絵画 – Bilingual Lyrics Japanese/English

• By: 大森元貴

Lyrics & Translation

Dive into the poignant world of 大森元貴's '絵画' (Kaiga), a beautifully crafted song that offers a raw glimpse into the artist's deepest emotions. Learning Japanese through this track can deepen your understanding of nuanced expressions of vulnerability and self-acceptance. Its lyrical depth and evocative imagery provide a rich context for exploring themes of loneliness, identity, and the desire to be seen for one's true self, making it a special piece for language learners to connect with on a profound level.

[English]

Make me tremble

It comes

Drive me mad

Discard me

With hardship

Wings

Make them flap

They tear off

Pluck them off

Alluringly

A bell

Rings through the city

Cruelly again

Like a cleansing ritual

As if washing clean

If it's a dream, it's time to wake up

I've grown used to loneliness

Ah, I told another lie

So no one will find out

"Hold me," I pleaded

So it won't spill out

In the swirling mess of my scattered thoughts

Me, about to be consumed

I want you to love me until the very end

Even if I can't be a painting worthy of display

With colors only I possess

I want you to paint me

At least just for me

Please paint me

Make me tremble

It comes

Drive me mad

Discard me

On the page

Flowers

Even blooming

Fall without knowing

Feminine

So no one will find out

Make me sad

Please make me happy

In the sea of scattered ideals

Me, about to drown

I want you to cast me aside until the very end

It reflects brightly

Though scratches are visible on the lens

For reasons only I possess

I want you to cling to me

At least just for me

Please sing for me

Blaming someone else

By blaming someone else

If I could live

It would be so much easier, wouldn't it?

By agonizing uniqueness and gloom

I was consumed

I want you to walk along my shore

To an extent I can't show

In this sloppy today and tomorrow

I want you to paint with colors only I possess

At least in your room

I want you to display that painting

Emptiness remains

Swimming in my veins

Dancing in a loop of anxiety

Forgive me

The bell tolls again

Lingering in the cold room

My shadow

Will you search for it?

I want you to paint with colors only I possess

[Japanese]

震わせて

来る

狂わせて

捨てる

難儀に

羽

羽ばたかせ

千切れる

捥ぐ

艶美に

鐘

響くは街に

また残酷に

禊の様に

洗う様に

夢なら覚める頃

孤独にも慣れた

あぁ また嘘をついた

誰にもバレないように

抱きしめてと

洩れないように

散らかった思考の渦に

呑まれそうな私を

最期まで愛してほしい

飾られる様な絵画にはなれなくても

私にしか無い色で

描いてほしい

せめて私のためだけに

描いてほしい

震わせて

来る

狂わせて

捨てる

ページに

花

咲くことも

知らずに散る

フェミニン

誰にもバレないように

悲しませて

歓ばせてよ

散らばった理想の海に

溺れる様な私を

最期までポイして欲しい

鮮やかに映す

レンズには傷が目立つけど

私にしか無い理由で

縋っていて欲しい

せめて私のためだけに

歌っていて欲しい

誰かのせいに

誰かのせいにして

生きてゆけたら

楽なんだろうな

辛かった非凡と鬱に

呑まれていた

私の海岸を歩いてほしい

見せられぬ程

だらしない今日に明日に

私にしか無い色で描いてほしい

せめて貴方の部屋に

その絵画を飾ってほしい

虚しさが残る

血管を泳ぐ

不安のループに踊る

私を許して

また鐘が鳴る

冷えた部屋に残る

私の影を

貴方は探してくれる？

私にしか無い色で描いてほしい

Key Vocabulary

Vocabulary	Meanings
震わせて /furuwasete/ B2	verb - to make shake or tremble
狂わせて /kuruwasete/ B2	verb - to make crazy or insane
捨てる /suteru/ A2	verb - to throw away, to abandon
羽 /hane/ A2	noun - wing
羽ばたかせ /habatakase/ B1	verb - to let fly or flap wings
千切れる /chigireru/ B2	verb - to be torn apart
艶美 /tsenbi/ C1	adjective - glossy, gorgeous
鐘 /kane/ A2	noun - bell
響く /hibiku/ A2	verb - to resonate, to sound
残酷 /zankoku/ B2	adjective - cruel
洗う /arau/ A2	verb - to wash
夢 /yume/ A2	noun - dream
孤独 /kodoku/ B2	noun - loneliness, solitude
嘘 /uso/ A1	noun - lie, falsehood
絵画 /kaiga/ B2	noun - painting, picture
色 /iro/ A2	noun - color

Key Grammar Structures

• 誰にもバレないように

  ➔ Potential negative + ように (you ni) for purpose

  ➔ The structure 「バレないように」 combines the potential negative form of バレる (bareru, to be found out) with ように to express purpose: "so that no one will find out". The ように particle indicates the purpose or manner of an action.

• 絵画にはなれなくても

  ➔ Potential form + ても (temo) for concession

  ➔ The structure 「なれなくても」 combines the potential negative form of なる (naru, to become) with ても to express concession: "even if I cannot become". The ても particle means "even if/although" and introduces a concessive clause.

• 私にしか無い色で

  ➔ しか + negative for emphasis "only"

  ➔ The structure 「私にしか無い」 uses しか with the negative form of ある (aru, to exist) to emphasize exclusivity: "only I have" or "that only exists in me". The pattern 「Xしか～ない」 means "only X" or "nothing but X".

• せめて私のためだけに

  ➔ だけ (dake) for limitation "only"

  ➔ The structure 「私のためだけに」 uses the particle だけ to express limitation: "only for my sake". The particle だけ indicates restriction or limitation, similar to "only" or "just" in English.

• 知らずに散る

  ➔ ずに (zu ni) form for "without doing"

  ➔ The structure 「知らずに」 is the negative form of 知る (shiru, to know) using the ずに construction, meaning "without knowing". The ずに form connects two actions, indicating that the first action is not performed before the second one.

• 溺れる様な私を

  ➔ ような (yō na) for similarity "like/as if"

  ➔ The structure 「溺れる様な」 uses the auxiliary 様な (yō na) after the verb 溺れる (oboreru, to drown) to express similarity or comparison: "like drowning" or "as if drowning". The 様な pattern is used to make comparisons or describe how something appears.

• 生きてゆけたら 楽なんだろうな

  ➔ Conditional たら (tara) + speculation だろうな (darō na)

  ➔ The structure combines the conditional form たら with the speculative expression だろうな. 「生きてゆけたら」 means "if I could live on" and 「楽なんだろうな」 expresses speculation "it would probably be easier, I suppose". The combination creates a hypothetical statement with personal reflection.

• 見せられぬ程

  ➔ Potential negative + 程 (hodo) for degree/extent

  ➔ The structure 「見せられぬ程」 combines the potential negative form of 見せる (miseru, to show) with 程 to indicate degree or extent: "to the extent that I cannot show". The particle 程 means "to the extent that" and is used to emphasize the degree of something.

• 描いてほしい

  ➔ Te-form + ほしい (hoshii) for desire "want someone to do"

  ➔ The structure 「描いてほしい」 combines the te-form of 描く (kaku, to draw) with ほしい to express a desire for someone else to do something: "I want you to draw". The pattern [verb in te-form] + ほしい is used to express the speaker's wish that someone else perform the action.