toasts

But the phone in his pocket vibrates several times from time to time to record

Me

I have some bad premonitions

I also

did see Xu Chen excuse himself from the meeting

He answered the phone in the bathroom

His voice was low

But he did not suppress his anger

He Xiaoqi had a car accident

Go to the doctor and the traffic police, why should I go there

Mom

I am today

Proposing to Zhou Ran

All my friends are here

But

I don’t know what was said on the phone

Xu Chen finally responded

...

Then wait for me for a while

I will go

He held the wash

hand basin

and did not move for a long time

The back of the white shirt

was no longer as straight as before

It seemed like a request from the other side

Pressed him

out of breath

After a few seconds

Xu Chen turned around and walked towards the crowd

Seems to be looking for me

I stood at the corner of the corridor

and looked at

him quietly

As if as long as I didn't show up

he would never say

He was going to leave me at this time

But

the apology came anyway

Xu Chen

grabbed my hand

Look at my expression carefully

Xiaoqi bumped into someone

...

Her parents are on vacation abroad

Can't come back

Our family must

Need to help

She said she knew we were happy today

So I came here to celebrate

Ranran

You can understand it

She is so delicate

...

I can't just watch her being wronged

Nails

Deeply dig into the palm of my hand

All the joy he had just disappeared

Without a trace

I asked Xu Chen

Why is he always choosing me?

Love him more now the next

moment

makes

me more

Sad

I want

you

...

I took a step back

and watched Xu Chen trot away

as if

was saying goodbye to the past five years

A minute later

I took the wine

cup

and walked into the crowd again

Then hugged my friend

and took more photos

More beautiful photos

The sadder I feel

The brighter the smile on my face

Bad

No matter what

Friends are here for me

I can't let

them disappoint

I spent five hours in the crowd

I was so busy that I sent off the last guest properly

I turned on my phone

Half an hour ago I took the time to send Xu Chen a message

Asking him how things went

...

But he didn't reply

Me After thinking about it

I left for

the Xu family

Because I often go there

The security guard at the gate of the community did not report to the Xu family

Confirm

Across

the green grass

...

...

heard Xu Chen's angry growl

He Xiaoqi said

If you like me

I have to like her

Why

My heart suddenly

tightened

The blood all over the body

accelerated and rushed to the top of

the head

after a subtle breath

because

Xu

Chen is always loyal to me

Auntie

said

Give it a try

Even if you don't like Xiaoqi now

Give it a try

Maybe you will like it

Even because your Uncle He

loves you so much

Xu Chen sneered

I can't possibly not

Zhou Ran

We have been dating for four years

I have to be responsible for her

A meal

After the sound of broken cups and bowls

This time it was Xu

Chen's father who answered

He said slowly

Son

We won't force

you

I just ask you to wait a few years before marrying Zhou Ran

That's it

Don't be afraid

It's our family's honor

I've been dating you for several years

That's hers

I'm sorry for these honors

The head cover was smashed in the face

My whole figure was pressed into the ice water

In fact, I have always known

that my family is not as good as Xu Chen

His parents

One is in business

The other is in politics

During the holidays

The person who gives gifts

almost breaks the threshold

But my parents didn’t even finish high school

and they

worked for people all their lives

But

they make money with their hands

...

Innocent

I even have a wall of awards and

certificates

The first time I stepped in the door of the Xu family

I was really nervous

Parents

Parents who were looked down upon

. Tell me over and over again

They like me

Can pass the A exam

Da

They are all good boys

Boys have a bad temper

Sometimes they don’t even pay attention to food

Food and clothing

...

Zhou Ran

I will bother you more in the future

In fact, they never took a fancy to me from the beginning

and allowed us

to date

simply because their son was born with a silver spoon in his mouth

His life

It’s nothing more than experience

He can have a moment in my

body

...

experience love

defend myself

...

But

even if I can prove it to Xu Chen

tell him impassionedly

I like him

It's definitely not because of his

family background

Even if his parents throw dirty water on me

they can't destroy

this relationship

But I am clearly innocent

Why

have to prove it

to him

What's more,

why

These

words must

be spoken by me

...

...

Xu

Qu

Mu

Never quarrel

But how could I forget

This actually shows that

their three views are similar

Xu Chen is a good boy

What dad and mom say

He will definitely

hear the last trace of attachment in

heart until now

also dissipates into the invisible

Just like heat

The noisy smoke of fireworks has dissipated

The embers in the bonfire are also

Slowly Cooling down

I stretched out my hand

and looked at the

diamond I just put on my hand

Tears rolled around in my eyes

After all,

did not fall

It’s not that I don’t want to cry

It’s that every drop of my tears must be

Useful

The person leaving can be me

But the reason for leaving

It can't be me

Those people use me

Remember that

family

designed me

with perfection

It's human

Only

I remember buying a bottle of beer at the convenience store

Sitting on the side of the road

Sipping

I wanted to numb myself completely with alcohol

But I restrained myself

and only drank half the bottle

I still have too many things to do

I must

stay awake now

I took out my phone

In the dialog box for Xu Chen

knock

knock knock tap

tell me how happy I am at the moment

miss us

Sweet past

Still

caring

You really took your photo

I

still have

...

There are four words

I love you too

Love this word

It's easy to say

But

I should have known better

A child from a poor family

Not even an umbrella

No

Love is such an expensive thing

How can I afford it

These days

I'm probably frustrated in love

I'm not doing well in my studies

It's incredible

All the foreign universities I applied for

I

off

er

have

two

...

ten thousand

light

Read these emails

Sighing slowly

Then pretending

to know nothing

Tell Xu Chen the good news

Soon we will be in

I'm studying in my favorite university

How great

But I thought again

...

It costs too much to go abroad

Even with a scholarship

it's very difficult

How about we stay in China

Xu Chen's face was happy

He

hugged me

and sighed

That’s okay

We can all take care of

home

I stick to him

Continue planning

Obtaining the certificate

We can also put it aside for now

Wait until we graduate with our Ph.D. Why start from the beginning with me

...

...

...

...

...

...

...

You can’t blame him

In the greenhouse

Children who grow up are very simple

I am always grateful to my mother for protecting him from wind and rain

...

It doesn't matter

Xu Chen and I are different

I am not simple

I have ambition

Ambition is attacked by wind and rain

Will grow

more densely

I smiled

but my heart became more and more sad

Xu Chen’s application materials were withdrawn

But I didn’t

Instead, I

applied to join the senior's research project

The whole college knows Pei

Shu's name

not because he is good-looking

but because he is

unkind to others.

He is abroad

Among them,

a female

is invited after class

Got it

One of the Pei

teachers personally

started

However, everyone went to the instructor to cry

Please substitute

What he said is nothing more than

Senior Brother Pei is a bit scary

The requirements for data are also incredibly strict

Never show mercy

I volunteered

I'm a little surprised. I

need a reason

because

His skin

Cold white

Eyelids drooped

Complement

eyes

...

Tassel

to

Apply for a full scholarship to the school I most desire

...

Pei Shu

asked me with squinted eyes

As far as I know

your workload is already saturated

and

your

day only has 24 hours and

is already

but I laugh fearlessly

It’s just a matter of giving it a go

for myself

Even if the fight looks embarrassing

there is What

is important

I

spent a whole

month

...

to produce satisfactory data

...

...

Can you also

do me a favor

...

There is a

person

I want to visit

who is a bit far away from me

But speaking of

he is a fellow disciple of Pei Shu.

The professor's surname is He

A few days

later

It was the first time I stepped into He Xiaoqi's house

The person who opened the door

was her

Although our relationship was awkward

before, at least it was a good relationship.

The face was peaceful

Until He Xiaoqi, since she liked Xu Chen

Everyone

had a tacit agreement to hide this from me

Naturally, I didn’t know what I was

...

I smiled at He Xiaoqi

and showed the

gift

in my hand, but she was obviously guilty

Not only did he block the door and not allow me to enter

, he also said with an arrogant look

Zhou Ranzheng

If you want to raise an army to hold me accountable,

you can’t even think about it in your head.

Auntie is next door to my house

I give her a call and she comes over to meet me

You

are not afraid

She meets

He family

Mom

...

We meet almost every day. I have been in contact with Aunt Xu many times before

I have long been familiar with the rules

I deliberately chose this time to visit

...

I pretended not to understand

and asked He Xiaoqi what he was talking about

She became even more angry

He even snatched the bouquet from my hand

heavily

and threw it to the ground

Even if you let Xu Chen scold me and ignore me

I am too

His sister

We have known each other since we were born

Who are you?

This

voice shocked the family

Aunt He trotted out

to see her daughter

大

rebuke

Bye

I say

...

...

This is a tacit approval of my daughter's excessive behavior

I lowered my

head a little

When I raised my face again,

was already smiling again

I came to visit

Professor He

If

Auntie doesn't want me to come in

Then

I'll keep the

gift

Don't bother me

It's just that

I

have already made an appointment

for this moment

...

He should be waiting for me

...

...

at

?

People

It's actually me

He Xiaoqi sneered

It's impossible

right

At this moment

A thin figure slowly walked over from the second floor

When the old man saw me

he was full of praise

The student accepted by Lao Zhao

It’s getting better and better

Come on

Let’s go to the study room

Professor He is all smiles

My granddaughter cuts fruit for me

Let the old man

make tea

For a while

everyone started to move

At the old man

's house, out of sight

He Xiaoqi's whole face was black

I accompanied Professor He in the study

not only discussed my article

but also

We chatted a lot about our experience in doing experiments

Two hours later

Dear old man

He sent me out

He also asked me enthusiastically

Zhou Ran

Do you have a boyfriend

...

I know a few young men

with good personalities and talents

I

glanced at He who was sitting on the sofa in the living room

with a somewhat stiff posture

Mother and daughter

My boyfriend

You should also recognize it

His name is Xu Chen

As expected

The old man clapped his hands and laughed

Said to wait until the day we get married

He personally wrapped the red envelope

and said

He also led me to He Xiaoqi

Look at her

Look at you again

If I had such a powerful

granddaughter

I would wake up laughing even in my dreams

There were tears in He Xiaoqi's eyes

But in front of the old man

She dare not lose her temper

I have long heard Xu Chen

say

Why is He Xiaoqi's grandfather serious?

...

...

...

...

...

...

...

...

...

He Xiaoqi is outside

making nonsense

The old people are kept in the dark

The next person to send me out

was Aunt He

She solemnly apologized to me

for her daughter

's recklessness

Xiaoqi was spoiled by us

Please bear with me

It is completely different from

my indulgence when I first entered the house

Of course I am not naive

to the point of thinking that just one visit

He Xiaoqi can be made to give up Xu Chen

But this can make her mother feel wary

Aunt He indulges

her daughter

and will naturally acquiesce in her pursuit of Xu Chen

After all, compared to

He Xiaoqi's boyfriends who are foreign diplomats

Xu Chen is diligent

to advance

and is a family who knows everything

is naturally the best choice

What's more,

Her glittering daughter's opponent

is me who has nothing

...

snatching her boyfriend from a poor student

just grab it

But if

If this poor student is actually a beloved disciple who is valued by her elders

Then she wouldn't dare to be careless

My parents do not have connections in City A, but I didn't intend to value a disciple

Then she wouldn't dare to be careless

My parents do have no connections in City A

But I didn't originally plan to have so many teachers and classmates

...

The day came when everything was dead

I started to make a fuss

In the circle of friends

It was revealed that He Xiaoqi was a mistress

Shameless

The He family has really embarrassed everyone

After all,

is a well-headed

family with dignity

Why take this risk

A few weeks later

I

asked He Xiaoqi again

Xu Chen

's

face

actually

In

everything

I visited her home once

and thought about my future

I smiled

and said nothing

Just thinking in my heart

Aunt He

Did you

chat with Aunt Xu before leaving?

