Oh, What a Wretched Man I Am! – English Lyrics

• By: $uicideboy$
• Album: THY KINGDOM COME

Lyrics & Translation

For anyone looking to delve into the raw, unflinching lyrical landscape of contemporary hip-hop, "Oh, What a Wretched Man I Am!" by $uicideboy$ offers a powerful entry point. Through its vivid and intense verses, you can explore expressions of deep despair, the battle with addiction, and existential questioning, all delivered in a distinct blend of punk, trap, and emo rap. The song's directness and emotional weight make it particularly special for understanding how artists convey complex internal struggles through language.

[English]

(You did good, $lick)

(It's a Smash)

Ruby Da Cherry

Ayy

Wake up depressed so I stretch as I yawn

Pulling my shoulder, I reach for the stars

They promised me chains and hoes, and cars

The easiest way to mend a broken heart

Monogamy plain and simple, it's hard

The lust for flesh, I feel like a scar

A sinner at best, I been one from the start

I'm tryna stay sober, keep playing that part

Rushin' to death just to set me apart from all of the rest

No need for best, just not at a desk

This pain ain't fresh, had to let it ferment

You heard what I said but don't know what I meant

I won't explain it over and over and over again (And over again)

But y'all keep complaining over and over and over again

Ayy (Over and over again)

My inner child is nutrition for demons

They feast on my blood, got me feeling anemic

I'm fiending for love 'cause the lust is so fleeting

Opana 40s like an orange, you peel it

Compare it to apples, you might miss the meaning

I tear off my shackles, now I'm fucking leaving

I am my own worst enemy, so self-defeating

I'm honestly lucky that I'm fucking breathing

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Yeah, fuckin' mind won't stop

High in a big house, wishin' I was back in the shed

Been hanging by a thread with a head full of meds

Otherwise it'd probably be lead

Know that I'm fucked, only way I feel love

Is to pay when they say they need bread

I can see it in they eyes, you ain't gotta read minds

Obvious that they want me dead

Momma tryin' to check in and all I could text was

"Pray for me" (Pray for me)

Can't slow down, I don't wanna breakdown

From a nervous breakdown, no

Glock to my chin, I'm screaming

"Get the fuck away from me" (Away from me)

Dad begging me to draw down

I just wanna end it all now

The way that it all played down

I'm questioning what in the fuck did I wish for?

Can't buy happiness with this money

So I went and bought me a pistol

Family asking for Scrim to sign like I don't exist too

Told myself when I die, they gon' cry

They gon' mourn and not even miss you

...

Key Vocabulary

Vocabulary	Meanings
depressed /dɪˈprɛst/ B2	adjective - suffering from or characterized by depression
stretch /strɛtʃ/ A2	verb - straighten or extend one's limbs or body
yawn /jɔːn/ B1	verb - open one's mouth wide and inhale and exhale deeply
shoulder /ˈʃəʊldər/ A2	noun - the part of the human body between the neck and the upper arm
stars /stɑːrz/ A1	noun - a fixed luminous point in the night sky which is a large, remote incandescent body like the sun
promised /ˈprɒmɪst/ A2	verb - assure someone that one will do or provide something
chains /tʃeɪnz/ B1	noun - a series of connected metal rings or links, used for fastening or restraint
hoes /ˈhəʊz/ C1	noun - a prostitute (slang)
cars /kɑːrz/ A1	noun - a road vehicle, typically with four wheels, powered by an internal combustion engine and able to carry a small number of people
easiest /ˈiːziɪst/ A2	adjective - requiring little effort or difficulty
mend /mɛnd/ B1	verb - repair (something that is broken or damaged)
broken /ˈbrəʊkən/ A2	adjective - having been smashed or split into pieces
heart /hɑːrt/ A1	noun - a hollow muscular organ that pumps the blood through the circulatory system
monogamy /məˈnɒɡəmi/ C1	noun - the practice or state of having a sexual relationship with only one partner
lust /lʌst/ B2	noun - very strong sexual desire
flesh /flɛʃ/ B2	noun - the soft part of the body of a person or animal, between the skin and the bones
scar /skɑːr/ B1	noun - a mark left on the skin or within body tissue where a wound, burn, or sore has not healed up completely and in which scar tissue has replaced damaged skin
sinner /ˈsɪnər/ B2	noun - a person who sins
start /stɑːrt/ A1	verb - begin or be reckoning from a particular point in time or space
sober /ˈsəʊbər/ B2	adjective - not affected by alcohol; not drunk

Key Grammar Structures

• They promised me chains and hoes, and cars

  ➔ Parallel Structure/Coordination

  ➔ The use of 'chains, hoes, and cars' demonstrates parallel structure, where each element is a noun functioning similarly in the sentence. The 'and' conjunction coordinates these elements.

• I'm tryna stay sober, keep playing that part

  ➔ Present Continuous for Habitual Action/Gerund as Complement

  ➔ "Tryna" is a colloquial contraction of 'trying to'. The present continuous ('staying', 'playing') is used to describe ongoing efforts or habitual actions. 'Part' functions as the object of 'playing'.

• Rushin' to death just to set me apart from all of the rest

  ➔ Present Participle as Adjective/Purpose Clause

  ➔ "Rushin'" is a colloquial form of 'rushing'. The phrase 'to set me apart' functions as a purpose clause, explaining *why* the speaker is rushing to death.

• I won't explain it over and over and over again

  ➔ Repetition for Emphasis/Modal Verb + Infinitive

  ➔ The repetition of 'over and over and over' emphasizes the speaker's frustration. 'Won't' is a modal verb expressing refusal, followed by the infinitive 'explain'.

• I'm fiending for love 'cause the lust is so fleeting

  ➔ Slang/Informal Language/Adverbial Clause of Reason

  ➔ "Fiending" is slang for intensely craving. 'Cause' is a colloquial contraction of 'because', introducing an adverbial clause of reason explaining why the speaker craves love.