私の思春期へ

• By: BOL4
• Album: Some

Lyrics:

[日本語]

[English]

一時この世から消えたかったの

I wanted to disappear from this world for a while

世界が真っ暗で毎晩泣いていた

The world was so dark, I cried every night

いっそのこと消えれば楽なのかな

Maybe it would be easier if I just disappeared completely

みんなの見つめる視線が怖かった

I was scared of everyone's gazes as they looked at me

美しかった時代がつらくて

The beautiful days felt so painful

愛されていないのが すごく嫌で

Really hated that I wasn't loved

ママもパパもね 見つめてるのに

Even though Mom and Dad were watching me

心は裏腹に遠ざかっていく

My heart was pulling away in the opposite direction

どうして どうして どうして どうして

Why, why, why, why?

...

...

時間が薬という言葉は合っていた

The phrase 'time heals all' was true

日が流れて行くたび良くなっていったの

With each passing day, I started to feel better

でも幸せ過ぎるとまた怖くなる

But if I feel too happy, it becomes scary again

手にした幸せを奪われる気がして

Like I might lose the happiness I've gained

美しかった記憶がつらくて

The beautiful memories hurt so much

どれだけ苦しんでも消えなかった

No matter how much I suffered, I couldn't forget

友達もみんなも見つめてるのに

Even though friends and everyone were watching me

本当の私から遠ざかっていく

I was drifting further away from the real me

それでもいつの日か

But still, someday

光にさえなれる気がして

I felt like I could even become the light

すべての痛み越えたなら

If I could overcome all the pain

輝ける気がしたの

I thought I could shine

諦めたくない

I don't want to give up

眠れない夜を重ねたけど

Even though I had sleepless nights

立ち上がれたなら

If I could stand up again

私を見つけてくれるのかな

Maybe you'll find me

Ah ah ah ah ah

Ah ah ah ah ah

Ah ah ah ah ah

Ah ah ah ah ah

Ah ah ah ah ah

Ah ah ah ah ah

Ah ah ah ah ah

Ah ah ah ah ah

どんなに どんなに悩んだの？

No matter how much I worried

どんなに どんなに悩んだの？

No matter how much I worried

どんなに どんなに どんなに願ったの？

No matter how much I wished, how much I pleaded

...

...

Vocabulary in this song:

Vocabulary	Meanings
消える /ki.e.ru/ B1	verb - to disappear
世界 /se.kai/ A2	noun - world
暗い /kurai/ A2	adjective - dark
怖い /kowai/ A2	adjective - scary
愛 /ai/ A1	noun - love
記憶 /kioku/ B1	noun - memory
痛み /itami/ B1	noun - pain
光 /hikari/ A2	noun - light
友達 /tomodachi/ A1	noun - friend
楽 /raku/ B1	adjective - easy, comfortable
悩む /nayamu/ B1	verb - to worry, to be troubled
輝く /kagayaku/ B2	verb - to shine, to sparkle
立ち上がる /tachiagaru/ B2	verb - to stand up
願う /negau/ B1	verb - to wish, to hope

Grammar:

• 世界が真っ暗で毎晩泣いていた

  ➔ The use of "で" as a conjunction indicating reason or manner

  ➔ "で" connects a noun indicating the cause or manner of an action

• 心は裏腹に遠ざかっていく

  ➔ Use of "に" after "裏腹" to indicate direction or manner

  ➔ "に" marks the direction or manner in which the heart is moving away

• 幸せ過ぎるとまた怖くなる

  ➔ Use of "と" to express condition or consequence

  ➔ "と" indicates that if the condition (being too happy) is met, then the result (becoming scared) occurs

• すべての痛み越えたなら

  ➔ Use of "なら" to indicate a hypothetical or conditional situation

  ➔ "なら" introduces a hypothetical scenario where if all pain is surpassed, then ...

• 立ち上がれたなら

  ➔ Use of "なら" to indicate a hypothetical or conditional scenario

  ➔ "なら" again introduces a conditional scenario—if I can stand up again...

• どんなに悩んだの？

  ➔ Use of "どんなに" to emphasize the degree or extent of something

  ➔ "どんなに" emphasizes the extent or degree of the speaker's concern or effort