Aunt Xu is dissatisfied with my

prospective daughter-in-law

borrowing her precious daughter to drive people away

Does she really not

mind

Anyway, next time

In addition to Xu Mang's experiment

I'm fine with it

I have increased the frequency of my visits to Xu’s house.

I don’t need any reason. I am now busy with Xu’s experiment and I am also my fiancée. I want to increase the frequency of my visits to Xu’s house. I don’t need a reason.

's

I am now Xu busy experimenting and I am okay

Management Fiancé in

...

The kind of person who harbors evil intentions. The more I act intrusive

her fear of me will increase day by day

Soon after

Auntie's old habit is indeed repeated

She comes up with a new trick and goes to Shanghai to see a doctor

The son has to accompany her

Xu Chen's temper is quite stubborn

He is a typical soft-hearted person

Don't be hard-hearted

The more you want him to do something

the more he will do the opposite to you

If Aunt Xu tells her son without any basis

that his beloved

girlfriend is full of money

, it will arouse her son's rebellious heart

So the trick is nothing more than

Separating me from Xu Chen

Not seeing each other

Maybe our relationship will fade away

Or

If I think Xu Chen has no time to accompany me

She will stand on the side of morality

...

Then it will be logical

Accused me of being disrespectful

I see through it

Don't tell the truth

Actively support Xu Chen to accompany her mother for medical treatment

Even asked

to find out that the uncle of a school girl is a well-known doctor

In exchange for helping her

polish the article

I got an expert number that is hard to buy

Xu Chen repeatedly praised me for my dedication

With my understanding of him

he would naturally

tell his mother the truth

I don’t know how Aunt Xu feels when her son

praises me

...

Anyway

she loves to pretend

I will act with her

A few weeks later

Auntie came back from illness

and invited me again

to visit

I bought fruit snacks

Uncle and aunt are called dear

Nickname

This meal

Guest and host enjoy themselves

After the meal

Aunt Xu came out holding a

jewelry box.

Open it in front of me

Choose one piece from the dazzling array of

gold and jade jewelry

and hand it to me

Take it

Think of it as my gift to you for your engagement

There is a necklace lying in the palm of your hand

Simple and elegant

I subconsciously refused

But the aunt is enthusiastic

Say it lovingly

Don't refuse

Zhou Ran

We are a family

Look

Auntie is really a very decent person

I don't like it so much

I

even gave me a gift

I smiled shyly at aunt

Thank you repeatedly

...

Then I took the time to go to the bathroom

Wrap it up

and put it in the corner of

the mirror cabinet

This evening

As usual, it was Xu Chen who sent me back to

my home

As soon as I arrived at school

my aunt called me and chased me

Xu Chen

Did you see the ring I put in the bathroom

I mentioned it

all night long

and my heart fell steadily at this moment

I shuddered

and looked at it with a smile Xu Chen rubbed his eyebrows

Deal with his mother

You can look for it again

Just at home

Then

be bigger

Outsiders have thrown it away

Xu

but Auntie is completely unaware

No

Awakened

It’s still you who makes trouble with me

Hidden

How about

You ask Zhou

Ran

Finally we have reached this point

I didn't say anything

I just urged Xu Chen to turn around and go home

Help mom find the ring

Then

pick up his mobile phone

dial 110

Xu Chen wants to stop me

...

Talking about trivial matters

No need

But he is driving

Can’t tell the difference

...

Let my heart control me We arrived home with the police officer

Ming Ming Ming

Shaking law enforcement recorder

Aunt Xu's expression when explaining the cause and effect

The situation is very complicated

But what can she accuse me of

After all, I too

just care

In just ten minutes

Xu Chen was in the

gap of the sink

I found the ring

It was at this moment that I

stood in front of

everyone

I took out the jewelry from the depth of the mirror cabinet

and wrapped it

On the packaging

I wrote a few words hastily

Thank you aunt

But I really can't accept it

My

aunt

...

seemed to be choked. Xu Chen sent me back to school again

It was already early morning

I leaned against the car window

feeling drowsy

but couldn't fall asleep

That ring

was hidden by me

When Aunt Xu took out the jewelry box

I leaned against the car window, drowsy but unable to sleep. I hid the ring. When Aunt Xu took out the jewelry box, I leaned against the car window.

...

...

...

...

They all stood up

At that moment when I was giving in a few times

I

was even still dreaming about the items I wanted to decorate.

So when I saw the ring she

placed on the sink

I carefully moved it

into the gap in the cabinet

After all,

the unnecessary sewage

may not be impossible to clean

I bet that the person who framed me saw

the ring was missing

I will subconsciously be ecstatic to think that

my trick is really leaking

Then the items in the jewelry box

will not appear clearly

But

The ring is so easy to find

To

they only need to bend down

At this moment

Xu Chen is also a little embarrassed

He turned away

hesitated

My mother too

Yes

Didn’t even look for it

Just call us and ask us

Ping Bai Dan

Waste our time

Zhou Ran, don’t you mind

Oh

Actually

He

also

understands

...

but he chooses to turn a blind eye

I don’t have any

dissatisfaction

or even

smile

...

more gently

I

doesn’t matter

...

Ji

designed a perfect breakup ending

The day when it was confirmed that he had received a full scholarship

I called some of my close classmates to celebrate.

Everyone toasted to me

Senior sister, you really work too hard

You have lost a lot of weight in the past six months

It makes me feel sad to see you

Hello

Do it

Help us connect in the future

Build a bridge

Some people

mentioned

Xu Chen and often

said he was 24 The filial sister is invincible and eager to learn

The boyfriend

wants to learn. The brother-in-law will deliberately stop and wait for her

to tease her

and keep running

What kind of campus singing competition was there last year

Senior sister

My husband even wrote a song for my senior sister

and sang it to her specially on the stage

The most amazing thing is that the two of them both protected the graduate school

We were almost envious

to death

These sweet past events were mentioned by friends

I smiled softly

but my heart was mourning

Under the interval

two people

in the box

upside down to

see the back

...

I pressed the table and wanted to get up

But the two

people opposite had already started arguing

To be precise,

it was the mother who was

getting angry

She slapped the table

with a strong voice

You are not allowed to go

For a while

I can't talk about going abroad

Going abroad again soon

Changing and changing

You're playing tricks on us

You can no longer be led by that girl Zhou Ran

For a moment

we all fell silent

Everyone quickly exchanged words with each other

changed their eyes

and then forced a joke

They should have the same name

But the next moment

the voice came over again

Xu Chen

You listen to your mother

Mom will not lie to you

With her background

how

could she afford to go abroad

Don’t I just want to stalk you

Marry you

Change my destiny

These words are like a blunt blade

One by one

Prick into the heart

Rub the flesh and blood hard

It hurts my eyes

Red

Xu Chen and I have had so many sweet things that have been witnessed

But he can't compare to his mother's words

Reach the sky in one step

Wishful thinking

Maybe my expression is too scary

The schoolgirl next to me trembles

Comfort my sister, maybe there is some misunderstanding.

Delusion

Maybe my expression is too scary. The school girl next to me is trembling

Comfort me, sister

Maybe there is some misunderstanding. No, there is a misunderstanding.

It’s all arranged by me.

Before going to the banquet.

I sent o

ffer to Xu Chen.

I asked him a little embarrassedly

Can he change his plan

Accompany me to go abroad

After all, this is

What a good school

I will regret it forever if I miss it

...

Xu Chen

How could you refuse me

He patted his chest and said

He would discuss it with

his mother

But this afternoon

he had to take his mother to the

hospital for follow-up

Their itinerary these days

I have

touched it very clearly

After dinner

There is a high probability that it will be in this restaurant

Then

it just happened to happen to my party

It is also very reasonable

In the past

two months

Aunt Xu's dissatisfaction with me

should have accumulated to the top

Today I heard that I will take my son abroad again

I finally couldn't bear it

And this

This is the best time for me to break up

My classmates who witnessed all this

...

will stand by my side

and will also tell everyone they know about my grievance

...

I raised my hand to wipe away the tears

from the corner of my eyes

Then slowly stood up

and smiled at everyone

That

everyone wait for me for five minutes

I'll go and part ways

Just come back

I pushed open the door of the adjacent box

...

Both mother and son froze on the spot

The original plan

I want to cry in front of Xu Chen

But in front of his mother

...

Why should I sink into the dust

The engagement ring

clicked

and fell in the middle of the dining table

Xu Dian

Get up

Listen to your mother

I am calm in the dormitory

In the

dormitory

I am heavy

set

...

...

After all, he is the person I have loved for five years

But

I can’t help it

I really seem to love myself more than I love him

...

Roommates

I've heard about my breakup a long time ago

Everyone carefully coaxed me

Either bought me milk tea

or helped me prepare food

Xu Chen and I had a huge proposal before

...

Now we broke up in such an indecent manner

Face

Many people felt sorry for me

They sent me messages

Ann to me Comfort me

By the way, scold Xu Chen

Why do you look down on us

Talk

It took four or five years to say you don’t look down on us

Are you kidding me?

We Ranran Wen

Soft and hardworking

What is not worthy of

To be honest, I

was a little surprised

that everyone had such a good impression of me

It was at this

...

time that I began to realize

I

seemed

always

take

Qi

forever

worthy

have

sense of security

...

I will never relax

I once thought

it was because I loved Xu Chen so much

I wanted to prove that I was worthy of

him

But these days

gradually peeled off the vague layer of moonlight

on Xu Chen

I suddenly realized

that the person I wanted to be worthy of

was never Xu Chen

It is an imaginary self

that drives me

upward

It is my own ambition

The Seventh Day of Broken Love

The first time I left the dormitory door

I was not surprised to see Xu

Chen at the door

In the past few days

He had sent it countless times on WeChat

and was blocked by me

Later

I borrowed it from a friend

He called me eagerly

However,

I didn’t know how many days he had stayed up at night

His eyes were blue

The

person who talked and laughed so much in the past

no longer knows

him

It’s been a few days of night and the circles under his eyes are blue. Can

...

Let this opportunity go. They pointed at Xu Chen's nose and scolded him.

Now he knows how to repent.

Then when your mother scolded Zhou Ran,

were you dead?

Go live with your mother for the rest of your life.

...

...

...

...

But I just bypassed him

and went straight to inspect the house

...

The data that has been delayed for several days

needs to be sorted out as soon as possible

The way forward

I am really the only one walking

I

do the preparations before the trip step by step

...

I also hear some gossip about Xu Chen

from time to time

I heard that

he

lives in a dormitory recently

Mom came to find

him

The two

had a big quarrel on campus

and

attracted

...

Excuse me

He

Chichi

Assignment

...

Yang Weiqi yo

Your family is from a wealthy family

We are from a small family

Born

A third-generation farmer

I am not worthy to talk to you

On the eve of graduation

I met Xu Chen again

This time he seemed to have lost some weight

He said anxiously

Zhou Ran

I love you

Give me another chance

okay

I

will

tell me to apologize

's

person will give it to you

apologize

I

don't need

After listening

Jue

Xu Chen seemed to have not heard it

Just keep repeating

It's all my

fault

In fact

I am also wrong

If I am smart enough

I can manipulate Xu Chen all my life

and let him always turn towards me

If

I'm stupid enough

I won't see through Xu Chen's mother's contempt for me

Then happily marry love

But I happen to be not smart enough

nor stupid enough

Xu Chen's mother didn't say

me

It is indeed

worth living

...

Already

I smiled at Xu Chen

In fact, you and He Xiaoqi are quite suitable

...

