初夏

• By: Ado

Lyrics:

[日本語]

[English]

死にたい死にたいって縋ってたって何にも意味ないな

Even if I cling to the thought of wanting to die, it means nothing.

僕は知らないんだ 形あるもの全てに終わりが来ること。

I don't know that everything tangible has an end.

最底、酩酊で、ありのままの、無茶苦茶な歌詞では

At the very bottom, in a drunken state, with these chaotic lyrics,

救えない命がいくつもある

there are countless lives that cannot be saved.

傷つけて、傷つけて 報われようとしているのか？

Am I trying to be rewarded by hurting and being hurt?

「幸せになれる……！」とか？笑

"You can be happy...!" or something? (laughs)

初夏の風にまたや酔わされて

Once again, I'm intoxicated by the early summer breeze.

自惚れた自我を歌ってしまう

I end up singing about my conceited self.

正しい答えがわからない、だから

I don't know the right answer, so,

教えて

please tell me.

教えて！

Tell me!

好きだった言葉は壊されてしまいました

The words I loved have been broken.

いつか報われると信じていたのに

I believed that someday I would be rewarded.

積み上げたこの声はこの世界の不正解だ

This voice I've built up is the wrong answer in this world.

「何も知らないその顔が嫌い。」

"I hate that face that knows nothing."

何十回何百何千回だって

No matter how many times, dozens, hundreds, thousands,

死にたいんだ

I want to die.

僕は僕は、僕は馬鹿だった 水溜る箱庭

I was a fool, a little garden with puddles.

傷口を塞ぐために また自慰を繰り返す

To close the wounds, I repeat the act of self-pleasure.

呆れた横顔

Astonished profile.

夜明け前の夢より綺麗な言葉を並べても

Even if I line up beautiful words more lovely than dreams before dawn,

美しく枯れる都会の花火

the beautiful fireworks of the city wither.

そこに僕はいない 後の祭

I'm not there; it's a festival after the fact.

言えなかった言葉が 溢れ出して止まらないな

The words I couldn't say overflow and won't stop.

望みを叶えても 変わりゃしなくて

Even if my wishes come true, nothing changes.

いつの日にか交わした約束は忘れられて

The promise we made someday has been forgotten.

引き止められず、ここには1人

Unable to be held back, I'm here alone.

何千回何万何億回だって

No matter how many times, thousands, tens of thousands, billions,

殺してくれないか

won't you kill me?

倫理が道理を作るのなら

If ethics creates reason,

嗄れたこの声は正義なの？

is this hoarse voice justice?

正しさが常に優しさになるなら

If correctness always becomes kindness,

教えて

please tell me.

教えて

Tell me.

教えて

Teach me.

答えて！

Answer me!

好きだったあの人はもう僕を救わないな

That person I loved will no longer save me.

いつか報われると信じていたのに

I believed that someday I would be rewarded.

いつの日にか描いた未来はとうに過去になって

The future I once envisioned has long become the past.

「何も知らない」だから、ここで歌う

"I know nothing," so I sing here.

何十回何百何千回だって

No matter how many times, dozens, hundreds, thousands,

息をしては

I breathe,

何千回何万何億回だって

no matter how many times, thousands, tens of thousands, billions,

叫んだんだ

I shouted.

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Vocabulary in this song:

Vocabulary	Meanings
死にたい /ʃinitai/ B1	adjective - wanting to die
意味 /imi/ A2	noun - meaning, significance
終わり /owari/ A2	noun - end, finish
救う /sukuu/ B2	verb - to save, to rescue
命 /inochi/ A2	noun - life
傷つける /kizutsukeru/ B2	verb - to hurt, to wound
幸せ /shiawase/ A2	adjective - happy, fortunate
風 /kaze/ A1	noun - wind
自我 /jiga/ B2	noun - ego, self
言葉 /kotoba/ A1	noun - word, language
声 /koe/ A1	noun - voice
顔 /kao/ A1	noun - face
夢 /jume/ A2	noun - dream
花火 /hanabi/ A2	noun - fireworks
未来 /mirai/ A2	noun - future
正義 /seigi/ B2	noun - justice

Grammar:

• 死にたい死にたいって縋ってたって何にも意味ないな

  ➔ て form (te-form) for connecting clauses

  ➔ The phrase uses the te-form of the verb to connect thoughts, indicating a continuation of ideas.

• 僕は知らないんだ 形あるもの全てに終わりが来ること。

  ➔ こと (koto) to nominalize a verb

  ➔ The use of こと turns the action of 'coming to an end' into a noun phrase, allowing for discussion about it.

• 傷つけて、傷つけて 報われようとしているのか？

  ➔ ようとしている (you to shite iru) to indicate an attempt

  ➔ This structure indicates that the subject is trying to do something, in this case, to be rewarded.

• 好きだった言葉は壊されてしまいました

  ➔ てしまう (te shimau) to express regret or completion

  ➔ This phrase indicates that the beloved words have been broken, expressing a sense of loss.

• 何千回何万何億回だって

  ➔ だって (datte) to express 'even if' or 'no matter how many times'

  ➔ This expression emphasizes the number of times something is done, indicating persistence.

• 引き止められず、ここには1人

  ➔ ず (zu) to indicate negation or inability

  ➔ This structure indicates that the subject cannot be stopped, emphasizing solitude.

• 倫理が道理を作るのなら

  ➔ のなら (no nara) to express a conditional

  ➔ This phrase sets up a hypothetical situation, suggesting that if ethics create reason, then something follows.