F.F.F – Bilingual Lyrics Chinese/English

• By: 周震南 Vin Zhou

Lyrics & Translation

[English]

I think I’m confused

My deepest soul is fading and disappearing

Two people talking

One showed me how to love

Another one told me ‘You gotta kill them’

That’s why people called them

Angel and demon

Good versus evil

I’m afraid to face them

B**** I’m suffering!

That’s what happened

Every night I have been tortured by pain

‘We should try to give people more love’

‘Not my business, F*** off’

‘We don’t have any right to judge’

‘He’s definitely trying to make up a lie for us’

‘I’m good with the quit and strove with none’

‘I’ll be the greatest as f***’

‘I don’t care the money and the fame’

‘I’m gonna buy the fancy clothes drive the fastest cars’

More than 700 days

I’ve been taking a long rest but I feel more tired

Tryna calm but sometimes art’s come from my anger

I believe in Buddha

Always showing love but I know I’m a liar

Tryna control violence in my head

but still wanna kill that motherf*****

Have you ever doubted your faith?

And tryna raise a few questions？

God hath leaden feet, but iron hands

That’s why I’m confused

All I see is a lot of people their own life has been taken

I’m not a Christian but for somehow I’m praying

I’m praying

For everybody

For you

For me

For someone who’s pure and has loyalty

I’m praying cuz I know it

People gotta show their true love forever

Ok I’m done I feel calm

Just wanna ask you something

Things you’ve told me, I found it

But why is that all wrong？

I’m confused

I wonder why the truth is gone

When I need someone to save me

Why don’t you respond?

Now you blame me for I’m losing soul and faith

Tell me what’s the price for being a human I gotta pay

I’m not done yet

I know there’s something beautiful I gotta find it

I don’t believe in destiny

There’s only judge and punish

If I want to kill someone

I can only choose a kind of weapon

Letting them live with guilt is more effective than a sharp blade

I chose to escape and shut myself off

The only remaining kindness is scrutinizing me and protesting

Crouched in the gap by the sofa

Waiting for the countdown

Waiting for the final forced surrender

Facing this sudden pain

I can't accept reality

I seem to be incredibly resistant at this moment

Staring at the broken screen

Projecting my mistakes

After taking a deep breath

I habitually close my fading eyes

Comforting myself

Human nature has its flaws

Weakness I can't shake off

I fall and pick it up again and again

Silently acting

Playing the role of a dejected dog

All my behaviors are childish, like an unhatched cocoon

Unfulfilled promises

I couldn't make it to see the last time

After calculating, isn't it a bit too late to regret?

So, I'm trying to make up for these things

To get used to being yelled at

To get used to being abandoned

To get used to being forgotten

To get used to helplessness

Wanting to protect her

But I'm just a pathetic actor

Yes

I remember it all

What I once chose to forget

I'm now choosing to remember

I'm now opening myself up

I hope you feel sincerity instead of feeling exposed

I once told lies

Trying to hide in those fake words

I once wanted to be pitied

Exaggerating my pain

I once watched the majority being suppressed

I once remained silent like most people after witnessing all of this

I once said no to something I cherished

Said it was harmless

Later, I would also try to stall for a moment

I once made up big lies to make her happy

In the end, I couldn't fulfill them, and she told me, "It's okay, silly."

Once avoided those setbacks

Blamed the mistakes on my dad

Once overly conveyed my anger to my mom

Once watched her cry

Mixed with emotions that were wrongly entrusted

The way they looked at me

From full of love to full of fear

Talking about these mistakes I've made

Tears flow endlessly

I can't undo these

Unrecoverable stories

Every time I wake myself up and warn myself

In the end, it's still like this

Saying some hypocritical excuses

And then feeling ashamed

My God

I can't distinguish my good from my bad

But can you hear these confessions of mine?

The regrets after every loss

This after-the-fact behavior now makes me feel disgusted

I'm ashamed

I truly feel ashamed

Hiding in the corner, not daring to face myself, I'm like a cripple

Wake up wake up wake up and fight

I don't want them to shed tears of sadness for me again

[Chinese]

I think I’m confused

My deepest soul is fading and disappearing

Two people talking

One showed me how to love

Another one told me ‘You gotta kill them’

That’s why people called them

Angel and demon

Good versus evil

I’m afraid to face them

B**** I’m suffering!

That’s what happened

Every night I have been tortured by pain

‘We should try to give people more love’

‘Not my business, F*** off’

‘We don’t have any right to judge’

‘He’s definitely trying to make up a lie for us’

‘I’m good with the quit and strove with none’

‘I’ll be the greatest as f***’

‘I don’t care the money and the fame’

‘I’m gonna buy the fancy clothes drive the fastest cars’

More than 700 days

I’ve been taking a long rest but I feel more tired

Tryna calm but sometimes art’s come from my anger

I believe in Buddha

Always showing love but I know I’m a liar

Tryna control violence in my head

but still wanna kill that motherf*****

Have you ever doubted your faith?

And tryna raise a few questions？

God hath leaden feet, but iron hands

That’s why I’m confused

All I see is a lot of people their own life has been taken

I’m not a Christian but for somehow I’m praying

I’m praying

For everybody

For you

For me

For someone who’s pure and has loyalty

I’m praying cuz I know it

People gotta show their true love forever

Ok I’m done I feel calm

Just wanna ask you something

Things you’ve told me, I found it

But why is that all wrong？

I’m confused

I wonder why the truth is gone

When I need someone to save me

Why don’t you respond?