Your mother likes her so much

Why don't you listen to her

Looking at Xu Chen's shocked expression

I shrugged

That's right

I already knew it

You didn't mention it

I didn't mention it either

Xu Chen's pupils were anxious

Drama Shrink

He suddenly blurted out

Why am I me

My mother is my mother

Who does she make decisions for me on everything

Zhou Ran

Aren't you very brave

Can't you be brave for me again

...

You see

people who have lived in a greenhouse since childhood

do not have

self-awareness

nor the courage to solve problems

Things come to pass

The biggest person Xu Chen can do for me

is a person without self-awareness

There is no

courage

...

thing to solve the problem

To this day,

is not waiting for me

Might as well make me the biggest person who can't leave

tightly

Hug me

I know I'm wrong

OK

I really understand

I

I will never let you be wronged again

There is a huge difference in strength

I

can't break free at all

At this moment

a black shadow rushes over

He grabbed Xu Chen by the collar and pulled him back

Another figure

hit him directly on the nose

Xu Chen fell to the ground hard

...

His head was broken and bleeding

He was in an extremely embarrassed state

Several of my classmates protected me

In front

Staring condescendingly at Xu Chen

with a look of disdain

Yo

Isn't this

my senior sister's ex-boyfriend from high society

Sorry

Thoughts

We thought they were gangsters from somewhere

This farce

ended soon

A few of us were sitting in the security room of the school

Listening to the teacher's mediation

Not long after

Xu Chen's parents also rushed over

Hearing that their son had taken all the responsibilities on himself

He might have to be punished

His mother was so angry that she slapped her thigh

Son

Zhou Ranjiu

is deliberately plotting your money

How many times do I have to say it

This was the

first time she came to our house

and she stared at our window in trance while we

were not paying attention

and secretly took photos

She must know

Our curtains are imported velvet

Three thousand yuan per meter

Suddenly

mentioned an old incident

Even I didn’t react

I thought about it

It took me a long time to remember

What did the aunt say

The moment I understood

...

I almost couldn't help but smile bitterly

That day

I did lose my composure for a moment

But what I looked at

was not the curtains of Xu's house

...

but the tall tower outside the window

I don't know why

The sunset that evening was particularly beautiful

The tower is also particularly

moving

Thinking that it was a rainy day when I took my parents to visit

I

couldn't help but quietly took a photo

Share in the past

This scene fell in the eyes of Aunt Xu

...

The surprise in my eyes

She misunderstood

But

even if there was no such thing

she would

find evidence of my

greed from other details

She is so noisy

Come with us to mediate

Several students have different expressions

It’s time to solve this problem

Decide thoroughly

I took out my mobile phone

and pointed it at Xu Chen's mother's face

Aunt

This is the accounting software in my mobile phone

Every

account

is

OK

from

me

every time

during a meal

Every time we

use the restaurant

as a gift

Aunt Xu is full of disbelief

you

Where did you get the money?

Your parents have no money.

My son gave it to you.

This is the

first time.

Xu Chen took the initiative to stand in front of me.

...

...

...

...

...

She

gets the

year

national

award every

She also has a lot of extra money to help her mentor with projects

Out of

country

Major

The

former

student is proud

Someone

...

looks at Xu Chen's lips trembling

Shoulders trembling

The whole portrait is defeated

Mom

You clearly told me

that you suffered a lot

before marrying my dad

After meeting Zhou Ran,

I

really thought

You will also like her

My breathing stopped

for a moment

Xu Chen did say

that he noticed me

because I was particularly

able to

endure hardship

but

I never thought that he

thought

that my personality was like his mother

sight

no

Self-conscious Noah,

aunt

Her

...

face

green

Lifting his bloodshot eyes for Xu Chen

took one last look at his

parents

That's it

Don't worry

I will

never see Zhou Ran again

His voice was a little hoarse

I know

She won't look at me again

I'm not worthy of her

Studying abroad for a PhD

The days

were more difficult than I imagined

In order to save some accommodation fees

The apartment I rented was older than me

Elevator

Always open at

Floor

Night

...

I can't sleep. Things in school are not all smooth sailing

Just arrived in the laboratory

I have been sitting on the bench for two months

Various odd jobs

The ABC in the same group is the one who calls on me the most

During group meetings

Every time I speak

no one answers

Ming It turns out that my speaking is no longer a problem.

I am really tired.

I have also thought about giving up.

But

I have chosen the path I have chosen.

Grit my teeth.

I have to go on.

If I don’t cheer up,

no one will

take responsibility for my life.

Anyway, this is the only path in front of me.

I have worked hard for so long

How can I bear to see myself fail

It seems like I am back in junior high school

During physical education class

...

Eight Hundred Meters

The teacher taught me

I

worked hard

...

How could I bear to watch

myself fail for so long

It seemed

returned to

when

took another six months

to adapt to the high-intensity study

One year later

I have completely integrated

into this campus

The second spring break

I even brought my parents

over

Visited all the surrounding cities

Just like when I took

them to City A

The two of them were wearing their most expensive but

obviously outdated clothes

Standing behind me with pride

What did I say

What did they listen to

My dad touched my head

Asked me why I

got tanned

My mother secretly asked me

Do you have enough money?

It costs more than 100 yuan to eat

noodles abroad

Otherwise, we sold our home

to let you lighten some of the burden

But I just took pictures of them

pointed

far away

...

I far away

walked past that sculpture

We also want to see it

In the third year of going abroad

I heard He Xiaoqi's

News

We actually live in the same city

The circle of Chinese

here is really not big

So my friend knows her current situation very well.

He Xiaoqi married a local white man.

He relied on helping her get the green card. The old couple couldn't stand it anymore

...

...

...

...

...

...

...

took the initiative to use technology

and gave birth to another

pair of twins

He Xiaoqi cried

and also made trouble

But parents just

sigh

In the past, they always thought

that you were their biological child

No matter how willful you are, you have to

carry it around

Now I have figured it out

Your biological child may not be the only one

One

Xiaoqi

Mom and dad have to take care of your younger brothers and sisters

...

In the future

you will pay off the debt you owe

You will be responsible for the troubles you cause

Okay

This is what my friend said

Not too sad

Such a big thing

actually kept it from her

Who wouldn't be aggrieved

Even I have some sympathy

Love

What He Xiaoqi relies on for his extravagant spending

is nothing more than the love of his parents

Doting

But once this love is taken back

she seems to have fallen from the sky

to the ground

There is no chance of recovery

This story

I'll just pretend I've heard it

It didn't leave many ripples in my heart

But I really didn't expect

that one day she and I would meet again

After graduation

​​

I joined a research institution

while independently presiding over the

scientific research project

and also took on some teaching tasks

I made a wish to my classmates

back then

I said I would help them connect

and I didn’t

break my promise

Whenever a student from University A comes to me for help

I know nothing

Say nothing

Say everything

One day

I received a phone call from a stranger

...

I thought it was a parent of the student

I didn’t expect it was He Xiaoqi

She probably knew my contact from a poster somewhere

Method

I asked her politely

if she needed help with anything

She hesitated for a long time

and told me I said I

I'm sorry, I feel so sorry

You

When

Age

Things

I want to apologize to you

Please forgive me

I smiled indifferently

...

It's been too long

I've already forgotten

You too

Forget it

She did cause me a lot of trouble

But this was

too long ago

My indifferent attitude caused

She became more and more sad

But

I broke up you and Xu Chen

I really regret

After breaking up with you, he has been very depressed

Not working

Not making friends

Just staying at home every day

Not talking to

parents

Later, the aunt got angry

and forced him to get married.

He is not noisy either

It's just that when aunt drinks medicine, he drinks it too

Hanging is like

Hanging

Jumping off the building

As soon as aunt stood up, he jumped down

Fortunately

Fortunately, the floor is short

I just lay in bed for a few months

Later, aunt

had no choice

and left it to him

We all felt that

he was waiting for you

To be honest

I don’t think Xu Chen is waiting for me

He just

hates his mother

Some people spend their entire lives

avoiding responsibility

but their hearts must also be filled with indescribable pain

Because every choice

in their lives is made for them

by others

I interrupted He Xiaoqi lightly

If you

think Xu Chen is pitiful

You can marry him

He Xiaoqi coughed

...

Quickly explain

I have never liked Xu Chen me

The reason why I pester him

is all because of the aunt

Because she always said

You are not a good person

You will coax Qi

's voice

gradually became lower

But now

she feels she was wrong

She asked me to make this call

also wanted to ask you

if you can give

Xu Chen another chance

Back then

he really liked you

me

I really can't help but laugh

Is that so

Thank you for her seeing

for me now

But please tell her

Now

it's me

a little

look down on

her

probably

again

joking

real

very curious about He Xiaoqi

...

Xu Chen treats you as a sister

Why do you

To treat him like this

This is the Xu family's own business

She can obviously

stay out of it

This is also the deepest thing in my heart for a long time

...

Confusion

This time

He Xiaoqi hesitated

She struggled for a long time

before she choked up and said

Because

I'm jealous of you

I was stunned

You

Why

She seemed to be broken

She said it in one breath

The day Xu Chen took you home

I hit my leg with a stool

The stool

cracked my

calf

also

Broken

Because I hired someone

to write

Bi

Da

He spent countless

money on me

but I couldn't even get a diploma

Why do I hate you

You appeared in the Xu family during that time

I also hate why you took it easy

I easily got into a school that I could never get into

So I thought

Grab something from your hand

Even if it's love

Telephone

Hang up

I sit there quietly

There seem to be a hundred

emotions rushing in my heart

It's hard to describe my mood

Shocked

Some

Confused

But more

is relief

I always

thought that He Xiaoqi wanted to dominate Xu Chen

but I didn’t expect that

she was just jealous of me

It turns out

that girl with low self-esteem and sensitivity who can't even order food

has something worthy of being jealous

When I

quietly observed her, I also quietly observed

that she was also working hard for gold

Measuring me

The first place I got in the exam

really became my resistance

Inferiority, my cowardice, my restraint, my greatest confidence

Knock on the door

The sound

Interrupted my meditation

It was a student who I had helped.

Office visit

brought me a gift from China

She

smiled shyly

I heard from Teacher Pei

Teacher Zhou also graduated from A

University

So I brought you this model

When you are homesick

...

you can take a look

It’s actually a smaller version of the tall tower in City A

...

