チューリップ

• By: indigo la End
• Album: 夜行秘密

Lyrics:

[日本語]

[English]

染まりきった私

I am completely stained

今さら変えられないの

I can't change it now

物語った私

I told a story

後書きへの助走ルート

A runway to the afterword

振りほどいたあなた

You shook me off

蝶がちょっと見え隠れ

A butterfly is barely visible

それだけでも終わりなの

That's enough to be the end

散文的な変わり目

An abrupt turning point

優秀賞なんていらない

I don't need any awards

過去になっていくあなたの

You are becoming a part of the past

置き土産の色が濃くなって

The color of your leftover gift is deepening

ひたすら苦しいよ

It's just painfully hard

さよならがもうどうにもならないなら

If saying goodbye is already unavoidable

せめて私を寒くなさって

At least make me feel warm

あなたが切った夜は

The night you cut

少し大きすぎた

Was a bit too big

雲行きはずっと分かってたけど

I always knew the weather was changing

一縷の光に期待してたの

But I was hoping for a glimmer of light

私馬鹿だからさ

I'm such a fool

まだ願いたいよ

I still want to wish

色を変えたあなた

You who changed colors

壊れきった私を見て

Looked at the broken me

差し出そうとした手を引っ込めた

Withdrew the hand you tried to extend

そう見えたの

That's how it seemed

憂愁に閉ざされてた

I was closed off in melancholy

そんな時に励まされるのも

Even in such times, being encouraged

あなたの記憶だった

Was your memory

苦しいな

It's painful

ああ、苦しいな

Ah, it's painful

終われないって私がいくら喚いたとて

No matter how much I scream that I can't end it

あなたは首を横に振る

You shake your head

冷たくなった光に

To the light that has grown cold

やけに青白くて

It's strangely pale

過去にならなきゃ

If it doesn't become the past

2番目でも構わないって

I wouldn't mind being second

口を開こうとしたけど

I tried to open my mouth

閉じてしまったものは

But what has closed

もう戻らなくて言えない

Can't return and can't be said

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二つに割れた夜に

In the night split in two

移ろうチューリップの香り

The scent of tulips changing

夢を満たして

Filling dreams

涙を誘うよ

It brings tears

私にはもうどうにもできないから

Because I can't do anything anymore

あなたの袖を掴むことくらいしかできない

The only thing I can do is hold onto your sleeve

さよならがもうどうにもならないなら

If saying goodbye is already unavoidable

せめて私を寒くなさって

At least make me feel warm

あなたが切った夜は

The night you cut

少し大きすぎた

Was a bit too big

赤かったふたりは

The two of us who were red

今日で終わって雪に混じりあった

End today and mixed with the snow

あなたの望む色になった

Became the color you desired

ああ、寒いな

Ah, it's cold

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Vocabulary in this song:

Vocabulary	Meanings
私 /わたし/ A1	noun - I, me
変える /かえる/ A2	verb - to change
物語 /ものがたり/ B1	noun - story, tale
助走 /じょそう/ B2	noun - run-up, approach
苦しい /くるしい/ B1	adjective - painful, difficult
記憶 /きおく/ B2	noun - memory
光 /ひかり/ A2	noun - light
色 /いろ/ A1	noun - color
夢 /ゆめ/ A1	noun - dream
涙 /なみだ/ A2	noun - tear
寒い /さむい/ A1	adjective - cold
終わり /おわり/ A2	noun - end
切る /きる/ A2	verb - to cut
青白い /あおじろい/ B2	adjective - pale blue
望む /のぞむ/ B1	verb - to wish, to hope for
混じる /まじる/ B2	verb - to mix

Grammar:

• 今さら変えられないの

  ➔ The phrase uses the grammatical structure for expressing 'can't do' or 'unable to' with a potential form and the negative.

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• 後書きへの助走ルート

  ➔ The phrase uses the particle 'への' indicating direction or target, and the noun phrase '助走ルート' meaning 'start-up route'.

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• 振りほどいたあなた

  ➔ The verb '振りほどいた' is the past tense of '振りほどく', meaning 'to shake off' or 'to break free from'.

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• それだけでも終わりなの

  ➔ The phrase uses 'でも' to mean 'even', emphasizing that 'that alone' is enough to signify 'the end'.

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• 過去にならなきゃ

  ➔ This uses the conditional form 'にならなきゃ', a contracted form of 'ならなければ', meaning 'if (it) doesn't become in the past'.

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• 閉じてしまったものは

  ➔ The verb 'しまった' indicates completion or regret, attached here to '閉じて', the te-form of '閉じる'.

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• あなたの望む色になった

  ➔ The phrase uses '望む' (to wish) as the modifier for '色', and the past tense 'になった' meaning 'became'.

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• 寒いな

  ➔ The sentence uses the ending 'な' to express a casual, reflective or emotional tone of '寒い', meaning 'cold'.

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