Xanandra – Bilingual Lyrics Spanish/English

• By: Mägo de Oz

Lyrics & Translation

[Spanish]

[English]

Ahora que me he quedado solo

Now that I'm alone

Que me queda poco de ti

And little of you remains

Solamente la culpa y un futuro que yo vendí

Only the guilt and a future I sold

Ahora que se ha acabado todo

Now that everything is over

Casi antes de comenzar

Almost before it began

Voy buscando algunas respuestas

I'm searching for some answers

Pues no paro de preguntar

Because I can't stop asking

¿Quién prescribe las pócimas de amor?

Who prescribes the love potions?

Pa' curarme de mí y lo que soy

To heal me from myself and what I am

¿Quién receta sonrisas por perder y dejar ir?

Who scripts smiles for losing and letting go?

Lo único que yo amé

The only thing I loved

Y a pesar de que no estás

And even though you're not here

Te llevo cosida a mi piel

I carry you stitched into my skin

Tu recuerdo se ha instalado en mí a vivir

Your memory has settled in me to live

Y aunque nunca volverás

And even though you'll never return

Busco en el trastero de mí

I look in my own closet

Ese beso abandonado que nunca te di

For that abandoned kiss I never gave you

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Ahora que vivo en el olvido

Now that I live in oblivion

Ahora que vivo en el ayer

Now that I live in the past

Que mi corazón se ha partido en miles de trocitos de ti

My heart has broken into a thousand pieces of you

¿Dónde esta la sonrisa que olvidé?

Where is the smile I forgot?

Solo queda la mueca que inventé

Only the grimace I invented remains

¿Quién derriba los muros que hace tiempo levante?

Who demolishes the walls I built long ago?

Para esconderme de mí

To hide from myself

Y a pesar de que no estás

And even though you're not here

Te llevo cosida a mi piel

I carry you stitched into my skin

Tu recuerdo se ha instalado en mí a vivir

Your memory has settled in me to live

Y aunque nunca volverás

And even though you'll never return

Busco en el trastero de mí

I look in my own closet

Ese beso abandonado que nunca te di

For that abandoned kiss I never gave you

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¿Quién prescribe las pócimas de amor?

Who prescribes the love potions?

Pa' curarme de mí y lo que soy

To heal me from myself and what I am

¿Quién receta sonrisas por perder y dejar ir?

Who scripts smiles for losing and letting go?

Lo único que yo amé

The only thing I loved

Y a pesar de que no estás

And even though you're not here

Te llevo cosida a mi piel

I carry you stitched into my skin

Tu recuerdo se ha instalado en mí a vivir

Your memory has settled in me to live

Y aunque nunca volverás

And even though you'll never return

Busco en el trastero de mí

I look in my own closet

Ese beso abandonado que nunca te di

For that abandoned kiss I never gave you

Y a pesar de que no estás

And even though you're not here

Te llevo cosida a mi piel

I carry you stitched into my skin

Tu recuerdo se ha instalado en mí a vivir

Your memory has settled in me to live

Y aunque nunca volverás

And even though you'll never return

Busco en el trastero de mí

I look in my own closet

Ese beso abandonado que nunca te di

For that abandoned kiss I never gave you

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Key Vocabulary

Vocabulary	Meanings
culpa /ˈkulpa/ B1	noun - guilt or responsibility for a fault or wrong
futuro /fuˈtuɾo/ B1	noun - future, the time yet to come
respuesta /resˈpues.ta/ B1	noun - answer, reply
preguntar /pɾeɣunˈtaɾ/ B2	verb - to ask, inquire
curar /kuˈɾaɾ/ B2	verb - to heal, cure
receta /reˈθeta/ (Spain), /reˈseta/ (Latin America) B1	noun - recipe, prescription
sonrisa /sonˈɾisa/ A2	noun - smile
perder /perˈðeɾ/ B1	verb - to lose
abandonado /a.bãn.doˈnaðo/ B2	adjective - abandoned, deserted
beso /ˈbesto/ A2	noun - kiss
recuerdo /reˈkweɾðo/ B1	noun - memory, reminder
vivir /biˈβiɾ/ B2	verb - to live
partir /parˈtiɾ/ B1	verb - to leave, to split

Key Grammar Structures

• Ahora que me he quedado solo

  ➔ Subjunctive mood in subordinate clauses introduced by "ahora que"

  ➔ "Ahora que" (now that) expresses a cause or reason. When used in the present and referring to a state that results *from* the cause, the subjunctive is used. The speaker is emphasizing the *consequence* of being alone. The use of “me he quedado” reflects a change of state.

• Solamente la culpa y un futuro que yo vendí

  ➔ Relative clause with the subjunctive mood ("que yo vendí") to express uncertainty or a hypothetical situation.

  ➔ The subjunctive after "que" in a relative clause is used because the future is something the speaker feels they "sold" off, implying it's no longer a concrete reality. There's a sense of loss and irretrievability associated with it. The selling is a *hypothetical* or *unfulfilled* action, making subjunctive suitable here. The speaker is not just stating a fact, but also expressing a feeling about the future.

• ¿Quién prescribe las pócimas de amor?

  ➔ Interrogative sentence with inverted subject-verb order.

  ➔ The question is formed by inverting the subject and verb. "Quién" (who) acts as the subject, but in questions, it typically precedes the verb "prescribe" (prescribes). This is a standard way to form questions in Spanish.

• Pa' curarme de mí y lo que soy

  ➔ Use of "para" (shortened to "pa'") + infinitive to express purpose.

  ➔ "Pa'" is a colloquial shortening of "para", which when followed by an infinitive, expresses the purpose of an action. Here, the purpose is "curarme" (to cure myself).

• Te llevo cosida a mi piel

  ➔ Use of reflexive pronoun "te" (you) and the verb "llevar" (to carry) + participle ("cosida") to express a deeply ingrained feeling.

  ➔ This is a figurative expression meaning “I carry you sewn to my skin”. "Llevar cosida" is a strong way of saying that the person is permanently with the speaker, like a part of them. The "te" refers back to the person being remembered. The image of being sewn to the skin implies deep and inseparable connection.

• Tu recuerdo se ha instalado en mí a vivir

  ➔ Periphrastic verb construction: "se ha instalado a vivir". The verb "instalarse" (to settle in) + "a" + infinitive ("vivir") indicates a permanent action.

  ➔ "Se ha instalado a vivir" means something has settled permanently to live. The addition of "a vivir" after "se ha instalado" emphasizes the ongoing and permanent nature of the memory. It's not just a short visit; it's moved in for good.

• Y aunque nunca volverás

  ➔ Use of "aunque" (although) + future subjunctive ("volverás").

  ➔ Even though the simple future (volverás) is used, "aunque" introduces a condition that could potentially influence the main clause of the sentence, leaning toward the future subjunctive (correctly, the imperfect subjunctive would be more usual, but the simple future is sometimes used informally). It is assumed that *despite* the fact that she will never return, the action in the main clause still happens.

• Busco en el trastero de mí

  ➔ Use of "de mí" instead of "en mí" to emphasize a deeper, more personal search.

  ➔ While "en mí" (in me) would be grammatically correct, using "de mí" (of me) suggests the speaker is not just searching *within* themselves but is rummaging through the *belongings* of their inner self, as if it's a storage room ("trastero"). It suggests a more detached and thorough examination.