Over the years, quite a few of my students were Pei

I’m sorry to recommend them

Although our research directions are different

, we still chat occasionally

I asked a few words about the model

I was a little confused and didn't know what to say

When the student saw me

his expression was complicated

He blushed and wanted to take the thing back

Teacher Zhou

If you don't like it

I'll take it back

No, I don't like it

Huan

Yes I suddenly feel

It doesn’t seem that high anymore

I’m safe

I comforted the student with a few words

and then

placed the

...

model in the cabinet

It

and I

played

bitterly

I

the

...

medal from the past

[Chinese]

我是貧困生

男朋友卻是京市土著

A9 家庭

他又高又帥

對我還很專一

他爸媽也把我捧在手心

認定我是準兒媳

人人

都說我運氣好 只要結個婚就能逆天改命

直到男友的小青梅回國

她睡他的床

穿我們

的情侶衫

然後嬌嬌地說

徐琛

我大姨媽

媽媽

把你的衣服弄髒了

你可不許罵我

要是

把我弄哭了

你賠不起

我男朋友是在大院裡

長大的

一群發小里

何曉琪是唯一的女生

所以大家都寵著她

把她當妹妹

我剛和徐琛

在一起的時候

他就是這樣介紹何曉那個的直 到徐琛的室友問我怎麼嫂子徐琛那個時候他就是這樣介紹何曉的

直 到徐琛的室友問我怎嫂子徐琛那個時候他就是這樣介紹何曉的直

到徐琛的室友問我怎麼 嫂子

徐琛那個時候他就是這樣介紹何曉的直

到徐琛的室友問我怎嫂子徐琛那個時候他就是這樣介紹何曉的直 到

徐琛 的室友問我 怎 嫂子 麼總往我們宿舍跑啊

她一來就纏著徐琛打遊

戲

待到半夜也不走

我們想洗個澡都得避著

她

那會兒我沒往心裡去

還替徐琛解釋

那

是因為何曉琪剛從國外回來

沒什麼朋友

可 是下一次我去宿舍徐琛時真的看見了何曉琪剛從國外回來沒什麼朋友可

是下一次我去宿舍徐琛時

真的看見了何曉琪

琪

她在午睡

躺的是徐琛的床

為了不吵她

一屋子人都輕手輕腳的

研究生宿舍是四人

寢

上床下桌

只要一抬眼

就能看見女孩子

那 粉嫩到吹彈可破的臉頰

我有一瞬間的慌亂

不知道 應該

指責徐琛允許的女生

幾個 人呢

可是徐琛很自然地把我拉過去

週

然你最近怎麼這麼忙

想見你都見不到

這

兩週 我在參加導師組織的一個培訓

每天

早出晚歸

是沒有多少時間勻給徐琛

這就是他總和

何曉琪一起玩

徐琛就听見床上的何琛

就听見床上的何何曉琪一骨碌坐了起來

她

睡得 頭髮蓬亂

迷迷糊糊地說

徐琛

我好像把

你的衣服弄髒了

看見何曉琪手指著的那一塊

殷紅

徐琛眉毛皺起

你睡覺就睡覺

為什麼穿我的衣服

經過我同意了嗎

何曉琪卻根本

沒當

女孩子睡覺

怎麼回事

服

睡皺了多難看啊

看她滿不在乎的樣子

徐琛臉都白了

我素來知道徐琛的脾氣

他生

氣 起來

嘴巴厲害得很

可不管對方是不是

女孩子

怕何曉琪尷尬

我趕緊打圓場

女孩子

來例假是會麻煩一點

你

不要生氣

徐琛擰著

眉

恨恨地強調

可是

周然

這

衣服是你給

我買的

弄髒

了

我

還怎麼

穿

了

一下

這件手停頓

衣

露出貼身穿著的吊帶打底

她拖著長音

罵徐琛

小氣鬼

我賠你一件衣服

可以了吧

何曉琪性子直爽

當即就帶我們去了商場

其實徐琛身高腿長

穿什麼都合身

何曉琪卻

眼光獨到

拉著他試了一件又一件

每件都

挑出 不少毛病

徐琛嘴上抱怨她事多

但試衣間

進出幾次

也還是乖乖照做

我等得無聊

就在店裡走了一圈

在一個無人注意的角落

我伸手去翻衣服的吊牌

標價是3999

那

件我買給徐琛又被何曉琪弄髒的T卹

其 實只值199

我悄悄拉了下徐琛的袖子

太貴了

別讓曉琪破費

徐琛卻狡黠一笑

我就是要讓她長點記性

幾千塊錢的東西

就為了讓她長記性

說買就買

我還想再說些什麼

何曉琪卻喊了我的名字

她嬌嬌地說

週 然姐

我點了奶茶

麻煩你去幫我拿吧

最近

何曉琪很喜歡讓我幫忙

要么是調整裙子繫帶

要么是幫她拿一下手包

但他們兩個

一個試衣

一個點評

好像確實脫不開身

我低低

應了一聲

轉身離開

回來時

只見何曉琪沒

骨頭似的著櫃檯

就這件

打包吧

員

邊 收款

一邊提供情緒價值

女士

您男朋友

好帥啊

我的腳步停了一下

兩手提著的奶茶

突然重得厲害

可我沒有聽到何曉琪的否認

她 只是歪頭衝試衣間喊了一聲

徐

琛

我餓

你

什麼

時候餵

我

啊

其實

我

早就

知道

何曉

後

不等我同意 就興致勃勃地點開了視頻

鏡

頭裡的女孩子向我微笑

明媚嬌憨

陽光灑落

在她臉上

像金箔一般

我有些靦腆

不敢說

話

何曉琪卻一個勁兒地誇我好看

還說如果

徐琛惹我生氣

她替我揍他

我對曉琪

的印像很好

覺得她是那種平易近人的富家女

可是自從她畢業回國

好像有什麼東西在悄

悄發生變化

不管是她有意無意對我的使喚

還是明目張膽對徐琛的糾纏

都讓我覺得不安

這個夜晚

我罕見地失眠了

輾轉反側到天

明

終於得出一個結論

就算徐琛和何曉琪

從小一起長大

就算他們情同兄妹

現在徐琛

有了女朋友

那他們就應該保持距離

之所以

沒有直截了當地告訴徐琛

我介意何曉琪的存

在

一是因為

何曉琪的歷任男友

都是玩

咖

他們在朋友圈裡滑雪跳傘潛水

五湖四海

都看遍了

徐琛這種純純的理工男

肯定不是

她的菜

二是因為徐琛對何曉琪的態度

有什

徐不滿意

該說就說

該罵就罵

完全不當她

是女孩子

比方說我旁敲何

擊

琪 最近在做什麼

大好時光

也不能總纏著你

打遊戲

徐琛就很不耐煩地撇了撇嘴

誰知道

她想做什麼 一會兒說

要 去讀碩士 一會兒

又說

要創業

拿了家裡五十萬開花店

一分錢也

沒賺回來

徐琛的語氣分明帶著不滿

可是他

下一句話

就是

成事不足

有餘

話

？ 似

於對家人的吐槽

大有她千錯萬錯

但我

會給 她兜底的寵溺

如果我質疑他們有超越家人

的情感

他一定會不高興

說不定還會認為我

在無理取鬧

再說了

A 大對他們來說

也幾乎就是另一個家

前幾年流行過給自己做上

學軌跡

我的上學軌跡跨了整個行政區劃

小區

學 一年級在老家山村小學

初中跟父母務工

到沿海城市借讀

第一次高考沒考好

複讀

後才 衝上這所top3 的高校

徐琛的軌跡

卻簡單得可怕

A 大附小

A 大附中

然 後順理成章讀了A 大

而何曉琪

她的爺

爺就是這座高校50 年代的畢業生

後面還留校做了老師

我十多年苦讀才到達的終點

有的

人

一出生就在這裡了

那

我

又

怎能

何曉琪隔絕到我的世界之外

可是

看著

她

天

.