Now you blame me for I’m losing soul and faith

Tell me what’s the price for being a human I gotta pay

I’m not done yet

I know there’s something beautiful I gotta find it

I don’t believe in destiny

There’s only judge and punish

如果要殺死一個人

只能選擇用一種兇器

讓他帶著愧疚活著會比利刃更加鋒利

選擇逃離將我自己封閉

僅存的善意正審視著我並發出抗議

蜷縮在那沙發邊的縫隙

等待著倒計時

等待著最後被迫放棄

面對這突如其來的痛擊

我無法接受現實

此刻顯得無比抗拒

盯著破碎不堪的螢幕

投影出我做錯的臉

深呼吸以後

習慣性地閉上我沒落的眼

安慰自己

人性有錯落的面

戒不掉的懦弱

我一次又一次墮落地撿

默默地演

演一條落魄的犬

種種行為都幼稚得像是個未破的繭

沒兌現過的言

沒能趕上最後一面

算來算去後悔是否來得太過多了點

所以 我試著去彌補這些事呢

去習慣被人怒吼

去習慣被人棄捨

去習慣被人遺忘

去習慣無能為力

想要保護她

奈何我只是個可悲的戲子

是的

我全部通通記得

曾經選擇忘記的

我現在選擇記得

我現在把我自己剖開

希望你感到赤誠而不是感到赤裸

我曾經講出謊言

試圖躲入那些個假話

我曾經想要得到同情

把多處的痛苦誇大

我曾經眼睜睜的看著多數的人被打壓

我曾經目睹這一切後做多數人做的啞巴

我曾經面對珍視的事說不

說無傷大雅

後來也會想方設法去拖住某一個刹那

我曾經為了讓她開心說出編出的大話

最後沒能兌現她告訴我說 沒事的 傻瓜

曾經逃避那些挫折

把錯誤怪罪給爸爸

曾經把憤怒的情緒過度地帶給了媽媽

曾經看著她痛哭後

被錯付的情緒夾雜

他們看我的眼神

從充滿愛意到充滿了害怕

講到這些犯過的錯

淚流得不止

我無法挽回這一篇篇

無法回頭的故事

每一次叫醒自己告誡自己

最後也如此

講出些偽善的藉口

隨後又感到很無恥

我的神啊

我無法分清我的善偽

但是你能否聽到我的這一句句懺悔

每一次失去後來的反悔

這馬後炮的嘴臉現在讓我感到反胃

很慚愧

我真心感到慚愧

躲在角落不敢面對的我像個殘廢

Wake up wake up wake up and fight

我不想他們再次為了我悲傷而含淚

Key Vocabulary

Vocabulary	Meanings
confused /kənˈfjuːzd/ B1	adjective - unable to think clearly; bewildered
soul /soʊl/ B2	noun - the spiritual or immaterial part of a human being
faith /feɪθ/ B2	noun - complete trust or confidence in something or someone
love /lʌv/ A1	noun - deep affection or strong feeling of attachment verb - to feel deep affection for someone or something
pain /peɪn/ B1	noun - physical suffering or discomfort
violence /ˈvaɪələns/ B2	noun - use of physical force to cause harm
kill /kɪl/ B2	verb - to cause the death of a person or animal
destiny /ˈdɛstɪni/ C1	noun - the events that will necessarily happen to a person or thing
truth /truːθ/ B2	noun - the quality or state of being true
control /kənˈtroʊl/ B2	verb - to exercise restraint or direction over something
靈魂 línghún C1	noun - soul; the spiritual part of a person
信仰 xìnyǎng C2	noun - faith; belief in a religious or philosophical system
痛苦 tòngkǔ B2	noun - pain; suffering
殺死 shāsǐ B2	verb - to kill
善意 shànyì C1	noun - goodwill; benevolent intention
邪惡 xié'è C2	adjective - evil; morally bad
命運 mìngyùn B2	noun - destiny; fate
真相 zhēnxiàng B2	noun - the truth; actual situation
控制 kòngzhì B1	verb - to control
人性 rénxìng C2	noun - human nature; the characteristics of being human

Key Grammar Structures

• I think I’m confused

  ➔ Present simple with 'think'

  ➔ The verb 'think' is used in the present simple to express a current state of mind.

• That’s why people called them Angel and demon

  ➔ Past simple with 'called'

  ➔ The verb 'called' is in the past simple to describe a past action.

• I’ve been taking a long rest but I feel more tired

  ➔ Present perfect continuous with 'have been taking'

  ➔ The present perfect continuous is used to describe an action that started in the past and continues to the present.

• I believe in Buddha

  ➔ Present simple with 'believe'

  ➔ The verb 'believe' is used in the present simple to express a current belief or opinion.

• Have you ever doubted your faith?

  ➔ Present perfect with 'have doubted'

  ➔ The present perfect is used to ask about an experience that may have happened before now.

• I’m praying for everybody

  ➔ Present continuous with 'am praying'

  ➔ The present continuous is used to describe an action happening now.

• Things you’ve told me, I found it

  ➔ Present perfect with 'have told'

  ➔ The present perfect is used to describe an action that happened at an unspecified time before now.

• I wonder why the truth is gone

  ➔ Present simple with 'wonder'

  ➔ The verb 'wonder' is used in the present simple to express curiosity or uncertainty about something.

• I’m not done yet

  ➔ Present simple with 'am'

  ➔ The verb 'am' is used in the present simple to describe a current state or condition.

• 我曾经眼睜睜的看著多數的人被打壓

  ➔ Past tense with 曾经 (yǐjīng)

  ➔ The word '曾经' is used to indicate a past action or experience.