fuilu – English Lyrics

• By: blackbear
• Album: in loving memory

Lyrics & Translation

[English]

I miss you, but I never really knew you at all

Forget you, here's to all the years with no calls

Run through all these thoughts in my mind

Fuck you, I love you at the same time

I love you, but it's fuck you, never really trust you

Another fucking birthday, I ain't heard from you

Tighten up my loose ends, clean the drugs from my head

Wake up feeling sick, I sleep with demons in my bed

Blank stares, blank chairs at every single table

Times we never shared that made me unstable

Wishing you were here because I need you now

You promised me that you would come around, yeah

I miss you, but I never really knew you at all

Forget you, here's to all the years with no calls

Run through all these thoughts in my mind

Fuck you, I love you at the same damn time

Woah-oh

Woah-oh

Fuck you, I love you at the same time

Woah-oh

Woah-oh

Fuck you, I love you at the same damn time

(Love you at the same damn time)

I love you, but it's fuck you, never really come through

Pieces of my heart fallin' apart and comin' unglued

Heard you in a better place, only God could judge you

I love you, but it's fuck you (I love you, but it's fuck you)

Blank stares, blank chairs at every single table

Times we never shared that made me unstable

Wishing you were here because I need you now

You promised me that you would come around, yeah, yeah

I miss you, but I never really knew you at all

Forget you, here's to all the years with no calls

Run through all these thoughts in my mind

Fuck you, I love you at the same damn time

Woah-oh

Woah-oh

Fuck you, I love you at the same time

Woah-oh

Woah-oh

Fuck you, I love you at the same damn time

Erase the parts of me I wish would die

The memories I made when you were alive

Now the only thing that really gets me through

Is knowin' that I'll be a better man than you

And if you wanna know the truth, the truth is

(Instrumental)

I miss you, but I never really knew you at all

Forget you, here's to all the years with no calls

Run through all these thoughts in my mind

Fuck you, I love you at the same damn time

Woah-oh

Woah-oh

Fuck you, I love you at the same damn time

Woah-oh

Woah-oh

Fuck you, I love you at the same time

Key Vocabulary

Vocabulary	Meanings
miss /mɪs/ A1	verb - to feel longing for someone or something
love /lʌv/ A1	noun - deep affection, strong feeling of attachment verb - to feel deep affection for someone
forget /fərˈɡɛt/ A2	verb - to fail to remember
run /rʌn/ A1	verb - to move quickly on foot
mind /maɪnd/ A2	noun - the part of a person that thinks, feels, and remembers
heart /hɑːrt/ A1	noun - the organ that pumps blood; a symbol of love or emotion
truth /truːθ/ A1	noun - the quality of being true; a fact or reality
birthday /ˈbɜːrθ.deɪ/ A2	noun - the anniversary of the day on which a person was born
thoughts /θɔːts/ B1	noun - ideas or opinions produced by thinking
trust /trʌst/ B1	noun - confidence in someone or something’s reliability verb - to rely on someone or something
drugs /drʌɡz/ B2	noun - substances used for medical treatment or recreation, often illegal
demons /ˈdiː.mənz/ B2	noun - evil spirits or figuratively, personal troubles
unstable /ʌnˈsteɪ.bəl/ C1	adjective - not steady; likely to change or collapse
promised /ˈprɒm.ɪst/ B1	verb - to assure someone that one will definitely do something
judge /dʒʌdʒ/ B2	verb - to form an opinion or conclusion about noun - a public official who decides questions in a court of law
erase /ɪˈreɪz/ B2	verb - to remove or delete something completely
memories /ˈmem.ər.iz/ B2	noun - the mental capacity or act of recalling past experiences
sleep /sliːp/ A2	verb - to rest with the eyes closed and the mind inactive noun - the condition of being asleep

Key Grammar Structures

• I miss you, but I never really knew you at all

  ➔ Contrast with 'but' + Past Simple for States

  ➔ Uses "but" to show emotional conflict between present feelings ("miss") and past reality ("knew"). "Knew" is Past Simple for permanent past states.

• Fuck you, I love you at the same time

  ➔ Imperative Mood + Simultaneity Phrase

  ➔ "Fuck you" is a rude imperative expressing anger. "At the same time" shows conflicting emotions occurring simultaneously.

• Tighten up my loose ends, clean the drugs from my head

  ➔ Elliptical Imperatives + Phrasal Verb

  ➔ Omits subject "I" in commands. "Tighten up" is a phrasal verb meaning to organize. "Clean...from" shows removal.

• Wake up feeling sick, I sleep with demons in my bed

  ➔ Present Participle Phrase + Simple Present Habit

  ➔ "Feeling sick" describes the subject during "wake up". "Sleep" is Simple Present for recurring struggles.

• Wishing you were here because I need you now

  ➔ Subjunctive Mood + Present Real Need

  ➔ "Were" (not was) shows unreal subjunctive after "wishing". "Need" is Simple Present for current reality.

• You promised me that you would come around

  ➔ Reported Speech (Future-in-the-Past)

  ➔ "Would" indicates a future promise made in the past (reported speech structure). "Come around" is a phrasal verb meaning visit.

• Erase the parts of me I wish would die

  ➔ Defining Relative Clause + Subjunctive Wish

  ➔ Omits "that" in relative clause "(that) I wish would die". "Wish would" expresses unreal desire about self.

• Is knowin' that I'll be a better man than you

  ➔ Gerund Subject + Future Comparative

  ➔ "Knowin'" (knowing) is gerund acting as subject. "I'll be" shows future comparison with "than you".