委

忙了整整一個星期

比賽那天

還特意請

室友幫忙參考

化了一個挺精緻的妝

結束後

我和所有工作人員一起吃夜宵慶祝

我和徐

琛每晚都會聊天

但這晚他找我幾次

我都說

忙

挨到十點多

他果然問我要了地址

這麼

晚還不回宿捨

我

哪放心

酒局

不可能因為我一個人就散了

大家同校讀書

自然也拉著徐琛喝了幾杯

氣氛挺正常的

但

送我回宿舍的路上

徐琛卻一臉不高興

走到

一半

才別別扭扭地抗議

你今天怎麼化妝了

我無奈苦笑

為什麼不能化

徐琛更糾結了

可是

你那幾個師兄都盯著你看

尤其是

個 穿灰藍色襯衫的

眼神最不對勁

我笑著打

徐琛的手

別胡說八道

那是我博士後師兄

裴恕

我同你提過的

我們就是朋友正常社交

你

和何曉琪是這樣

我和師兄也是這樣

徐琛的

眉毛皺了一下

他好像是第一次意識到

自己

和何曉琪的關係

遠比我和別的男生更親密

如果我不曾指責他和何曉琪

他又怎能干涉我

聰慧如他

也卡殼了

好半天

徐琛才嘆口

氣

揉了揉我的頭髮

就算我小心眼吧

以後

我們以後和異性朋友見面

都必須告訴對方

不管是何曉琪還是你師兄

都一樣

夜風燥熱

我靠在徐琛肩上

輕輕舒了口氣

在這之後

確實有那麼一段時間

何曉琪來學校找徐琛

他就躲到實驗室或者圖書館

讓她躲不著可不出

話

琪

速 交了個模特兒男友

然後又在朋友圈鬧分手

求助電話半夜打給徐琛

哭得稀裡嘩啦

他也只能立刻出發

同時也不忘向我匯報

她都失

戀了

我也沒辦法

幾次之後

我終於忍不住

跟了過去

然後就看見了何曉琪在酒吧里

穿 著白T 熱褲

和朋友嬉笑

昏暗燈光下

就看見一雙筆直的腿

熠熠生光

徐琛大步走

過去

拎著她的衣領

沒好氣地說

你再胡鬧

我一定跟你爸告狀

何曉琪卻身子一歪

軟

綿綿

地

靠在徐

歪

琛

當著

我的面 徐琛一臉怒容

可是他還是把自己

的外套裹在她腿上

別 喝了

我送你回家

再

有下次

我可不管你了

何曉琪 咯咯笑著答應

一回頭

瞥見了我

她瞇著眼睛沖我笑

我 就說

徐琛怎麼跟我發火

原來

是

因為你

啊

週

燒得

我臉頰發燙

但我沒有跟何曉琪爭論

清

醒的人不應該同喝醉了的人計較

更何況

如 果爭起來

我真的會贏嗎

我沉默地把何曉琪

扶上車

她卻不老實

一路上手舞足蹈

講她和徐琛小時候的趣事

就算徐琛不高興她喝酒

也慢慢被她逗笑了

車子都快開到家

我的男朋友才想起來車上還有一個人

他扭頭看

我

周到

你怎麼說話不說話不知道

我已經說話不知道我已經很睡了我可能不開嘴我說話怎麼

開我

不知道不說話我

可能

是

什麼

開口

夜

這

一頓折騰讓我心力交瘁

我斟酌著問

徐琛

你

覺

不覺得何曉琪有點太粘著

你

了

她

應該

他

卻

自然而然

地

跟

我

爸

去

徐琛生性善良

行為豁達

但凡同門請他

幫忙

他都二話不說

把事情辦得高效又漂亮

讓他放著何曉琪不管

確實

是

為難

他

可是

我幾乎是

控制不住

地去揣測

如果何曉琪

真的

想追

徐 琛 我

又有幾個約會

母

阿姨就常邀我去家裡坐

我這邊挑

選 帶去徐家的水果

徐琛在我身後炫耀

我媽

提前一周就定好了菜餚

做的都是你愛吃的

你這個準兒媳的待遇

可比我這個親兒子好多了

我

的心突然很輕微地跳了一下

我和徐琛

交往四年

叔叔阿姨都很喜歡我

帶我出門時

也會得意地跟朋友介紹

這是

我們 徐琛

媽媽的支持

也許

她會幫我提醒何曉琪的父母

給

女兒

找些

事情做

那

她

就不會纏著徐琛了

用餐完畢

我 和

阿姨在客廳喝茶

我試探著問

阿姨 曉琪總是去徐琛的宿舍找他

有時候會在那裡

睡午覺

您知道嗎

畢竟是男生宿舍

我擔心

同學們風言風語

其實我的理由找得很充分了

但阿姨擺了擺手

笑瞇瞇地說

嗎畢竟是男生宿舍我擔心同學們風言風語其實我的理由找得很

充分了但

阿姨擺了擺手笑瞇瞇

地說 唉

這兩個 孩子

就是長不大

你

不知道吧他們

小時候

就睡

一張 床

呢阿姨

琪

都是照著徐琛起的 就是要他們一輩子不分

離

我木然地聽著

心

一點

一點沉下去

阿姨

卻提醒我

周然

你以後也要多關照曉琪

我

關照

何曉琪

她 這樣的天之驕女

何須

我來

關照

我

勉強

把

我 關照 去

我擔心會影響他的學業

可是

我再一次失

望了

阿姨笑吟吟地說

耽誤 一天兩天

有什麼要緊的

周然

你也別在意

我們家雖然說

不上大富大貴

但也能保你和

徐

琛

一生

衣食

無憂

書不好讀

就不要讀

了 我

下意識

的

時候 市

我們擠在洶

湧人潮裡

聽小販的吆喝

僵硬地擺姿勢

和這座高聳入雲的地標建築合影

二十塊錢一張

的

照片

至今

還

放在我爸媽床頭

但凡家裡來

客

免不了一番炫耀

但徐琛和何曉琪

卻怕

把它看膩了

有

那麼

時刻

意

下限也很高

不像我

除了算得上機靈的

腦子

還有不算難看的外貌

真沒什麼能

拿得出手

的 所以我只能竭盡所能

多讀書

多發點文章

讓自己的履歷好看一點

也讓徐琛

的媽媽更喜歡我一點

而此時此刻

徐琛媽媽

的笑容看起來那麼慈祥

她的提議也是如此

令人 心動

書不好讀

就不要讀了

至於前途

徐琛會為我考慮

我完全相信徐琛對我的感情

可是

我生命中的前二十年

能動用的資源

可以稱之為貧瘠

每向前邁出一步

都必須是

深思熟慮

萬全小心

一旦踏錯

無迴旋餘地

那我又怎麼能把自己的未來

完全託付在徐

琛身上

我早就應該想到

徐琛媽媽喜歡何曉

琪 遠勝於我

那我還能尋求誰的幫助呢

雖然

一直在竭力告訴自己

不要讓煩躁影響我的判

斷

但我是真的有點煩膩

甚至開始考慮

要不要斬斷和徐琛的關係

可是

因為這一點敏

感的小心思就放棄徐琛

我也不過

四年

我們幾乎沒有過架往世

堪稱校園裡的模範恩

証 了

廣泛的情況給唯家棚堪稱校園裡 。

類

拔萃的外表又給了他足夠的自信 我經常默

默觀察他如何待人接物

如何思考問題

然後

悄悄模仿

應用到自己身上

在遇到徐琛之前

我沒有搶過火車票

沒有定過蛋糕

有時候

一緊張

甚至連語言都不太會組織

完全就是

一個很尷尬很放生的狀態

可以說是除了讀

大書

一切都很疏害什麼

東西都很嚴重

但我現在可以從 暑假 生活中 家

和同學聚會

很多人才會說

周然

你氣質

比從前好多啦

提升氣質哪有那麼容易

除非

是有了參照

徐琛就像我的一面鏡子

照亮了

我的敏感自卑和不安

對照著他

我在一點

一點一點

我自己

我不捨得離開徐琛

但如果

不

離開

我

又會

無休止

地

打理

道

它們恐怕是我最擅長的東西了

也許是無

心插柳柳成蔭

我把最近的成果寫成文章

拿給導師看

一向有些嚴肅的小老頭居然眉開眼

笑

他讚許地看著我

周然

好好乾

將來送

你出國讀博

我讓院長給你寫推薦信

這一刻

我聽見了自己胸腔裡傳來猛烈的心跳

就像

一個走在迷霧中的人

突然 看清了前路

是啊

已經從山村走到縣城

又從

省會走到了這座

千

俠

級別的城市

我

為什麼不能走得更遠

而且 遠

後

在心裡下了一個決定 那就試著賭一場吧

贏了

一生安好

輸了

徹底死心

說服徐琛

跟我一起申請學校

幾乎不花什麼力氣

以我

們的學歷背景

拿幾個offer 可謂易

如反掌 但我面臨的困難

比他大得多家裡根本沒錢供我出國所以我必須拿到全獎易 如反掌但我面臨的困難比他大得多

家裡 根本沒錢供我出國

所以我必須拿到全獎為 如反掌

但我面臨的困難 比

他大得多家裡所以我必須拿到全獎

為 了讓自己的個人陳述更有力

我近乎討好地

又從 導師手裡要了幾個任務

然後每天一睜眼

就往 實驗室跑

早上出門

露水都沒散

晚上回

來 整座

宿舍 樓的燈都黑了

我這邊默默做實

驗

攢文章

徐琛也被何曉琪帶著

不樂乎

自行車

看

紅

曉琪

的朋友圈發得太頻繁了 而我只有在每天

清晨醒來才敢給她點贊

因為如果睡前看到

我怕自己會失眠

睡不好

會影響我的實驗進

度

這些無止境的痛苦煎

慢慢在身體裡催

生出一種莫名的憤怒

它們推著我向前走

我

必須在徹底崩潰之前

走得更遠一點

在不知

道 熬過了幾週的夜之後

我把最新的成果彙編

發表

與此同時

也刷到了何曉琪一小時前的

朋友圈

又來發小家裡蹭飯啦

阿姨的手藝還

是十年如一日的超絕

被何曉琪點名誇獎的那

道糖醋小排

每次我去徐家

我 面前

都會把它推

到

我喜歡地告訴我

這個

女孩 情

地關掉手機

拎包準備回宿舍

卻因為低血

糖

膝蓋一軟

重重磕到桌角

額頭破了口子

腳踝更是傳來一陣鑽心的痛

我打了徐琛的

電話

接電話的人卻是他媽媽

阿姨的聲音

一聽 就很高興

周然

你找徐琛 下

他跟曉琪打

遊戲呀

你有什麼重要的事一聽 就很高興周然你找徐琛下他跟曉琪打遊戲呀你有什麼重要的事

平靜的

話

就別想他們

摔跤了

我

下一秒

阿姨

您不用打擾徐琛了

我沒什麼要緊

這並非是妥協

而是交往這些年

我已經足夠了解我的男朋

友

他天性善良

感情充沛

連路邊陌生人

摔倒 都會心生憐憫

更何況是我

等徐琛發覺因

為一局無聊的遊戲

他沒

愧信

在第一時間陪我自己的

手算工具

一定會

他 的

罪惡感

像是 把

一顆心按在碎玻璃上

反复揉搓

但我別無他

法

第二天清晨

徐琛來醫院接我時

眼圈

都是 紅的

周然

你怎麼不早點給我打電話

我笑得很寬容

打了啊

阿姨說

你在陪曉琪打

遊戲

如我所料

我在徐琛眼睛裡看到了內疚

他內疚的後果是

接下來的一個星期

他守在我的宿舍裡

寸步不離

室友們私下打趣

說我運氣好

男朋友帥又有

錢還 對你

服服帖帖

但我知道

這種憐惜之心

總會耗盡

我

必須在它徹底消失之前

達到我想要的目的

所以

我要徐琛帶我去看中醫

醫生給我把脈

問我是不是睡眠

我點頭承認

最近學學

業 比較忙

每天都在實驗室裡待十五六個小時

有時候還會通宵

果然得到了醫生的批評

小姑娘別太勞累了

年紀輕輕就傷了元氣

以 後怎麼辦

男友也得多照顧她

徐琛在旁邊

聽著

一臉心疼

從診室出來

他難得拿出

幾分 強勢

要我別那麼拼

知道你能吃苦

但也要愛惜自己

等我們結了婚

還怕我家養不起

你嗎

我盯著

徐琛

慢慢地

說 我

嚇到

我

怎麼

話

前沒敢說

但現在必須說

我一向知道自己很

能吃苦

這點

徐琛早就說過無數次

我們是

本科同學

在一次志願活動裡認識的

那天烈

日當空

氣溫直逼40 度

但我硬是能穿

著 禮儀旗袍

站在台上

一動不動

整整兩個

小時

後來徐琛才跟我說

他從來沒見過哪個

女孩子這麼不怕吃苦

大概是

人們總是容易

被自己沒有的特質所吸引

我喜歡徐琛的從容

淡定

他驚嘆我的勤懇堅毅

本科四年

我一直穩坐年級第一的寶座

頭天發燒掛水

第二天早八照趕不誤

期末週更是恨不得住在通宵

自習室

有時候徐琛勸我不要這麼拼

可我

總是 微笑不語

徐琛擁有的太多了

哪怕他很

想要 一件東西

也放不下面子去爭搶

但我的人

生

無人托舉

只能靠自己

所以我必須忍受

高溫做兼職

只為賺600 塊錢的補貼

必須拿到專業第一名

包攬國家獎學金和學院

的專項獎學金

所以現在

我也必須拿出無懈

可擊的簡歷

來申請PhD的全額獎學金

我從來沒有對徐琛提過我們之間的差距

他

是沒有意識到

我是巧妙地迴避

但今天

我把心裡話都說出來了

徐琛

你開朗熱情

又有優越的家境

還有成群的好友我真的很怕

如果自己不努力一點

會配不上你

畢竟

除了

讀書

我什麼都不會

了

真心 言

己

才是我通宵實驗的原因 徐琛的表情顯然很

震驚

他摟著我

一遍一遍重複

然然

你怎麼不早點跟我說

可是

我怎麼能早點說

弱

小 的人談起自己的缺點

這叫授人以柄

已經

強大起來的人袒露脆弱

才是雲淡風輕

這次

徹夜長談以後

徐琛好像真的成長了

何曉琪

再叫他

他一概回絕

哪怕週末回家

也要

帶著 我一起

可是

兩家人幾十年的關係到底是

無法斬斷的

幾週後何曉備過週末回家也要帶著我一起可是兩家人幾十年的關係到底是無法斬斷的幾週後何曉備過爸爸

後我很開心地度過了

六十歲 酒店

還算了六十歲的

家令我還算時間給我打電話給我家 非常

南地給我爸爸

的

然

這個場合

我真的沒法帶上你

如果你不

放心

我們可以整夜連視頻

我重重嘆了口氣

小時候我讀過一則故事

說是一個人生氣

想罵人 時

就往樹上釘一根釘子他心情好想誇人

時

就拔下一顆

後來他把釘子全都拔了下來

但是留下的洞卻無法復原了

我固然可以把

自己對徐琛的感情增增減減

但那些讓我難過

徬徨無助的情緒

卻始終不會消失

更何況

釘釘子拔釘子的過程

本身對我也是一種消耗

我在心裡質問自己

周然

你到底在等什麼

等他突然變回從前的樣子嗎

還是等自己

攢夠 了失望

終於有勇氣轉身

對上徐琛擔憂的

目光

我苦笑了一下

把責任攬到自己身上

是我的錯

我應該相信你

但是徐琛

我有點

不敢相信你了

這不是我第一次對我和徐琛的

感情產生懷疑

但卻是我第一次沒有掩飾自己

的真實想法

徐琛感知到了

他明顯慌了

他

張了張嘴

想解釋

又無從說起

能說什麼呢

就在幾天前

他還向我信誓旦

要和何曉

琪 保持距離

他舔了舔嘴唇

輕聲說

以後

我一定會帶上你

我挑了挑眉

已經猜到了

八分

畢竟

長久的陪伴

總是需要師出有名

接下來的幾天

徐琛的小動作有點多

總是偷

偷 聯絡我身邊的朋友

有時候還會默默出神

我翻了翻日曆

果然看到

下周是我們戀愛五

週年的紀念日

徐琛想用婚姻來安我的心

這

一點

我也沒有異議

我裝作一無所知

照常上課泡圖書館

然後在那個下午

被我的幾位

室友來騙去了學校附近的意式餐廳 徐

琛 邀請了

我們的同學

甚至還有兩位老師 央

的投影幕布循環播放我們這些年的合影

徐

琛的面龐從青澀變為穩重

我的笑容也日漸得

體

這是我們共同度過的五年

不只是我

他也有在好好珍惜

在眾人的期待中

徐琛單膝

下跪

深情開口

週然

你願意嫁給我嗎

心

髒 在胸腔裡瘋狂跳動

眼眶酸澀

淚水更是

不受控制 地湧出來

徐琛為我準備的戒指很漂亮

只不過我沒想到

金屬戒圈的觸感如此陌生

不過

慢慢會適應的吧

我想

場子裡的氣

氛 熱鬧起來

我和徐琛手挽手

給每個到場的

朋友敬酒

但他兜裡的手機卻時不時震動幾下録而不捨

我

心中有一些不好的預感

我也

確實看到徐琛藉口離席

他在洗手間接電話

聲音壓低

但沒壓住怒火

何曉琪出車禍

去找醫生找交警啊我為什麼要過去

媽

我今天

跟周然求婚

所有朋友都來了

可是

也不知道電話那邊又說了什麼

徐琛終究還是應了一

聲

那你們等我一會兒

我會去的

他撐著洗

手池

許久都沒有動

穿著白襯衫的後背

也不復從前的筆挺

好像對面的請求

壓得他

喘不過氣

過了幾秒鐘

徐 琛轉身向人群走去

似乎是在找我

我站在走廊拐角

靜靜地看著

他

彷彿只要我不出現

他就永遠不會說

他要在此時離開我

但是

道歉還是來了

徐琛

捉著我的手

小心翼翼地看我神色

曉琪撞人

了

她爸媽都在國外度假

回不來

我們家必

須 去幫忙

說是她知道我們今天大喜

所以趕過來慶祝

然然

你能體諒的吧

她那麼嬌氣

的一個人

我不能眼睜睜看著她受委屈

指甲

深深掐進掌心

方才 的喜悅他全都消失得

無影無踪

我質問徐琛

為什麼總是在我選

更愛他此刻的下一個

時刻

讓

我 更

難過

要

你

我後退一步

目送徐琛小跑離開

好像

在跟過去的五年做道別

一分鐘後

我端著酒

杯

又走進人群裡

然後摟著朋友

拍了更多

更漂亮的照片

心裡越難過

臉上要笑得越燦

爛

無論如何

朋友們是為我而來的

不能讓

她們掃興

我在人群裡周旋了整整五個小時

忙到妥善送走了最後一位客人

我才打開手機

半小時前我抽空給徐琛發消息

問他事情辦

得怎麼樣

但他沒回

我 想了想

動身去了

徐家

因我常去

小區門口的保安並未向徐家

確認

隔著

家門 蘢

的草木

聽到了徐琛憤怒的低吼

何曉琪說

喜歡我

我就得喜歡她

憑什麼

心臟猛地

收緊 了

渾身的血液在微妙的屏息後

加速沖上了

頭頂

就笑不出來了

因為

徐

琛對我始終如一

阿姨

說

試試看

哪怕現在你不喜歡曉琪

試一試

說不定你會喜歡的

就算是看在你何叔叔那

麼疼你的份上

徐琛冷笑一聲

我不可能對不

起 週然

我們談了四年

我要對她負責

一頓

杯盤碗盞摔碎的聲音之後

這一次接話的是徐

琛的爸爸

他慢悠悠地說

兒子

我們不勉強

你

只是請你等幾年再跟周然結婚

僅此而已

你也別怕

咱們家的榮幸

跟你談幾年戀愛

那是她的

這些榮耀對不起句

頭蓋 臉地砸過來

我整個人像被按在冰水裡

其實我一直知道

自己的家境不如徐琛

他父

母 一個從商

一個從政

逢年過節

送禮的人

幾乎要把門檻都踏破了

但我爸媽連高中都沒

讀完

一輩子給人打工

可是

他們靠雙手

賺錢

清清白白

我自己更是有一面牆的獎狀和

證書

第一次登徐家的門

我確實是忐忑的

父母

被看不起 的父母

。 遍一遍地告訴我

他們喜歡我

能考上A

大

都是好孩子

男孩子性子毛躁

有時候吃

飯穿衣

都不留心

周然

以後還得多麻煩你

其實他們從一開始就沒有看上我

允許我們

交往

無非是因為他們的兒子含著金湯匙出生

他的人生

無非就是體驗二字

他可以在我

身上

有一個瞬間

體驗 愛 去

為自己辯駁

可是

就算我能向徐琛自證

慷慨激昂地告訴他

我喜歡他

絕非因為他的

家境

就算他父母對我潑盡髒水

也毀不掉

這份 感情

但我明明一身清白

為什麼

要向他證

明

更 何況

為什麼

這些

話要

由我

來說

徐

祛

睦

從不爭吵

但我怎麼忘了

這其實也說明

他們的三觀是趨同的

徐琛是個乖孩子

爸 爸媽媽說的話

他一定會

聽到 此刻為止

心 裡的最後一絲眷戀

也消散於無形

就好像熱

鬧 喧囂的煙火氣散盡

篝火堆裡的餘燼也在

慢慢 冷卻

我伸手

看了看那顆剛剛戴在手上的

鑽石

眼淚在眼眶裡轉了一圈

終究

沒掉下來

不是不想哭

是我的每一滴眼淚都必須有

用武之地

離開的人可以是我

但離開的原因

不能是我

那些人用我

記得那

家

完美不清的設計我

的

人的了

只

記得在便利商店買了瓶啤酒

坐在馬路邊

啜飲

很想用酒精徹底麻痺自己

但我克制地

只喝了半瓶

我還有太多事情要做

現在必須

保持清醒

我拿出手機

在給徐琛的對話框裡

敲

敲敲打打

訴說我此刻的雀躍

懷念我們

甜美的過去

還

關心

你還真正把你的合照

我

還得

了

有 四個字

我也愛你

愛這個字

說得容易

可是

我早該知道的

窮人家的小孩

連傘都

沒有

愛情這麼昂貴的東西

我怎麼負擔得起

這些天

大概是情場失意

學業上順利得不

可思議

申請的國外高校全都給了

我

off

er

有

兩

所

萬

光

讀 這些郵件

慢慢嘆了一口氣

然後佯裝

一無所知

把好消息告訴徐琛

很快我們就可以在

心儀的高校讀書了

多好啊

不過我又想了一

下

出國花銷太多

即便有獎學金

也很吃力

要不我們還是在國內吧

徐琛臉上一喜

他

摟著我

嘆息一聲

這樣也好

我們都能照顧

家裡

我貼著他

繼續規劃

領證的事情

我們也可以先放一放

等我們博士畢業再說

我

並沒有錯過徐琛眼底一閃而過的如釋重負

你

看

他其實也聽媽媽的話

只不過他沒想好該

怎麼跟我從頭講起

這也不能怪他

溫室裡

長大 的小孩都是很單純的

也總是感恩媽一路

為他遮風擋雨

沒關係

我和徐琛不一樣

我不單純

我有野心

野心被風雨侵襲

會生長

得更加茂密

我噙著一抹笑

心裡卻越發悲涼

徐琛的申請材料撤回了

但我沒有

我反而

申請加入學長的研究項目

整個學院都知道裴

恕的大名

絕不是因為他人好看

而是因為他

不近人情恕

他 在國外

其中

一個女

讀班後 邀請

了

其中一個佩

教師親本

下手

然而大家先後找導師哭訴

拜託換人

說的無非都是

裴師兄聰明得有點可怕

對 數據的要求也匪夷所思地嚴格

從不會手下留情

我主動請纓

恕有點吃驚 我

需要一個原

因

他 皮膚

冷白

眼皮低垂著發

襯得

眸

纓

以

申請我最嚮往那所學校的全額獎學金

裴恕

瞇著眼睛問我

就我所知

你的工作量已經飽 和了

而且

你

的一天也只有24 小時而

已

但我笑得無所畏懼

不過就是放手一搏嘛

為了自己

那拼搏的樣子即便狼狽

又有 什麼

要緊擼

我

整整

一個月

做出了 信含

滿意的數據

也 能再

幫我一個忙嗎

有一個

人

我想拜訪

和我離得有點遠了

但論起來

他是裴恕導師的同門

這位教授姓何

幾天

后

我第一次踏上何曉琪的家門

開門的人也

是她

此前我們的關係雖然尷尬

但至少是表

面平和的

直到何曉琪既然她喜歡徐琛

所

有人 都默契地瞞著我這件事

那我自然是什麼

都不知道

我向何曉琪微笑

還展示了手裡的

禮物

可她顯然很心虛

不僅堵著門不准我進

還一臉傲慢地說

周然撐

你想興師問罪

也不動腦子裡想許

阿姨就在我家隔壁

我一個電話她過來見我一個腰圍

你

不怕

她 見

何 家

媽

幾乎每天都會碰面 此前和徐阿姨接觸多次

我早就熟知了規律

我是故意挑這個時間上

門 的

我佯裝不懂

反問何曉琪在說什麼

她果然越發惱怒

甚至搶過我手裡的花束

重重

摔在地上

就算你讓徐琛罵我不理我

我也是

他妹妹

我們一出生就認識了

你算老幾

這

聲音驚到了家人

何阿姨小跑著走出來

見 女兒

大

斥

拜

我 聲

了

這是對女兒過激行為的默許

我略微低

頭

再抬臉時

已又是滿臉笑容

我是來拜訪

何教授的

如果

阿姨不想讓我進來

那

我就把

禮物留下

不叨擾了

只不過

我

已經約好了時

間

這會兒

他應該在

等我

呢

？

人

居然是我

何曉琪嗤了一聲

不可能

吧

就在這時

二樓緩緩走過來一道清瘦的身影

老人一看到我

就讚不絕口

老趙收的學生

真是越來越出色了

來來

我們到書房裡

何教授滿臉笑容

孫女給我切水果

又讓老人兒

媳泡茶

一時間

所有人都動起來了

在老人

家 看不見的地方

何曉琪整張臉都是黑的

我陪何教授在書房

不僅討論了我的文章

還

聊了很多 做實驗的體會心得

兩小時後

老人親

自 送我出門

還熱情問我

周然

你有男朋友

嗎

我認識幾個小伙子

人品才貌都不錯

我

余光掠過坐在客廳沙發上

姿勢有些僵硬的何

家母女

我男朋友

您應該也認得

他叫徐琛

果然

老人撫掌大笑

說等我們結婚那天

他親自包紅包

說著

還把我牽到何曉琪面前

看看人家

再看看你

我要是有這麼厲害的

孫女

做夢都要笑醒

何曉琪的眼底有淚光

可是當著老人

她不敢發脾氣

我早就听徐琛

說過

何曉琪的爺爺為何嚴肅簡

樸平生

只有 教書育人這個愛好

何曉琪爸媽挺大年齡才

生了女兒

哪怕女兒不愛讀書

爸媽捨不得

責打

都是爺爺管教

所以我篤定

何曉琪在外

面 胡鬧

老人都被蒙在鼓裡

接下來送我出門

的就變成何阿姨了

她鄭重向我道歉

為女兒

的魯莽

曉琪是被我們慣壞了

你多擔待

與

我剛進門時的縱容完全不同

我當然不會天真

到以為僅憑一次拜訪

就能讓何曉琪放棄徐琛

但這可以讓她的媽媽感到警惕

何阿姨縱容

女兒

也自然而然會默許她追徐琛

畢竟比起

何曉琪在國外交的那些玩咖男友

徐琛勤勉上

進

又是知根知底的家庭

自然是上佳選擇

何況

她金光閃閃的女兒的對手

是一無所有

的我

從貧困生手裡搶男友

搶就搶了

但如

果這個貧困生其實是被自家長輩看重的愛徒

那她就不敢不慎重

我的父母確實在A 城沒有人脈但我本來也不打算看重的愛徒

那 她就不敢不慎重

我的父母確實在A 城 沒有人脈

但我本來也不打算

麼 多的老師同學 真到了魚死網破的那一日

我鬧起來

在朋友圈裡

公開何曉琪做小三

沒廉恥

何家可真是把人丟盡了

畢竟

是有頭

有臉的家庭

何必要冒這個風險

幾週後

我

再問起何曉琪

徐琛

的

臉上

居然

在

所 事事

我就拜訪她家一次

就想好了前程

我笑了笑

沒說話

只是在心裡想

何阿姨

臨走 前

有跟徐阿姨聊過天嗎

徐阿姨不滿我這

個準兒媳

借她的寶貝女兒來趕人

她真的不

介意嗎

反正接下來

除了徐忙實驗

我也順理

成章地增加了去徐家的頻率

都不需要的我現在是徐忙實驗我也順理未婚妻的我想要增加了去徐家的頻率都不需要理由

的

我現在是徐忙實驗我也順

理 未婚夫 中

包藏禍心的那一種 我越表現得登堂入室

她對我的恐懼就會與日俱增

不久之後

阿姨果然老毛病犯了

出新招要去上海看病

兒子得陪她一起

徐琛的脾氣挺倔

是典型的吃軟

不吃硬

你越想要他做什麼

他越跟你反著來

如果徐阿姨無憑無據就告訴兒子

他深愛的

女朋友滿眼是錢

反而會激起兒子的逆反之心

所以套路無非就是

讓我和徐琛分開

見不到面

說不定我們的感情就淡了

又或者

假 如我嫌徐琛無暇陪我

她就站在了道德的那一

邊

然後順理成章

指責我目無尊長

我看破

不說破

積極支持徐琛陪媽媽就醫

甚至打聽

到一位學妹的叔叔是頗有名望的醫生

以幫她

潤色文章為交換

要到了千金難買的專家號

徐琛連連誇我盡心

以我對他的了解

他自然

也會如實告知他媽媽

也不知道徐阿姨聽兒子

誇我

心裡是什麼滋味

反正

她愛裝

我就陪她演

幾週後

阿姨病癒回來

又一次邀我

上門

我照樣買了水果點心

叔叔阿姨叫得親

暱稱

這一餐

賓主盡歡

餐後

徐阿姨捧了個

首飾匣子出來

當著我的面打開

從琳瑯滿目

的金玉首飾裡

挑了一件遞給我

拿著吧

就當是我送你們的訂婚禮

手心裡躺著一條項鍊

簡約又大氣

我下意識拒絕

可是阿姨卻熱

情 地說

別推辭

周然

咱們是一家人

你看

阿姨真的是個很體面的人

心裡這麼不喜歡

我

還送我禮物

我向阿姨靦腆一笑

連聲感

謝

然後趁去洗手間的功夫

把它包好

放在

鏡櫃的角落

這天晚上

照例是徐琛送我回

舍

剛到學校

阿姨的電話就追了過來

徐琛

我放洗手間的戒指你看見了嗎

一晚上提起

的心

在此刻穩穩地落了下來

我噙著

笑看 徐琛揉著眉心

應付他媽

你再找找

家裡就

那麼

大點

外人丟過

徐

阿姨卻渾然

不

覺醒 了

還是你跟我鬧

藏起來了

要不

你問問周

然吧

終於還是到了這一步

我什麼都沒說

只是催徐琛掉頭回家

幫媽媽找戒指

然後

拿起 他的手機

撥打110

徐琛是想阻止我

的

說丁點小事

沒必要

但他在開車

分不出

心來管我 我們和警官一起到家

明了明

晃動 的執法記錄儀

徐阿姨解釋前因後果的表

情很複雜

可是她能指責我什麼呢

畢竟我也

只是關心

不過十來分鐘

徐琛就在洗手台的

縫隙 裡

找到了那枚戒指

也就在此時 我

當著

眾人

把鏡櫃深處的首飾拿了出來

包好的

包裝上

匆匆寫著幾個字

謝謝阿姨的心意

但我真的不能收下

我的

姨

卻好像被哽住了一樣 徐琛再次送我回學校

已經是凌晨了

我靠在車窗上

昏昏沉沉

卻怎麼也睡不著著

那枚戒指

是我藏起來的

在徐阿姨拿出首飾盒的時候

我 靠在車窗上昏昏沉沉卻怎麼也睡不著著那枚戒指是我藏起來的在徐阿姨拿出首飾盒的時候我靠在車窗上

昏昏沉沉卻

怎麼 也 睡不著 著

那枚戒指是我藏起來的在徐阿姨拿出首飾

盒的時候我靠在車窗上

都豎起來

了 在幾番推讓的那一分鐘

我

甚至 還在妄想心 飾 的物品

所以看到她

放在洗手台的那枚戒指時

我小心翼翼地把它

挪到了櫃子的縫隙裡

畢竟

莫須有的污水

不一定不能洗清

我賭的就是構陷我的人看到

戒指不見了

會下意識地欣喜若狂地認為

我的馬腳真的漏出來了

那麼首飾盒裡的物品

就沒明出場

可是

戒指就那麼容易被找明

到

他們只需要彎一下腰而已

這會兒

徐琛也有點尷尬了

他別過臉

吞吞吐吐

我媽也

是的

連找都不找

就打電話問我們

平白耽

誤我們時間

周然你不介意吧

哦

其實

他

也

看懂

了

只不過他選擇視而不見

我 沒有任何

不滿

甚至

笑得

更溫柔

我

沒關係

己

設計了一個完美的分手結局

確認自己拿到 全額 獎學金那天

我喊了幾位要好的同門慶祝

大家紛紛給我敬酒

學姐你真的太拼了

這半年你瘦了好多

我看著都心疼

你好好

乾

將來幫我們也牽個線

搭個橋

還有人

提到

了徐琛 經常

說他是24 孝姐無敵好學

男友

學 姊夫會故意停下來等她

逗著她

繼續跑

去年的那個什麼校園歌手大賽

學姐

夫還給學姐寫了首歌

專門在舞台上唱給她聽

最厲害的是兩個人雙雙保研

我們都快羨慕

死 了

這些甜蜜往事被朋友提及

我笑得溫柔

心卻在悲鳴

間隔下

兩個人

包廂裡

倒 以

看到背影

我按著桌子想起身

但對面的

兩個 人已經吵了起來

確切地說

是那個母親在

發火

她拍著桌子

聲色俱厲

不許去

一會

兒說不出國

一會兒又出國

變來變去

耍我們呢

你不能再被周然那個丫頭牽著鼻子走

一時間

我們這人都靜了下來

眾人迅速交了下來眾人

換了 眼神

然後勉強笑話

應該是同名同姓

可是下一刻

那邊聲音又傳了過來

徐琛

你聽媽媽的話

媽媽不會騙你

她那出身

怎麼

可能付得起出國的錢

不就是想死纏爛打

嫁給你

逆天改命

這些話簡直像是鈍刃

一下一下

往心裡扎

狠狠摩擦血肉

疼得我兩眼

發紅

我和徐琛有過這麼多被人見證的甜蜜

卻也抵不過他媽媽一句

一步登天

癡心妄想

大概是我的表情太嚇人了

身邊的學妹顫聲

安慰我姐說不定這是有什麼誤會不

妄想

大概是我的表情太嚇人了身邊的學妹顫聲

安慰我 姐

說不定這是有什麼誤會 不 有誤會

都是我安排的

赴宴之前

我把o

ffer 發給了徐琛

有點不好意思地問他

能不能改變計劃

陪我一起出國

畢竟是這

麼 好的學校

錯過了

我會可惜一輩子

徐琛

怎麼捨得拒絕我

他拍著胸脯說

自己這就和

媽媽商量

只不過今天下午

他又要帶媽媽去

醫院複診

他們這些日子的行程

我都已經

摸得 很清

用晚飯

大概率會在這間餐廳

那麼

剛好撞上我的聚會

也非常合理

最近這

兩個月

徐阿姨對我的不滿

應當已經累積到頂峰

今天聽說我又要帶兒子出國

終於忍無可忍

而這

就是我分手的最佳時機

目睹這一切

的同門

會站在我身邊

也會把我的委屈

告 訴所有他們認識的人

我抬手把眼角的淚痕

拭去

然後慢慢起身

向眾人微笑

那個

大家等我五分鐘

我去分個手

就回來

我推開隔

壁包廂的門

母子兩人都僵在了當場

原本計 劃

是要在徐琛面前掉淚的

可是 當著他媽媽的

面

我何必低到塵埃裡

那枚訂婚戒指

咔噠一聲

落在了餐桌中央

徐甸

起來

聽你媽媽的話說

我在宿舍裡沈著我

在

宿舍

裡 沉甸

定

的

畢竟是我愛了五年的人

可是

沒辦法

比起愛他

我好像真的更愛自己

室友們

早就 聽說我分手的事了

每個都小心翼翼地哄我

不是給我買奶茶

就是幫我打飯

我和徐琛

之前求婚鬧得轟轟烈烈

如今分手得如此不體

面

不少人都替我惋惜

他們給我發消息

安 給我 慰我

順便罵徐琛

憑什麼看不上我們啊

談

了四五年才說看不上

耍人玩嗎

我們 然然溫

柔又努力

哪點配不上

說真的 我

有點驚訝

大家對我的印象居然會這麼好

也就是在這

個

時候我才開始發覺

我

好像

一直

拿

琦

永遠

配得上

有

安全感

永遠不會放鬆心情

我一度以為

這是因為我太愛徐琛了

我想證明自己配得上

他

但這些天

漸漸剝離了徐琛身上那層模糊

的月光

我忽然意識到

我想配得上的

從來都不是徐琛

是一個想像中的自己

驅使我向我向

上 走的

是我自己的野心

失戀第七天

我第一次出宿舍的門

毫不意外地在門口看到了徐

琛

這些日子

他微信發了無數遍

被我拉黑

後

還借朋友的

他急切地喊我

然然

也不知道他這是熬了幾天的夜

眼圈發青

往日那

個談笑風生的人

已經不知道

他

這是熬 了幾天的夜眼圈發青往 能

放過這個機會 她們指著徐琛的鼻子罵他

現在知道懺悔了

那你媽罵週然的時候

你是死了嗎

跟你媽過一輩子去吧

家裡有

幾個臭錢 啊就在這裡顯擺

徐琛臉上的表情像是下一

刻就要哭出來

但我只是繞過他

徑直去實了

驗 屋

耽誤了幾天的數據

要盡快整理出來

前路

真的只有我一個人在走了

我

按部就班

地做行前的準備工作

也時不時聽見一些徐琛

的小道消息

聽說

他

最近住宿舍

媽媽過來找

他

兩人

在校園里大吵

還

引來

了

請問

他

遲遲

交辦

陽 怪氣 呦

您家高門大戶的

我們小家子出

身

三代農民

跟您說話都不配

畢業前夕

我又一次碰到了徐琛

這次他好像又瘦了些

他惶急地說

周然

我愛你

再給我一次機會

好不好

我

會

跟我說道歉

的

人給你

道歉

我

不需要

聽了

絕

徐琛卻恍若未聞

就是不停重複

都是我

的錯

其實

我也有錯

如果我足夠聰明

就可以一輩子拿捏徐琛

讓他總是向著我

如果

我足夠笨

就會看不穿徐琛媽媽對我的輕視

然後開開心心地嫁給愛情

但我恰好不夠聰明

也不夠笨的

徐琛媽媽沒說

我

確實很

值得過

的

已

我向徐琛笑了笑

其實你跟何曉琪挺合適

的

你媽媽那麼喜歡她

你怎麼不聽她的呢

看著徐琛震驚的表情

我聳了聳肩

對啊

我早就知道了

你沒提

我也沒提

徐琛瞳孔急

劇 收縮

他突然脫口而出

憑什麼我是我

我媽是我媽

她憑什麼事都替我做決定

周然

你不是很勇敢嗎

你就不能再替我勇敢一次

嗎

你看

從小到大在溫室生活的人

是沒有

自我意識的

也沒有解決問題的勇氣

事到如

徐琛託能為我不妨轉身做的最大的人

是 沒有自我意識的人

也沒有解決問題

的

勇氣

事

到我今天

不待著我

不妨讓我想不走的最大 人

緊緊

摟住 我

我知道錯了

行不行

真的知道了

我

再也不會讓你受委屈

力氣相差懸殊

我根本

掙脫不了

就在這時

一道黑影猛地衝過來

攥著徐琛的後領往後一拽

又是一道人影

直接打在他的鼻子上

徐琛狠跌坐在地

頭破血流

狼狽無比

我的幾位同門學弟護在我身

前

居高臨下地盯著徐琛

一臉鄙夷

呦

這

不是我師姐那個上流社會的前男友嗎

不好意

思

我們以為是哪裡來的流氓地痞

這場鬧劇

很快結束

我們幾人坐在學校的保衛室

聽老師調停

沒多久

徐琛的爸媽也匆匆趕過來了

聽見兒子把所有責任都攬到自己身上

可能要背處分

氣得他媽直拍大腿

兒子

周然就

是 存心算計你的錢

還要我說多少遍

她第

一次 來咱們家

就盯著我們的窗戶入了神趁我們

不注意

還偷偷拍了照片

她肯定知道

我們的窗簾是進口天鵝絨

三千塊錢一米

突然被

提到一樁陳舊舊事

連我都沒反應過來

想了

好半天才想起來

阿姨說的是什麼

待明白的

瞬間

我幾乎是克制不住地苦笑起來

那天

我確實有片刻的失態

但我看的

並不是徐家

的窗簾

而是窗外的那座高塔

不知為何

那 天傍晚的晚霞特別漂亮

襯托著那座塔也格外

動人

想到我帶爸媽去參觀是個雨天

我

忍不住 悄悄拍了照片

分享過去

這一幕落在徐阿

姨眼中

我眼裡的驚艷

她誤解了

可是

就 算沒有這件事

她也會從其他細節裡

找出我

貪得無厭的證據

她這麼鬧

陪我們過來調停

的幾位同學臉色各異

也是時候把這個問題解

決個徹底

我拿出手機

對準徐琛媽媽的臉

阿姨

這是我手機裡的記賬軟體

每一筆

賬目

都

可以

從

我

每一次

用餐時

我們每一次

用 餐旅

贈

徐阿姨滿臉不信

你

你哪來的錢

你爸媽又沒錢

還不都是我兒子給你的

這是第

一次

徐琛主動站到了我面前

媽

我早就跟你

說過

周然很厲害

讀研三年

她

每年

都拿

國

獎

幫導師做項目也有不少外快申請

出

國

專業

的

前

學生 自得

有人

的目光注視 徐琛嘴唇顫抖

肩膀顫抖

整個人像被打垮了

媽

你明明同我說過

當 年你吃了很多苦

才嫁給了我爸

遇到周然以 後

我

真的以為

你 也會喜歡她

我的呼吸停

滯了一瞬

徐琛確實說過

他注意到我

是因為我特別

能

吃苦

但

我斷然想不到 他

是覺得

我的性格像他的媽媽

視線

不

自覺挪亞，

姨媽

她

的

臉色

青

為徐琛抬起滿是血絲的眼

最後看了一眼他的

爸媽

就這樣吧

你們都放心

我以後

不會再見周然

他的聲音有些沙啞

我知道

她也不會再看我一眼了

是我配不上她

出國讀博

的日子

比我想像的艱辛

為了省一點住宿費

我租來的公寓年紀比我還大

電梯

總在

開 樓

夜

都睡不著覺 學校裡的事情也並非一帆風順

剛到實驗室

我坐了兩個月的冷板凳

各種打雜

同組的ABC 是最愛使喚我的一個

組會討論時

每次我發言

都無人接話

明 明我的口語已經沒有問題了

是真的很累

也想過要不要放棄

可是

自己選的路

咬牙

也要 走下去

要是我不打起精神的話

誰都不會

為我人生負責啊

反正我眼前只有這一條路了

我努力了這麼久

怎麼忍心看著自己失敗

好像回到了初中

體育課時

衝著

八百米

老師教了

我

努力

了

這麼久怎麼忍心看著

自己 失敗

好像

回到

了 時

又花了六個月

適應了高強度的學業

一年以後

我已經完全融入

了這座校園

第二年春假

我什至還把爸媽

接過 來

把周邊城市都玩了一遍

就像當年我帶

他們去A市那樣

兩個人穿著自己最貴但

明顯過時的衣服

一臉驕傲地站在我身後

我說啥

他們聽啥

我爸摸我的頭

說我怎麼

曬黑 了

我媽偷偷問我

錢夠不夠花

國外吃個

面都要一百多

不然我們把老家房子賣了

讓你減輕一點負擔

我卻只是拍照他們

指了指

遠處

我 遠處

走過 那座雕塑

們也要看到

出國第三年

我聽到了何曉琪的

消息

我們居然住在同一座城市裡

此地的華

人圈子確實不大

所以朋友很了解她的近況

何曉琪嫁了個當地白人

對方自恃幫她拿了綠

卡

要她養著他

兩個人都沒正經工作

唯一的收入管道

就是何家父母的接濟

如是幾年

老兩口受不住了

主動借助科技

又生了一

對龍鳳胎

何曉琪哭過

也鬧過

但父母只是

嘆息

以前總想著

你是親生的

再任性也得

兜著

現在想通了

親生的孩子也未必只有你

一個

曉琪啊

爸爸媽媽要照顧你的弟弟妹妹

了

以後

你欠的債自己還

你闖的禍自己扛

吧

朋友說到這裡

不甚唏噓

這麼大的事

居然 瞞著她

換誰不委屈啊

連我也有了幾分同

情

何曉琪漣意揮霍所依仗的

無非是父母的

寵愛

可是這份愛一旦收回

她就好似從天上

落到了地上

再無翻身可能

這個故事

我聽過就當聽過了

沒有在心裡留下多少漣漪

但我確實沒想到

我和她還有重逢的一天

畢業之

​​後

我入職了一所研究機構

一邊獨立主持

科研計畫

也承擔了一些教學任務

當年給學

弟學妹許願

說要為他們牽線搭橋

我也沒有

食言

但凡A大的學生找我幫忙

我知無

不言

言無不盡

有一天

我接到了一個陌生

電話

本以為是學生家長

沒想到是何曉琪

她大概是從哪裡的宣傳海報上知道了我的聯繫

方式

我很客氣地問她

有沒有事情需要幫助

她支吾開半天

地對我說我說我

很對不起我覺得很對不起

你

當

年紀

事

我想跟你道歉

求你原諒

我有點無所謂

地笑了笑

過去太久了

我早都忘了

你也

忘了吧

她確實給我帶來不少困擾

但這已經是

太久遠之前的事情了

我無所謂的態度卻引得

她越發傷心

可是

我拆散了你和徐琛

我真的很後悔

跟你分手以後他一直很消沉

不工作

不交朋友

每天就是悶在家裡

也不跟

爸媽 說話

後來阿姨發火了

逼他結婚

他也不吵不鬧的

只是阿姨喝藥他跟著喝

上吊就跟

著 吊

跳樓

阿姨剛站上去他就跳下去了

幸

虧 樓層矮

只是在床上躺了幾個月

後來阿姨

沒辦法

也由他了

我們都覺得

他是在等你

說實話

我不覺得徐琛在等我

他只是

在恨他的媽媽

有些人終其一生

都在逃避責任

但他們的內心也必定充斥著難以名狀的痛苦

因為他們生命中的每一個抉擇

都是旁人替

他們做的

我輕描淡寫地打斷何曉琪

如果你

覺得徐琛可憐

你可以跟他結婚啊

何曉琪咳

了一聲

趕緊解釋

我從來沒有喜歡徐琛我

之所以 纏著他

全都是阿姨的意思

因為她總說

你來者不善

會哄琪

的聲音

漸 低了下去

可是現在

她覺得自己錯了

她託我打這個電話

也是想問你

能不能再給

徐琛一次機會

當年

他是真的很喜歡你

我

是真的忍不住笑了

這樣嗎

謝謝她現在看得

起 我了

但是 麻煩你轉告她

現在

是我

有點

看不起

她

大概

又

開玩笑

實

很好奇何曉琪

徐琛把你當妹妹

你為什麼

要這樣對他

這是徐家自己的事情

她明明可

以置身事外的

這也是長久以來

我心裡最深

的困惑

這一回

何曉琪猶豫了

她掙扎很久

才哽咽道

因為

我嫉妒你

我愣住了

你

為什麼

她卻好似破罐破摔

一口氣說下去

徐琛領你回家那一天

我凳子拿凳子砸我的腿

凳子

裂了 我

的小腿

也

斷 了

因為我僱人

寫

畢

大

他在我身上砸了無

數的錢

我卻連畢業證都拿不到

我恨你為什

在那段時間出現在徐家

也恨你為什麼輕而

易舉就考上了我永遠考不上的學校

所以我想

從你手裡搶走一點什麼

哪怕是愛情也好

電

話 掛斷了

我靜靜坐在原地

心中好像有一百

種情緒在奔騰叫囂

很難描述我的心情

震驚

有之

困惑有之

但更多的

是釋然

我一直

以為何曉琪是因為想霸佔徐琛

卻沒想到

她只是在嫉妒我

原來

那個自卑敏感連點菜都

不會的女孩也有值得被嫉妒的地方

在我悄

無聲息地觀察她也在他們的時候悄悄觀察到

她也在全力打金

量 我

我考到的第一名

真的成了我抵抗我的

自卑我的怯弱我的拘謹的最大的底氣

敲門

聲響 起

打斷我沉思

是一個我幫過忙的學生來

辦公室拜訪

給我從國內帶了一份禮物

她有

些 靦腆地笑

聽裴老師說

周老師也是A

大畢業的

所以我給您帶了這個模型

您想家

的時候

可以看一看

居然是縮小版的A

市那座高塔

這些年我的相當一部分學生是裴

恕推薦來的

雖然我們的研究方向已經不同

但偶爾還會聊幾句

我挲幾句模型

間 有些恍惚不知道該說什麼

那個學生見我

神色複雜

紅著臉想把東西拿回來

週老師

您不喜歡的話

我就拿回去吧

不不是不喜

歡

是 我突然覺得

它好像沒那麼高了

我安

慰了學生幾句

然後

把

這個

模型擺在了櫃子裡

它

和我

打

苦遊

我

過去

的

獎章

Key Vocabulary

Vocabulary	Meanings
貧困 /pín kùn/ B2	adjective - poor; impoverished noun - poverty
愛情 /ài qíng/ B1	noun - love; romance
嫉妒 /jí dù/ B2	verb - to envy; to be jealous noun - jealousy; envy
父母 /fù mǔ/ A1	noun - parents
努力 /nǔ lì/ B1	verb - to strive; to work hard adjective - diligent; hardworking noun - effort
讀書 /dú shū/ A2	verb - to study; to read
成功 /chéng gōng/ B1	noun - success verb - to succeed
高貴 /gāo guì/ B2	adjective - noble; distinguished
家庭 /jiā tíng/ A2	noun - family
朋友 /péng yǒu/ A1	noun - friend
痛苦 /tòng kǔ/ B1	noun - pain; suffering adjective - painful; agonizing
勇氣 /yǒng qì/ B1	noun - courage; bravery
自卑 /zì bēi/ B2	adjective - inferior; self-abased
分手 /fēn shǒu/ B1	verb - to break up; to separate noun - breakup
出國 /chū guó/ A2	verb - to go abroad
戒指 /jiè zhǐ/ B1	noun - ring